Thursday, January 4, ????

   I hardly got any sleep and didn’t pay attention in any of my classes, my anxiety was running like crazy and I kept having a mental breakdown. “Hey man, you ok?” Eli says walking up to me, I was so lost in my thoughts I didn’t even notice I was crying.

   “Y-yeah I’m fine,” I say, wiping the stray tear off my cheek.

   “I haven't seen Yooki anywhere, where is he?” Eli says, taking a sip of his hot chocolate and looking around. I started crying again after he mentioned Yooki and he quickly looked at me.

   “Wait- did he break up with you or something?” Eli actually looked worried, I guess he’s sorry.

   “No..,”

   “Then what happened?” Eli takes a seat next to me and I tell him everything that happened yesterday.

   “Ok, 1: your dad’s a dick, 2: I wish you would have told me in the beginning with Yooki’s past so I wouldn’t of made a dick move too.” he looks at me with eyes that just yell: ‘come on Kinkay forgive us!’

   “Yeah, I'm sorry, I should have told you-”  I get interrupted by my phone ringing.

   “Hello?” I say answering it.

   “Yes, hello, this is the Welbeck hospital.”

   “Oh yes, is everything ok,” I start tapping my foot worried.

   “I’m sorry for your loss,” I almost dropped my phone.

   “W-what, Yooki’s g-gone?” I say and look at Eli, his face is pale and I bet mine is too.

   “Yooki? No no, oh my I’m so sorry I typed the wrong number, no Yooki’s awake actually and is asking about you, but he’s nowhere close to better he got quite sick from the cold water,” I sigh in relief but feel bad for whoever lost someone.

   “Ok I'm on my way,” I say and hang up grabbing my bag. 

   “Wait, we still have class,” Eli says, running after me.

   “Yooki’s more important than a diploma,” I say opening the school doors.

   “He’s ok?”

   “Yeah, the nurse had the wrong number,” I ran to my motorcycle and put on my helmet.

   “Ok, well I guess I'll stay here I doubt he wants to see me after everything, so go take care of your boyfriend, and say ‘hi’ for me,” after he says that I give him a thumbs up and ride off to the hospital.

   When I get there I run inside saying who I am and run up all the stairs to Yooki’s room. I open the door and wave to Yooki smiling calmly. “Hi, why do you look so tired?” he says looking a little worried.

   “I haven’t gotten much sleep, but I'm fine,” I say and sit on a stool next to Yooki’s bed.

   “You saved me?” Yooki looks up at me and I can’t read him this time, a mix of sadness and happiness I suppose.

   “Of course,” I say but he just looks down at his hands on his lap and I gently grab his chin to make him look at me.

   “Hey, I’m sorry about everything I said, I didn’t mean it,” I explained everything that happened with my dad and what he said and it seems to make Yooki relieved.

   “You deserve more than me, you deserve someone that's not so scared of his dad and-” I get cut off by a slap on the mouth.

   “Don’t talk like that, and no more putting yourself through this just because of me, I want you to be happy no matter what, ok?” as he says that I can tell he’s serious.

   “Yes sir,” I say and salute, making us both laugh. 

   “Oh, I almost forgot, Eli wants to say hi and that he’s sorry,” that seems to make Yooki stop smiling a little but he nods.

   “I forgive him,” he says and gives me a small smile.

   We talked for quite a while, Yooki coughed a few times throughout conversations making me worry, after a while, we both looked out the window and noticed that it's getting dark. “Wanna talk to Eli and Elly, maybe Ming,” I say and hold up my phone.

   “Yeah I want to say they're forgiven,” he smiles as I dial the number and put the phone on speaker.

   “Hello?” Eli answers.

   “Hi,” Yooki and I say at the same time.

   “Oh hello, Yooki, you ok?” after Eli asks Yooki’s silent for a little while.

   “Yeah, I'm ok,” Yooki says, but for some reason, I don’t believe him, I have a feeling he’s hiding something.

   “Ok great, oh, by the way, I'm sorry,” Eli says and it sounds genuine so I know he means it.

   “You're forgiven,” Yooki says, giving his sunshine smile even though Eli can’t see it.

   After a little while of talking to Eli, Yooki hands me a necklace with a moon charm. “Why a moon?” I ask, smiling and putting it on.

   “Don’t you remember, the moon is the brightest star at night,” Yooki smiles but then it fades.

   “Yooki I can tell you're not telling me something,” I look at him until he finally looks back at me but his eyes are teary.

   “I’m sorry Kinkay, I should have had more self-control and not jumped from the top of the waterfall,” I look at him a little confused and then remember what the nurse said over the phone.

   “Y-you have a chance of dying don’t you?” after I say that I look down at my hands and feel tears sting my eyes.

   “Hey I said don’t get sad because of me, but yeah, the doctor said I might not live through tonight.” his voice went playful to sad.

   “But don’t cry about me or do anything stupid, or I’ll come back and haunt you,” he giggles a little which makes me laugh a little as well.

   Yooki smiles at me and starts coughing hard and nonstop then starts closing his eyes and laying back, I feel my heart start to race as I listen to the ‘Beep... Beep….. Beep’ turn to ‘Beep.Beep.Beep’  and then lastly the final ‘Beeeeep’ I slowly stand up when the nurses and doctors run in. I knew he was gone even before they knew they couldn’t save him, I watched as they pulled the blanket over his face.

   I walk out of the hospital and stand outside looking up at the stars, I notice one very bright star and smile.

 Yooki’s where he wanted to always be...

With the stars, because he is

My Starboy

The End