9-7-22

Yo, hello again you know what's weird. School. It's something I've been thinking about. Now when you really think about school it seems normal and understandable..

But, like it's honestly a bunch of busy work until you're old enough to make your own decisions. Like think about whether you really remember anything you learned in middle school. Middle school especially. I remember all 3 years in ela I learned; Tone, Mood, and like something else.

ALL THREE YEARS- it was honestly 3 years of my life where I did honestly nothing.

School is weird, it's also really stressful sometimes, and just long. The days just draggg onn. Until it just becomes your life. LIke think about it when you're not in school you wouldn't think school is that bad but when you're in it.. It's like hell and you think about random shit you wanna do at home.

For example, I'm still in school.. And well.. as of right now in my AP social studies class, we're learning about native americans and the “gift of time.” It's basically when the native americans learned how to organize their food and start farming and didn't need to hunt anymore. Giving a lot of time to do like whatever they want.

And with this time they were like hella boredThey came up with lacrosse, jewelry, more sports, religion, etc.

Think about it if kids around after elementary maybe a little highschool were able to get out of school and go into the world.. I dont know.

Sorry i'm bad at explaining and/ or making my point. I'm not here to persuade you anything yeah i dont really care if you agree with me. 

I just think and tell.. Sometimes people understand and sometimes I dont think and I just say things and I'm as surprised as everyone else when the words like leave my mouth. : )

Idk why I sound depressed. I'm not a depressed person and I'm definitely not chill. 

Not chill at all, it's weird cause i have such emo, depressed, aggressive friends, and i guess i'm the only funny once and happy one. Like the bubbly and dumbass one yk?

So writing is definitely not what people expect when they see me irl.

I'm a completely different person online and irl, but isnt that true for everyone. I dont know if I'm better or worse. I want to be the same but., your first impression changes everything.

• It all depends on social media

• Do you have many subs? You're super cool.. Do you barely have any subs? Yeah bro you kinda suck-

It's a weird place. But if you really think about it, people who aren't on their phones very often.. Are kinda in their own world. Like there are billions of people in the world. It's crazy to think someone could be your best friend and you'll never meet them. : (

-there are so many lonely people, sad people, sometimes i wish i could go hug them because i'm pretty lonely too.. : )

Another Thing.. I swear maybe i should name this book “isnt it weird” 

• Isnt weird that sometimes you can have friends but.. You just feel like your not truly yourself and stuff?

Like you look at movies and see these fun amazing friend groups.. And you wish you could have that?

Its weird.. I write a lot.. I'll be at school and we'll have maybe some free time to work on homework and stuff.. Kinda like study hall. BUt, basically I'll pull up one of my two google docs with this one.

Or my other one.. Which yes, I'm writing an actual book.. With an.. Actual story.

It's called Fetch Me A Slushy if you wanna check it out. : )

Title: Fetch Me A Slushy 

✨ Genre: BL, Comedy Romance, Comedy Drama 

Story: a group of teens who live in a shed in the middle of nowhere.. They go through laughs, love, hardships, and ofcourse a secret BL between the unexpected.. The popular blondie and the jealous lonely deaf boy. And while all of this is happening they go through some crazy chaotic funny stuff. : )

@theneevs