A Tribute to Technoblade 

I’ve thought long and hard about this. Today is September 2, 2022. On August 31 it had been two months since his family had told us the news of Techno’s passing. 

I can’t imagine the grief his family is going through. No matter how hard I grieve it will never amount to the same level as his loved ones. 

I cry anytime I see a vod be recommended or a tik tok comes up of him because deep down I know that I’ll never get to experience it again. I was fortunate enough to have gotten to see his last livestream and I just remember going and looking at vods days after and crying that I had experienced Technoblade one last time. 

When Alex’s dad walked in and sat down in front of that camera I had never felt such dread. Like many others I wished for it to be some cruel joke and for Techno to laugh and say 

“Got you nerds! Who do you think I am? Technoblade never dies.”

That was wishful thinking. 

I cried, and I cried until I simply couldn’t anymore. 

For the whole month of July I refused to accept it. I kept telling my sibling all of the things we would never get to experience, all the streams we had missed and all it did was make me more devastated. 

Technoblade got me through my junior year of high school. AKA, covid. That whole year inside would have been so much more miserable If I never learned who Technoblade was. 

I can never thank the Dream SMP members enough for the amount of laughs, and joy they brought to so many of us that year. 

August for me personally was the month of nothing happening. So it gave me a lot of time to reflect. 

Who was I? Were the people I had stayed friends with for years worth the deteriorating mental health? 

Am I good enough? 

In all honesty I have no clue. I convinced myself from the age of 14 that time was running out for me. That seeing the light of the next year was considered lucky.

I’m 18. I just started college and I have no idea if I even want to be doing it. 

Alex’s passing has made me really think about how I’m going to be taking my next step. 

Uhm, and I have no idea. No clue. Growing up is really scary. 

You can’t ever be prepared for the future no matter how hard you try. So I’ll go with the flow. Even if the flow is shit and it sucks, sadly that just life. 

That was my really long winded way of saying. 

Thank You, Technoblade. 

I’m forever grateful to you and everything you did for us. 

Rest In Peace, Alex

I miss Technoblade <3