Cold sheets of bed contacted my skin yet Shin couldn't stop tracing the corner of my lips using his thumb. I kneeled in front of him and started sucking his finger like I was begging him to do something more. 

"Don't, let's do it without blindfolds," He was about to put on some blindfolds yet I refused. I held his wrist and guided it to my chest. 

He's here with me… on these cold sheets of bed yet every time he traces the corners of my body, every touch that he makes to get both of us towards satisfaction… It would make me feel like a child, looking up to an airplane. A child who waves its hands expecting to be seen by the passengers of that one plane. 

Shin… tell me, are you thinking of him whenever you do it with me?

" Why? I thought you're uncomfortable without blindfolds, "

" I never told you that,"

He began assisting me by removing my clothes. He's always like this. After sex, he would help me clean myself or even put on my clothes. Sometimes, I would wonder… would things be different and better if we had met sooner?

He accidentally touched one of my bruises so I felt pain and I failed to restrain myself from making a groan.

" Your bruises kept increasing, I told you… we should already find a blood donor,"

Shin, when will you tell me about your first love? Did he really die?

" I told you, my blood type is rare… It's impossible to find a match,"

" Then let's find your paren--,"

" Don't you fcking dare. Shin,"

He was about to throw some words but I shut his mouth with a kiss. 

Why are you so desperate to make me stay? Are you afraid that once I'm gone, you'll be alone again?

" Why are you so eager to leave? " Shin asked after he left a peck on my neck. Those whispers of him made me wonder if we hadn't met years ago, would he be living a better life?

Tell me, if he didn't die, would you still do this with me?

Shin began touching the tip of my manhood. It was like he was restraining his hand to go all over the way. 

" Hey, just put it inside already,"

I felt uneasy as he continued teasing me. 

" I won't do that not until you'll explain me why did you have a fight with Juno," 

Somehow, I felt irritated when Shin mentioned Juno's name. Hearing his name makes me ill at ease.

" Why do you keep talking about things that shouldn't be mentioned during sex?" I pushed him down and began to lead this movement of ours. I assisted myself to move my hips by letting my hands touch the bed to keep my balance. 

I came too soon as I felt how hard and long he was inside of me. This kind of situation never happens in reality. Am I dreaming?

I was about to leave at the top of him but he pressed my hips to his body making me sit at his chest.

" Shi-,"

" Were you planning to leave me after getting your own basic needs? I haven't even reached mine yet," He cut off my words. I felt tired but I couldn't go against how he was controlling my body to his chest. My throbbing shaft was just in front of his face which made me feel awkward.

I could feel how he breathed as his face was just in between my thighs. I depended on his body as I sat on his broad chest. His heartbeat was beating twice than its normal rate. 

I've always waited for him to initiate this kind of sex… wherein we would not use any blindfolds to cover our sight. I wanted him to look at me but I couldn't ask myself… 

Why am I even expecting that?

Those seeds that I got released earlier… it was dripping down to his neck. I gasped as he began licking it and yes, that happened while I was sitting on his chest.

" Why would you do that?" I asked. At that moment, I began to feel regret as I felt uneasiness about his possible answers. Answer like:

I got bored.

or maybe something like

No particular reason.

" Sorry, I thought you're comfortable with it,"

I felt relieved when I heard this response. He answered my question while continuously licking 'mine'. It was already late when I realized that he was slowly moving his body to top on me. 

" Don't move," he commanded while gently entering inside. As he began to thrust deeply, I bit my lower lips. It was painful yet satisfying. This pleasure that I've always wanted to feel makes me think how long would my connection with him last?

" Faster," 

Blocking my face with my arms, Shin was grinding inside of me… panting and restraining himself to let out a single noise.

What are we?

The question that I've always wanted to ask yet I never brought it up. Those 3 words that I feared for a long time. I know that once I've got an answer from him, he will start avoiding me. Maybe he would also feel irritated. I've always been dishonest about my feelings but now I'll admit that as long as I'm still alive, I want him to stay with me in this darkness.

" Almost there… Riko, " He muttered my name as he released loads of his liquid at my thighs. He leaned his body on my arms and rested his head on my chest. He was hugging me like I was going to leave. This warmth that I've always felt… Did it reach him too?

" Shin? " 

I muttered his name but I didn't get any response. I chuckled when I realized that he actually fell asleep with just one round. 

Staring at him, I pecked on his head. While patting his hair with my other hand, I tried to reach my phone placed on the desk to check the time. However, I failed to reach it as I accidentally dropped Shin's wallet that was just beside my phone.

I carefully got off the bed. His wallet was opened on the ground. A picture inside of it caught my attention.

Reaching his wallet on the ground, my breathing stopped as I saw two people in the picture. An arm was placed on Shin's shoulder. They were staring and smiling at each other like fools.

The thunder brought up its rage. It's light came through the window making me see the face of the other man in the picture. My tears began to run down through my cheeks as I felt a pain stabbing my chest. They were still young in the picture yet I could still recognize his face. 

It was Juno and Shin.