I expected to be alone when I woke up. But I’m with him so there’s no delaying our awkward conversation.

“No matter how many years pass, you’re still the same.” I don’t know how to respond to him. Should I say likewise to him. We weren’t really close before. I’ve only met him for a short while. And that is about a month before he vanished.

Yup. He once has gone crazy and stabbed himself to death. Fey, as much as she wants to, couldn’t handle it and totally broke down. I think that’s when the first sign of intimacy between us was expressed. I just didn’t develop it further because I’m unsure of how I really feel about her and I knew that my heart could only house one Nikay and that there’s no room for another.

What if I die right now? Will the next scene I will see is not of this boy but of Nikay? I’ve been born for a second time but I hadn’t managed to save her. How truly worthless I am as a person.

I shrugged. I shouldn’t let her lost take a sore spot in my mind. She’s gone and gone forever. I know I regret that I hadn’t done my best to save her but still… this time I thought the apocalypse wouldn’t happen. That’s why I’m so stricken when I saw Fey. Even her presence dictates a wrongness in the air. I just… thought I could be with Annikka forever you know?

We’re not normal but I thought then we could live a normal life.

As I am distracted from my thoughts a shrill scream returns my soul to my body and as I looked back to her brother only then have I realized he’s gone.