Lost

Sometimes I wonder how I ended up so cynical,

Why no matter what you say, 

I always expect the worst from you.

And then I remember.

It’s you.

It’s always been you.

It’s because you always top my expectations.

It’s because all you ever do is yell,

It’s because every conversation leaves me wanting to cry.

And we’ve tried.

We’ve all tried.

But you don’t listen - you won’t listen.

Because you can’t do anything wrong.

Because you’re always right

and we’re just

Overreacting.

Being dramatic.

You don’t mean to be like this,

I know.

But you refuse to change.

You refuse to acknowledge 

all the damage you’ve done,

All the people you’ve forced away.

All the ways you’ve hurt us.

But I hate how I still,

More than anything,

Just want an apology.

I just want you back.

Where did you go?

Why do you make us all feel unloved, 

And when we tell you,

Your only response is 

‘Don’t be stupid’.

It doesn’t even matter anymore

If you really do love us, 

Because as time goes on…

You’re losing me.

You’ve already lost me.

You’ve had your chance and 

you ignored it.

You ignored us, all of us,

time and time again.

You’re losing all of us.

You’ve already lost me,

You’ve nearly lost her,

You’ve nearly lost them.

You’re losing us all.

So I just want to ask:

Being in the right, 

never admitting to

your shortcomings…

Is it worth it?

Are you happy now?

I really hope you’re happy.