Hello everyone!

I know it's been a rather long time since anything happened, so let me first start by saying that the past year has been incredibly impactful on my life. So let's get somethings of the way!

First things first: what have I been doing since I last posted?

Well simply put, I've been working my ass off.

During 2021, I had an impasse in my life, due to issues stemming from home. I was in college at the time, struggling to finish school and had also lost my job as a result of my poor decisions during the start of the Pandemic. Fastforward to the Fall of 2021, and I'd managed to scrape up some semblance of normalcy with a new job, and then a personal issue nearly sent my mentally and emotionally spiralling into depression, with the feeling of the lack of control causing me to loss my sense of self. It took awhile, but the process of regaining my sense of identity was painful to say the least and I ended up giving up writing because my depression was too much to handle all at once. Throw in the fact that I'm in a relationship and you pretty much imagine the strain I was put under from all sides. I won't go into too many details, but just know that at that time, I'd lost my voice (mentally).

Now here I am in 2022 and I'm a working gal now (I'ma dude btw but whatever!)! I have a full-time position and I'm learning how to live as young adult while experiencing things from the lens of someone who's mentally aged older than their physical body. It's not much, but it's my life, and overall, I'm glad. I have a stable, steady, consistent job, the pay is decent, and I'm able to take care of my responsibilities in small ways while having a sizable support group of my family (albeit with some caveats). Moreover, the job I work has given me enough mental flexibility and drive (simply by being active and social), has lead me to reawaken my voice as an individual and as a writer, and now my sense of creativity has returned.

It was very difficult at first, trying to open up after what I went through, but I feel better knowing that there are people who believe in me and not just myself.

So, next question, what's next for the future?

Well, to answer that, I have to start from the beginning (in the writing sense). The foundation I've built is decent, but not enough to really be considered worthy of attention. And to be honest with you, I'm fine with that. In the past, I was desperate almost to reach the goal of being noticed as a writer, so I constantly hammered away at my craft, throwing anything at the wall hoping it would stick. It was fun at first, but the realization of my antics hit dead in the face when my professor explained to me that my craft had no direction, no goal, no substance; in short, I was grasping for straws when I should've been laying down bricks. Taking her words to heart, I began peeling back the layers of my original works, and understood her logic. The grand and lofty goals I was reaching for was getting far too lofty, to hefty to tackle all at once without a proper lens or scope. I was trying to draw in eyes, but there was nothing to look at it.

Going forward, I made the decision to pull back my sense proportion and focus on the basics: the audience, and the intent. To that end, I started to write more on the lines of realistic views, not straying away from my fantastic, fictional roots, but instead grounding my diction in a way that people can follow without having to constantly stop and ask questions that takeaway from the message I'm creating. Those deviants are good, but I've learned the hard way that my type of writing carries far too many topics that could easily overwhelm people if I just dove them head first into the middle, without a clear beginning or end. Thus, for the future of my writing, I've adopted a more grounded sense of description, and have since used my language to create a vivid picture that flows like a pausible animation, taking time to properly draft the overarching narrative without giving off too much needless or unwanted exposition.

Well, that's good and all, but what about the stories?

*chuckles* Well, funny as you should ask, but I haven't been exactly sitting on my laurels. So what that in mind, here are some of the following stories that I've begun drafting. I'm gonna lie and say that I'm an expert in the subject matters at hand these stories cover, but I will say that I'm doing my damnest not just to be a good writer, but a writer that presents his worlds not just as a story, but as a living existence.

So come, and see what exactly it is I've been cookin up...