I was freaking the fuck out. I had been staying at the pack house for four days now and my wolf was howling at me nearly constantly to go to Emil. Four days ago, I told Candy about Emil being my mate and she was elated but for some reason she made me leave that night instead of when his preheat started. Since then, I’ve been a mess. Confined to my room and I wanted desperately to be with him. I tried mind linking him a few times but got nothing but my wolf telling me that only his wolf was there. The attempts led to my wolf nearly taking over and so I forced myself to stop.  

Candy kept me updated and let me know that he was okay. I was surprised to hear that he slept most of the time and that he never entered preheat. Now I realize why Candy had me leave early. I wouldn’t have been able to control myself if he went into heat out of nowhere. 

Today Candy told me that his heat was calming down and that I could return tomorrow so now I was packing up my clothes. I was restless that night. I didn’t sleep at all.  

When my wolf started to fade to the back of my mind again, I knew my heat was almost over and I could think more clearly. One thing stood out to me though as I returned to my normal state. My wolf said something to me that left me both confused and petrified. When Andy returned home, he hadn’t even entered the house when my wolf whispered in my mind ‘mate’ before it seemed to fall back into oblivion.  

Andy did not give me the opportunity to process this because once he was in the house I was in his arms and Andy was telling me how worried he was as I stayed completely still. He scented my neck more times to count not even continuously letting me know that if he was my mate he knew and had known for a while.  

He pulled away from me and looked at my frozen unreadable face, “are you alright?”  

I shook myself out of my trance and nodded my head “yes I’m fine I just wasn’t expecting a hug.” I gave him a smile. A fake one which he seemed to notice but thankfully he didn’t push the subject as his hand fell from my arms and I suddenly understood why I was sad at the loss of his touch.  

He seemed nervous. I found it to be adorable, “I’ll go put my clothes away!” He hurried into his room, and I went to the couch to think.  

*** 

It had been a month since I arrived, and I found myself becoming more comfortable around Andy. My wolf was speaking to me more telling me to get closer to him, but I instead distanced myself. As Andy became busier with preparing to become the future Beta, I saw him less and instead became focused on the show that Andy had finally revealed to be called the bachelor. It helped to distract me from the ever-growing pull of the bond between us much to my wolf’s dismay.  

Since I had found out Andy was my mate, I had concluded that I was not good enough for him since I was a lowly omega. A wolf of his status and stature deserved at least a beta female not some scrawny omega who was only let into his home out of pity. I had also become unsure if Andy was aware of the bond because of how busy he was. Not that I wanted to, but I barely saw him during the day. He spent most of his time at the pack house training and preparing to become Beta. 

I considered confiding in Candy about the bond, but I hadn’t seen her since my heat and was unsure if I was allowed to leave the house without Andy, so I simply didn’t. Once we’re both aware of the bond I assume he will reject me accordingly and since he is kind, he will probably keep me around as a servant or something so as not to harm the bond. I would be happy to stay by his side in some way while he is with another. 

There was also the dark thought that he would reject me completely and kick me out. I did not know what would happen to me after that, but my imagination was kind enough to provide some depressing examples.  

My emotions had freed themselves more after my heat making it harder to hide how I was feeling. In the times we did talk it was always when Andy would ask if I was okay. He seemed to be so concerned for me. As I was concerned for him. I didn’t say anything, but Andy been dragging in his energetic boisterous demeanor. I could tell that the work he was doing was taking a toll. I was even woken up a couple of times to the sounds of his frustrated groans from having to work through the night.  

I couldn’t understand why he had so much work to do. It was starting to bug me how much work the Alpha had given him, so I asked him “What are you working on?” 

He was working in his room at his desk right now, so I walked into his room to ask. He seemed to have not noticed me enter because my question made him flinch. He looks back at me with a sort of surprised look before settling and answering, “apparently Delta Mark is years behind on pack paperwork and the extent of it was only discovered when the Alpha told him he was going to retire so since it’s so much Alpha put the Beta in charge of helping with it which means that I’m helping the Beta since I’m going to be taking his place.”  

I scrunched up my face at this “why did Alpha appoint someone so incompetent?”  

He shrugs “Delta Mark is a good friend of the Alpha’s. I’m sure he was appointed for a good reason.” he gives me a brief stern expression “and anyway you shouldn’t question your alpha.” 

I nod holding on to the door since the conversation seemed to be over and Andy was returning to his work but I had one more question and my wolf wouldn’t shut up until I asked “Andy?” 

He looked back at me “yeah?” 

“Do you know?” I couldn’t bring myself to be more specific. The fear was too much. It made my stomach hurt. 

“Know what?” He looked utterly confused and my heart sank. He didn’t know what I was talking about. 

I couldn’t bring myself to explain either, so I shook my head “never mind.” He looked like he wanted to question me, but I didn’t give him the chance as I closed the door behind me leaving him to his work. 

My wolf was mad, but I stood my ground. It was too soon. I wasn’t ready for him to reject me. We may not interact barely at all, but it was enough to just be around him. I wanted things to stay like this for a little longer. Just a little longer. 

It’s been one hell of a month. After accepting the role as Beta, I was immediately piled with paperwork that had nothing to do with my new role and along with that I had to start training again to make sure I was prepared. I got to train with the current Beta, so I had fun, but I ended up being so busy that I barely got to be around my mate, well my hopefully future mate. I had managed to distract him with reality TV, but he was a big distraction for me. I did most of my work at the kitchen table just so I could be a little close to him but there were times I couldn’t take my eyes off him. 

The times where something intense was happening in the show and his eyes would go all wide and he’d bite his lip in anticipation. He had not even tried, and he had captured my heart. The bond was a strange thing, but I had a feeling that even without it I would still find his cute little mannerisms adorable.  

I was nearly done with catching up with my portion of the Delta’s work, so I was excited to get closer to Emil. But I wouldn’t rush anything.  

Something interesting happened last night where after explaining the reason for my busyness Emil asked a particularly strange question. If I knew something. He blushed and looked scared when he asked which initially concerned me, so I told him no. He had chosen not to enlighten me as to what he meant and had left just as it clicked in my mind. Could he have been asking if I knew about the bond? He hadn’t figured it out this early, had he? I hoped not, I thought as I spaced off while staring into my cereal bowl. It was too soon, I’m sure he wouldn’t be ready to accept me as his mate.  

“Andy?” I realized as I looked up at Emil across the table that I had been lost in my thoughts for too long and had concerned him.  

“Sorry.” I said quickly “spaced out for a second.” he nodded slowly still looking at me doubtfully.  

I suddenly thought of something. “Hey why don’t you go hang out with Candy at her shop then after we go for a run in the forest.”  

His face was unreadable as he agreed “sure I haven’t left the house in a while it would be nice to get out.” I cringed at the thought that it might be my fault he hadn’t left the house in a month, but he didn’t seem to mind, and I wasn’t keeping him here. 

“Then it’s settled” I said strongly “after breakfast I will drop you off at Candy’s shop.” He nodded and returned to his cereal, and I started texting Candy. 

Me: ‘Hey is it okay if I drop off Emil to hang out for a bit?’ 

Candy: ‘yeah sure u guys can come over’ 

Me: ‘No, just Emil’ 

Candy: ‘why just emil?’ 

Me: ‘I think he might be aware of the bond and I don’t want to freak him out by asking sooo ;-;’ 

Candy: ‘lol so u want me to find out’ 

Me: ‘please?’ 

Candy: ‘XD no problem buddy I got you I’m curious myself’ 

Me: ‘okay so just text me what you find out’ 

Candy: ‘K’