Josh

Alex

I went to the toilet near the infirmary, where mostly no one goes. I closed the door behind me and immediately drank three pills with tap water. Just one to make me feel better …. but the more, the better.

I locked myself in one of the booths and sat on the toilet with the cutting board down, so that I practically sat.

I waited for the pills to work.

It doesn't take long, half an hour and that's it.

In less than ten minutes, I began to smile and then laugh. Tears streamed from my eyes.

I had chaos in my head now. I felt miserable but at the same time I felt so happy, it could be that the tears I was suffocating in myself finally went out but I think it was the pills.

When was the last time I did this? Nine months ago? Eight? I don't know anymore.

All I know is that it's been a long time.

At the time, I was doing this because I hated myself so unbelievably, I hated almost everything about myself at the time, my eyes, my body, my hair, my nature, but most of all my orientation.

Now I hate only my feelings. I hate it when I fall in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way and only has eyes for someone else.

"Ha, I'm supposedly in love with Stephanie, hahaha! Of course, it would be a lot easier if I was normal, right? And I'd like conceited blonde girls, huh? Hahaha! "

I'm an idiot.

I have to apologize to him. Apologize to him as soon as I see him, which should be in class first.

I came to class but he was nowhere.

He will definitely come before the class starts or before the teacher arrives for class.

"Crrr!" The bell announced the beginning of the lesson, but Alex was still nowhere.

I looked at the door, expecting him to come at the last minute, but the teacher entered the class instead.

He'll probably be here in a lesson, maybe.

I don't understand where he's been for so long.

If it was Daniel, I'd guess he's hanging out with his girlfriend somewhere. That Alex would also secretly make out with someone? I don't know, he's not talking to me about his love life. I don't even know if he was dating or dating anyone. Damn, I don't even know what kind of girls attract him.

With my old friends and I always wondered what we would do if our favorite actress showed up at school out of nowhere. Eh, of course she was a normal actress and not from a porn.

And we also evaluated which girl is as attractive from a scale of 1 to 10.

I could do this with Alex one day, I'm quite interested in his taste.

The lesson is over. And Alex is nowhere again. Where the hell is he?

I didn't like it and I went to ask Daniel where he might be, he's been going to school with him for a longer time than I am, so he'll probably know where he hangs out most often.

"Strange, this hasn't happened in almost a year. I remember that he often went to the infirmary then, he was often sick. Try it there, if it's not there, I don't know, "he advised me, and I went to that place.

Alex nor the nurse wasn't there either. With the untaken, I walked back down the hall.

When I heard a strange sound. It sounded like someone's laughter, very forced.

I went to see where it came from, maybe it could be him, but I've never heard him laugh like that before.

I heard someone's footsteps.

I quickly covered my mouth with my palms so that someone would not hear me and pulled my legs together. But sobs mixed with laughter kept coming out of my throat.

I called his name all over the toilets but I didn't hear any response.

I wanted to give it up and leave, but I still hear that laughter. Like someone didn't want me to hear them.

"Alex!" I banged on the booth from where I could hear the laughter.

"Open up! It's me, Josh! Alex, open it or I'll kick out the door! "

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

How did he find me?  It didn't matter, he couldn't see me like that, no one could see me like that, but especially he.

I held my palm tightly to my mouth and strangled my other neck so that I wouldn't make a sound.

The laughter stopped. That it would seem to me all the time? Nonsense, if no one was in that cabin, it wouldn't be locked.

I don't care, I'll get in anyway.

"Watch out in there!" I warned.

I ran across the cabin for better effect and slammed the door.

Alex was inside, trembling, red-crying eyes, covering his mouth with one hand and strangling with the other.

"Alex?" I looked at him carefully, hoping he would explain.

Why me?

This is a mess, no it is something much worse, it is a disaster.

I deliberately go to a place where no one goes, so that there is no danger that anyone will see me and he will now see me as a complete wreck. Why him?

I was trying to come up with a lie that would explain my situation. When my stomach ached terribly, it was as if someone had punched me in the stomach with all their might. Those are the side effects of those pills, damn it. I curled up in a ball. I almost fell to the ground.

"Alex!" I caught him so he wouldn't fall to the ground. He must be very sick.

I took him in my arms, he was quite light.

I ran with him to the infirmary. Fortunately, the nurse was there as soon as she saw me and Alex, and I would have gone with him to the nearest bed.

I placed him carefully on it and she began to treat him. "How will he be?" I asked her carefully.

"In the end, he will be fine. he stopped by because he was not well and took pills that have side effects of stomach cramps and constant laughter, these side effects are very rare, but unfortunately, they occur in him. I'll just give him abdominal pain pills and that's it. " she gave him pills and left him alone.

"I will write an apology to the two of you for the reason you did not come to class and I will release you from the next lessons. You'll be here until the pills take him, "she told me before going to her desk, where she wrote the apologies.