He’s surprised about me doing well on a test, upset about it too for some reason. Is a quiet student who is good at math that preposterous? I lower my sight to my desk as I hide my frustration. Whenever I had a problem with my peers and went to adults for assistance they would say “something something communication”.

Did they expect me to have conflict resolution skills? I’m an overprotected modern suburban kid. I simply lack the experience with socializing that would build those skills.

Uh was I supposed to introduce myself before talking about the stuff that happens to me. I’m Lab Brat and since school is boring I conduct experiments in my free time. My best friend is my bunny, Mr.Fluffy even though he can’t talk …yet.

My next project is to find a way to get myself to speak up when I’m upset. I have ideas for retorts but I just freeze up and can’t say anything. Would a speaker that’s connected to my mind work? No, it would not be as satisfying if the words didn’t come from my mouth.

Why do I even come up with those words if I can’t say them? It’s like one part of me is bold and the other is shy. Maybe that is true for me, I should explore this possibility.

So my hypothesis is that the part of me that controls my actions is lame and does what society wants. The cool side of me is more aggressive but it’s control is overridden by the shy loser side. The next step is to decide which personality traits will be made prominent by the serum I’m developing. The serum should make me more snarky. I guess I do possess the wits for that but my fear of attention is the obstacle.