I think it was from that time; 3 weeks ago 

Jorden.... stop it hurts... please why are you doing this... please tell me... Jorden...

shut up... just shut up senior... I'm focusing here... are you really asking me to stop when you squeeze min like this inside you... 

Please, Jorden... please hear me out... I feel dizzy... I can't stand his scent... He didn't listen to me... he kept on thrusting in and knotted. I felt my soul leave the body, it was so painful... 

Jorden, take it out.... take it out... I pleaded... But instead of taking it out, he filled me inside. 

Now, I'm pregnant with his child... I left home that day with a determined mind to meet and talk with Jorden.

When I went to see him in his class he was talking with Gin and Amy. 

Bro, what happens, if he gets pregnant?... asked Gin

Why should I care... and how can you be sure that child is mine?.... Jorden's answer stabbed through my heart like a blazing dagger, tears fell from my eyes, I could feel my whole body throbbing and shaking. 

True... I didn't know Senior was such a slut... Amy said laughing... 

what? what is she speaking about?... me?... what did I do?... what is happening here?.... I felt like throwing up... I ran to the toilet. 

I was so sad that my chest felt so heavy, I cried sitting in the toilet. 

then two boys came in... 

Did you hear that a senior from class A is sleeping around with everyone... 

whoa..... is he an omega?... 

yes... I heard he is the topper in class... name is something like April or March hahaha......

yo, man can we approach?... I heard male omega's holes are just like females... 

Yeah, we should try... and there is a rumor that he even slept with teachers for marks... 

eww... man, what a slut! disgusting... that two voices gradually disappeared 

haa... what is going on here?... Me?... I never slept with anyone for money or marks... I studied hard, without sleeping day and night, without even taking a break... I studied hard... How can you say something like that... I couldn't stand there anymore... I left for home... I kept getting Jorden's messages and calls. I was so angry at myself and so angry and others... I threw my phone against the wall... it shattered into pieces in front of me. But my endless nights of nightmare were just starting. 

April..... April..... come here right now..... I heard my mom's angry voice waving inside my room and the entire house. I thought my school called her and informed her of everything. 

I walked to the living room trembling... My sister was standing there looking at me with a pitiful face... my dad was sitting on a chair facing me disappointed, and my mother was looking at me enraged while holding the pregnancy strip I used. 

I was surprised to see that, I hid that well in m drawer.... did she check it?.... My voice didn't come out.

You dirty brat... my mom slapped me and began beating me angrily... 

Mom.... stop... stop.... please... my sister tried to calm her.... but she didn't listen to her. I was really scared and helpless... She kept asking me,  how? and who?.... but my voice got stuck in my throat. 

The next day she took me to a hospital and booked a date for an abortion. I was really weak and tranquil. I locked myself inside the room and accepted my fate. I remember one day, seeing Jorden in my neighborhood. That day I prayed to god, crying, not to let him towards me. Then a day before my abortion... I had the scariest dream I dreamt of. 

April... I saw Jorden with his gentle smile, coming towards me... kissing me gently... caressing my face... my body... and then his face changed rapidly from a gentle smile to a scary predator wolf's. he started eating me, he started hurting me. I ran away from him... I saw a little and beautiful violet flower is also getting attacked by that wolf... I wanted to save it... I wanted to run towards it. But my legs get tied up some vines. He smashed that flower to the ground, blood-splattered. I heard a cry of a baby, it got loud and loud and loud... I tried closing my ears... but it was coming out from my belly... I saw blood coming out from me... 

huh! I woke sweating and panting in the middle of the night... My sister who went drink water from the fridge came to check on the sound she heard from the room and saw me crying. 

brother, are you ok?... she came and sat beside me

I'm ok.....

you are not I know... brother I know you don't want to abort the child and I'm not going to ask you who is the father of this child..... but if you need me I'm here for you.... do you want me to speak with mom?... she asked me

I was so heartbroken... I hugged her and cried... then we decided to leave for my grandma's house... She gave me her small savings and walked me towards the bus stop. I went to my grandma's house.

Baby... I know... I know... now that you are with grandma... don't be afraid... stay here and raise the child if you want. I will never ask you about the child's father until the day you tell me... she slowly stroked my hair as I fall asleep in her lap. 

After 8 months, I gave birth to Violet in a local hospital. The doctor who helped us with the paperwork helped me again with my high school graduation. Then when violet was 6 months old I passed my high school, and I left her with my grandma and continued my studies. I buried my dream to take Ph.D. in mathematics and took a bachelor's and diploma in English Literaure. Emma and Evan were my only friends. After graduation, I got a job in a publishing company. Violet and I moved to the city.