Change

The next sensation I feel is a pinch on my earlobe.  It doesn't startle me, just draws my attention and focus. I open my eyes slowly to see Naka's angelic face, just as calm as if we were talking about what to have for lunch.  He smiles and turns to look at something, someone else.  I just keep staring at the side of his face when it is replaced by Barney's face.  He looks a little calmer now but his eyes are red from crying.  He smiles at me and I think I smile back because he releases a huffed breath in relief.

He leans down and I feel his warm breath next to my ear.  I can feel the vibrations of his voice floating into my hear but I can't make out the words.  I close my eyes and try to focus only on his voice as it starts to come through gently, softly.  "Sobata, it's time to come back to me.  I'm lonely without you."  Barney repeats this line over and over and slowly, I can hear every word.

I raise my hand and touch the side of his face, holding my hand against his warm skin.  "I'm here Barney.  You don't have to be alone now."  I can feel him nearly collapse against me as he pulls me into his arms and lap, rocking slowly as he whispers, "Thank you….. Arigatou…….Thank you."  I smile and cuddle into his massive chest, absorbing his warmth.

I feel a hand gently stroke my hair a few times and a gentle kiss on my temple. Then I hear Naka's voice, "You did well, Barney.  Get him into bed and let him rest."  Naka's hand leaves my head and I can feel Barney effortlessly rise from his seated position on the floor and gently lay me in our bed.  I keep a tight hold of his shirt to keep me grounded.  Barney doesn't even try to escape my grasp.

I feel the futon dip as Barney lays with me on the bed, pulling me into his body, wrapping around me with his solid warmth.  "Sleep, Sobata.  I will never leave your side."  I fully relax and let sleep take over my senses, knowing that when I wake, Barney will be with me.

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Oh how wrong I can be.  And what did I expect?  I'm a mess, a complete and total mess of a man that is now in charge of five other individuals that very may wall have more current experience than myself.  What was Tachi thinking?  What was I thinking?  What the hell is fate thinking?  All of these thoughts keeps circling in my mind as I feel a headache forming. 

Growling, I sit up and clutch my head, nails digging into my scalp, brining my senses to life.  "Oh my fucking god!  What is wrong with this world?"  I whisper out more to myself than the gods or fate or the world for that matter.

Barney chuckles from the lounge area before he stands up and walks over to the futon.  He is holding a travel mug with both hands like he is cradling the most precious gem.  He stops at the edge of the bed and holds the mug out to me. "Tea.  Green tea, honey, cinnamon, turmeric, ginger, coconut milk and vanilla."  Barney says as I grab the mug.

I tilt my head slightly and raise an eyebrow, "Vanilla?"

Barney smirks, "I know that is your secret ingredient that you add to your tea.  It's the one thing that Naka didn't know.  Or didn't remember."  He sits down lightly on the edge of the mattress.

"It was how my mom made tea but vanilla, real vanilla, is expensive so when I debuted and lived in the dorms with Naka, we really couldn't afford it.  I knew if I told him about it, he would sacrifice necessities just to make sure I had it.  I couldn't be that selfish."  I look up at Barney's smiling face and can't help but smile back.  "How did you know?"  I ask quietly.

Barney tilts his head back like his is thinking or asking someone permission to tell me his little secret.  Has he been stalking me?  Did he interrogate my family?

"It was an educated guess." Was all Barney said.  I was prepared to torture (read, sexually tease) him to get the answer but a gentle rapping started on the doors.  Barney leans forward and kisses my forehead before he stands up, straightening his slacks and walking causally to the door.

Barney looks back at me before he turns to the doors and only opens one side, just enough to speak with the person on the other side.  There is a short, hushed conversation before the door is closed and Barney is striding back to the bed.  "There will be a meeting in thirty minutes in dance room number one.  Breakfast will be here in five minutes.  I will set this up in the office area while you are getting dressed.  You should dress and be prepared for the opening choreography warmups."

I stare at Barney with a stunned look on my face.  He has turned so business-like in a split second that I don't really know how to react.  I know after last night's breakdown that sex should be the furthest thing from my mind, but my other mind has gotten used to being woken up that way.

All I can do is stutter and stare at Barney's unreadable expression. "Uh-yeah?  So-so I need to get dressed?  And choreography today?  Su-sure.  Yeah." 

There is a slight break in Barney's demeanor but he schools his expression back to one of indifference in an instant. He pulls back the comforter to reveal my tented sleeping pants.  For some unknown reason, my other mind was enjoying his business-like behavior and now there is a growing wet spot on my pants.

No one could ever say that I get caught off guard for long.  I move my eyes downward and tilt my head while looking at my very eager dick, then moving my eyes only to look at Barney.  "I'm afraid thirty minutes wont be enough to take care of this problem you have caused.  You should take responsibility, don't you think?"

Barney steps forward and kneels on the matters.  He reaches forward and takes the mug out of my hand and places it on the nightstand.  I begin to shift back against the pillows, ready to let Barney take control and fully wake up all of me when I feel his arms under my legs and around my shoulders. 

In one swift motion, I am lifted off of the bed and held securely in Barney's arms.  Wrapping my arms around his neck and burring my face in his chest, I breathe in deeply, filling my senses with Barney's scent and my body warming to his heat.  "I'm going to finish long before you get naked, Barney."  I chuckle into his chest.

Barney doesn't reply, his grip doesn't change, his purposeful strides continue to carry us to the en-suite.  I'm expecting an exhilarating shower and being filled by this man's desire but he doesn't head to the shower.  He turns and opens the shoji to the onsen. 

I'm thinking, 'Okay.  So we start in the bath and move to the benches.  I'm down for that.'  But that's not what happens.  I suddenly find myself airborne, opening my eyes to Barney standing stoically at the side of the bath as I'm quicky approaching the water.  There is no sexy playful smirk on his face.  Only one that means business.

I hit the warm water and allow myself to sink to the bottom while crossing my arms and glaring back at Barney through the steaming surface.  I don't make a move to surface, holding my breath and keeping my arms crossed in defiance.  I'm waiting for Barney to panic and jump in to save me but he doesn't.

All Barney does is cross his arms over his chest and stand there.  Staring at me having a silent fit under the water, acting like a fiver year old that didn't get their way.  I give in to my pathetic need for oxygen and break the surface.  I don't shake the water from my hair nor wipe the water from my eyes.  I just stare at Barney, waiting.

"You now have twenty minutes to get dressed and eat your breakfast before the meeting and training."  Barney says flatly and moves to get a towel, standing at the end of the onsen, holding it out for me.

I once again, give in, dropping my head and trudging through the water to the steps.  I leave the bath, shedding my clothes one by one and ignoring Barney and the proffered towel.  I enter the en-suite and close the shoji behind me, a clear indication that I don't want Barney to follow. 

I turn on the shower and step inside the tiled space, closing the glass door behind me.  I can hear Barney enter the en-suite and move into the closet.  As I'm leaving the shower, I see Barney step out of the closet but he doesn't look in my direction.  "Your clothes for the day have been laid out in the closet.  Please dress quickly."  then he leaves, not even a glance in my direction.

I drop my towel on the floor and walk naked to the closet, entering the large room and finding my clothing laid out on the padded bench just as Barney said.  I also see my tea on the dressing table to the right.  My shoulders relax a little and my childish attitude dissipates as I reach for the mug.  I slide open the tab on top and swirl the mug.  Steam slowly emerges from the hole in the lid.  I close my eyes and inhale the heavenly scent of my wake up call.

I sigh again and take a gentle sip of the tea, testing the temperature.  It's perfect so I take another long drink and smile as all the flavors hit my tongue and the warmth moves through my body.  I slide the tab closed and place the tea back on the table.  "Okay, you are forgiven for whatever is going on with you this morning."  I say to Barney who I know is watching me from the doorway.

He walks in and approaches me slowly as I turn towards him.  His eyes are hooded and he is breathing slow and deep.  Barney stops in front of me and gently cups my cheek, tilting my head upwards so his lips can reach mine.  The kiss is slow, gentle and restrained.  I let him lead as I'm not sure what is going on with him this morning and certainly don't want this to end.  I have grown needy of his touch, focus and affection to the point of feeling physically and emotionally off when he isn't close to me.

Just as I'm about to take a hold of his other hand and lead it to the part of my body missing him the most, he pulls away from the kiss and leans his forehead against mine.  "Please Sobata.  I am now your body guard and PA.  We have to keep this professional.  I have to keep you on schedule or I could be replaced."  His breath mingles with mine and all I want to do is feel him.  All of him around all of me, inside and out.

But, I understand and I move back a little and nod before looking up into his eyes that are struggling between seeing me and looking at me.  "Okay, Barney.  I apologize and will do my best to behave.  Now get out of here so I can get dressed."  I smile at him and push his shoulders towards the door.

Barney straightens and nods, "As you wish, sir.  I have requested a thirty minute delay for the meeting but please do not take much longer.  You will need to eat before training."  He turns and leaves me to my own issues.

I debate taking a cold shower but that idea is voted down the second I touch my very enthusiastic cock.  Looking down and shrugging my shoulders, my hand moves on its own, stroking faster and faster as I feel the tightening heat begin to build.

Cleaned up and completely dressed, I enter the office space and sit down in front of the full plate of food Barney has prepared for me.  I look around for my bodyguard / PA and see him emerge from the en-suite carrying my empty mug.  He looks up and catches me staring at him but I notice a slight blush on his cheeks.  I can only smile and turn back to my breakfast knowing that he must have heard me taking care of my little issue earlier.  I have never been quiet during sex and Barney knows that but now he also knows that I'm just as vocal and loud when masturbating.  Especially when I'm using images of our past sexual play for inspiration.