(Three years prior to present day)
“Mark me, Lee. Make me yours.”
Suddenly, I couldn’t get nearly enough oxygen into my lungs. The stars and moon reflected in her eyes, the hunger that was there right along with them…
I gulped.
To make her say those words aloud, to hear her speak them… it wasn’t what I thought it would be. What had I been thinking?
Had I really thought I would be able to hold onto some sort of control when she looked at me like that?
When her voice dropped low…
Everything I wanted came to the front of my thoughts, in the beginnings of completely consuming my mind.
I didn’t think it would feel this intense – I didn’t think it could be. I stared into her eyes, barely able to breathe. Our wishes, our desires… right at this very moment, they were aligned perfectly.
Every fiber of my being was held back by the thinnest of strings. It wanted to do exactly as she’d said, right then, right there. Everything was telling me not to waste a single millisecond.
But was this too fast?
Was that even a thing I needed to worry about?
I couldn’t help but let those questions join my thoughts.
One month… was all it had been. Yet, it was forever since I’d seen her. Forever.
And all it took was two more words to break me.
“Right now.”
That string snapped.
I couldn’t hold back anymore. I dove into a hungry breath-stealing kiss and felt her hands wrap around me, clutching at anything – my shirt, my shoulders… Breaking away to glance in her eyes, the look she gave me said everything I needed to know about those questions. The moon shimmering in her eyes, she looked desperate. As much as she wore it, I felt it in my own body, writhing around, unrestrained.
I’d nearly run to the door when I’d felt her presence coming closer. I’d already been like that then, without even seeing her face.
And now… now we were alone.
I’d grant what she allowed… because I was up for anything. I wanted everything.
My lips found her neck, and I worked my way down from her jaw, sliding the edge of her shirt past her shoulder, stretching the fabric a bit as I did. She held tight to me, grabbing fistfuls in her hands, pulling me closer.
Her breath was in my ear. It was warm and tickled. I shivered involuntarily at the sensation.
“Is this okay,” I mumbled into her skin, knowing she could hear me.
I felt her nod, and smiled as I placed another kiss on her neck before speaking.
“Words.”
Fast as she could, breathless, she gave me permission.
I wanted her to be completely certain, every step of the way. I needed to know the boundaries of what we were doing. Her boundaries.
I didn’t want her to regret me doing this. I wouldn’t, I knew, unless she did. Because… there was no way to undo it, no way to take it back once it was done.
“Yes. Yes, it’s more than okay.”
A light laugh escaped me at her eagerness.
“Good.”
I took a deep breath to steady myself.
She whimpered, deep in her throat. I felt it… the tremble on her neck.
“Please… Lee.”
I couldn’t hold back any longer. I bit her, as lightly as I could, while also making sure to leave that mark. So she was mine to hold like this… mine to love like this. I sealed this connection between us. She held me closer as I did. Tighter.
A sort of peaceful bliss followed, and I kissed my way back up to her jaw before looking her in the eyes.
She leaned her head against mine, eyes closing. We took the next few breaths in silence, but it was comfortable. It was needed. Breathless as we were, it was like we’d just run a marathon.
Her fingers found my face and she cupped my cheek gently. When our gazes were found and held, we both smiled.
“I love you, Lee.”
I kissed her as long as I dared before sighing happily at her words and at the warmth in her gaze… at this whole moment we were sharing.
“You know I love you too, Jane.”
She grinned wider before biting her lip.
I could see it in her eyes. I could feel it in my bones.
This wasn’t over.
The bond.
The process to make it official… wasn’t entirely done yet.
Did we dare…
Finish it entirely?
“I want…” Her voice trailed off as her gaze fell down to my lips.
“More,” I finished the sentence for her, my voice low, like the growl of a hungry animal. And maybe that was what I was. Hungry.
Her eyes found mine again, and I knew before she nodded.
So do I, Jane. I want more too…
Whether it be wrong or right, whether it was too soon…
Whether it made us crazy or simply insane, I didn’t want this night, this moment to stop here. It couldn’t, not if this was what we were both prepared to face, regretless, regardless of the consequences it might bring someday.
“I want all of it.”
“I want all of it too,” was my reply, a husky whisper on the breeze.
Words spoken in the night air under the stars were solidifying everything this moment had to offer, and what we had offered each other.
This night… would change the rest of our lives. It – it already had.
Keeping this a secret wouldn’t be easy.
Parents.
Friends.
They’d find out one day, whether through a small innocent question, or in discovering the bite mark Jane now wore.
I smiled now, remembering the conversation we’d had with Lynn and Josephine.
Who of us would be first?
It seemed…
We’d both be first.
That was fine by me.
We pulled each other closer as I picked her up, her legs hooking around my back, keeping her in place. I carried her over to the grass, setting her down gently. Our kisses ended when we landed, me kneeling before her, above her, with her arms wrapped tightly around my neck. My own remained under her back and shoulders, keeping me hovering so close above her.
Pausing, staring…
“More comfortable?”
She smiled, moving her hands to hold my face, her thumb brushing the area near my eye gently. A small caress.
Of love.
Of…
Of everything.
I could feel it through her fingertips, in how she held my face.
“Yes. Very.”
For some reason, it was odd.
That look in her eyes, of undeniable love and trust…
I didn’t have a chance to be nervous about any of this.
No way.
This just felt so right.
She pulled me down to her.
Our lips met in a frenzy.
Words…
They were no longer necessary.
Our actions spoke much louder than any word between us could possibly be.
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