Read Sugar or Spice :: Past-final

I wake up to see that I'm the only one in the apartment. Ken is nowhere to be found and because of the painkillers my body doesnt hurt as much anymore. Thank goodness it's the weekend so I can rest for the remaining hours of today and the whole day tomorrow. I check my phone to see messages from Ken telling me where he is and that I can reach him anytime. I decide to order in and sleep right after.

I get dressed after I wake up and go for a walk in the park. The sun had fully set by the time I got there but its so peaceful that I feel like I can get lost in the darkness. I find a bench to sit on and listen to some soft rock songs with my earphones, they always soothe me when my mind is too scattered. The night sky is so clear and with no one around the only sound I can hear is the song playing and the wind blowing.

I hear whimping sound down the trail and I see a dog there though it looks like its in pain. Before I have a chance to react someone dashes past me and goes over to help the dog, I guess it's his owner. I'm alone once again and now everywhere is silent, I can't push this away further... I have to get some answers before it's too late. I pick up my phone and text Ken as I'm walking home.

---Let's meet tomorrow at XX bar, 7pm. I text it to him and walk back home in silence.

Time passes by so quickly the next day, I have to get ready to meet him at the bar but a lot of thoughts going through my mind. Should I ask what happened, why it happened, or should I end it immediately I see him. Which answer would bring me closure?

I arrive at the bar a little over an hour late because of the traffic and I enter to see him sitting at the counter. As I start to walk towards him I realize that he isn't alone, or atleast that's how it seems. The person sitting beside him seems to be flirting with him, while handing him a drink. Ken smiles softly at him and caresses his face before pulling him in for a kiss. The kiss is so passionate that I'm left dumbstruck. All I can think about is that I have to get out of here and quick.

Did he want me to see this? Is this his answer. "Atleast have the decency to tell me to my face", I say under my breath as I watch him get pulled out of the bar. When I can move again I immediately take a taxi home.

---Let's break up.

---I will give you a week to find a place and then come and take your things, till then do not come back to my house.

---You do not belong there anymore.

I exit the taxi, trying to hold the tears in but it doesn't work. They drop the minute I close the door to my apartment, and I fall to the ground crying. I don't think I was going to let what he had done to me go, but I wanted some answers. To think Ken would cheat on me immediately after, I guess I meant nothing to him afterall. I get a photo message from Ken. I open it to see 3 pictures of the both of them.

Tears of Frustration, tears of Anger, tears of Pain, I had no idea which it was but it didn't stop. I lay there on the floor by my door, crying for hours till I fall asleep right there.

I leave for work earlier than usual on monday, hoping to have an insignificant day at work but the world doesn't work that way. We had been preparing for a merger with another firm so the company was busier than usual with almost everyone working overtime and on the weekends too as it was the final part of the project. I had no time to think about Ken or what went down with us the weekend before. He had sent a lot of messages saying that he wanted to explain himself but I told him not to text me unless it is an emergency.

A week passed by so quickly and he took his things from the apartment. I was at work when I received the message from him that he was done. The next day I came home earlier to change the lock on the door later, just because he left his key doesn't mean I should take my chances.

Two weeks passed, the merger was done and work went back to normal where I could finally have the weekends to myself. I went back home to meet my parents and be pampered for a little bit and came back to work quite refreshed on monday ready to put everything behind me.

"Let's go out for lunch", I hear a voice that snaps me back to reality. I look up to see Nathan's face up close which startles me quite a bit.

"It's not lunch time yet sir", I say and step back, putting some space between us.

"I own this company, can't I have lunch when I want to. And right now I want to have lunch with you", Nathan says smiling and staring at me eagerly waiting for my answer.

"I've said this before, we aren't eating lunch together anytime soon. I would push your schedule back to give you time for your lunch."

"Don't do that. Just take the rest of the day off, tomorrow as well. Do not come back to the office till wednesday. You look like you would drop anytime and I can not have the most efficient person in my office having to quit work because they are burnt out." Nathan says firmly as he walks back to sit behind his desk. "If you aren't going to join me for lunch today, just go home now."

"If you say so sir. Then, I'll be leaving." I say goodbye to him and then to others outside his office. I head home happy but a bit confused. I didn't realize it but I guess I hadn't put everything behing me yet.

FREEDOM???!!!!