Sep 11, 2022

Yes it is 9-11 I remember last year I drew a watercolor piece of art dedicated to it.

Today I was supposed to get a lot done.. Yet I got almost nothing done and on top of that I got distracted. I dont know if I have too many hobbies? To zoning out way too much. ITs like I have so much to do..

Well basically i cant keep complaining about it i guess. I had set a goal for this weekend to write a new episode for my BL and fix all the grammatical errors but of course life got the best of me.

I also was going to write in this episode about my goals, dreams, and careers.

Trust me it doesn't matter how good your plan is or how well you picture it, it's never going to turn out the way you wanted and you're probably going to have to give up on your dreams. 

But don’t worry it's okay.. Cause you'll come up with something better and the cycle will begin again.

I’ve realized well actually i've already known this but, social media is hell.. Youtube especially can get like 20 likes but that 1 dislike can really, really bother you.. Trust me, I'm going through it right now. 

This weekend I got distracted. I want to do so many things and I like way too many things. For example, I really like editing so I created an edit channel.. Yes, as if I have time for that shit. But, for real it's not like edits take over an hour to create at a time, time I really really don’t have.

But, unfortunately.. Last night i was rlly bored and like i said i made one. And the sad part is that I really like it.. You see I get hyped about stuff and then it just comes crashing down. Like I know and I literally see myself editing my channel and deleting it for the like 50th time, because yes i have created god knows how many youtube channels in my goddamn life.

I also have realized school is a lot of work now.. And I have a bad habit of dozing off and zoning out. Eh, I dont know what I'm going to do about it.

Listening to music, I even have to make time to do things I want over the weekend. It's like I have so many things to do. I keep telling myself to watch that show and read that webtoon, but I never have the time.

A big thing is my actual TV show pitch.. Sounds cool right? Idk, anyways i'm working with some people to make a show.. And we were planning and looking at studios. I'll give you the idea cause I want to share it with you.

I was going to write this more professionally, maybe make an entire episode dedicated to this but apparently not. : ) writing something is better than procrastinating and writing nothing.

The show name might.. MIGHT be called the “Game Clash” that's what i want to call it at least it's a long story but basically the show is well inspired by something that uh.. Means a lot to me.. Anyways that's not the point.

• The show is an unscripted, scripted TV SHOW.. meaning all the characters who are basically members of the show who are auditioning.. Put in their actual character traits and real life personality traits in the form that we have going on right now. 

• Basically it's a group of teens and young adults with mostly “made up plots” 

• The genres of the show as of right now.. Like I said this is a planning phase and I'm keeping everything a secret.. And since this is like a secret wattpad/book then I can share it. 

• Genres; comedy, drama, romanceish

• There will be love in the show of course it doesn't have to be entirely real but of course the show isnt really about acting.. It's kinda funny improv? Its like your normal funny TV/netflix shows expect everyone in the show are there actual personalities

• Everyone lives together.. As of right now I just like calling it a studio. My business partner likes calling it the mansion.. Eh that part doesn't really matter but, basically everyone lives together and there will be a floor for bedrooms, jack n 'jill bathrooms, and a recording music studio, a recording tv studio, a set, a kitchen, etc. etc.

Yeah and that's basically some stuff I can share with you right now.. : ) Okay well that concludes today's entry. BYEEEEEE