Does being the oldest automatically make you responsible

No, you’re just forced to grow up early

Funny, the first kid receives “unconditional” love

But after the second kid is born, it's not even split

Just entirely given to the other kids to come

You say

“Your the oldest, their parental figure”

“Everything you do and say is an example to your siblings”

But when have I ever done what I wanted?

When have I been given the opportunity to fuck something up and learn from my mistakes

You tell me that I must listen to you

You're allowed to do anything to me because you're my mother

Instead of learning from my own mistakes, I should learn from yours

Why?

Did I ask to be the oldest?

Did I say I wanted to be responsible and a third parent?

When did I say that?

Was I even given a chance?

NO, I WASN’T

I don’t want to be a replacement parent

I just want to enjoy my life

Do things outside of school

Spend time with friends

If you weren’t even going to take off your other kids 

If you were only going to rely on your oldest to take care of them

WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MAKE YOU?

Why do I have to clean up your shit?

Did I tell you to give birth, get tired of them, and then leave them to me?

NO, I NEVER DID

I NEVER WANTED THAT

But who cares right?

I’m the oldest, a parent figure to YOUR kids

But what does it matter right, you’re my mother

Therefore you will always be right

I should always be there at your beck and call

You order, I obey. 

All because I’m your kid right?