January 3rd“Jay, Stop!” I Giggled as he tickled me. “Do You Really Want Me to Stop?” He Asked. “Yes,” I giggled. “You’re Making My Stomach Hurt,” I Fussed.  “Awe I’m Sorry, Baby,” He Joked. I Got Him Back This Is Unreal. I Had to Congratulate T and Ebony on Trying to Make a Baby. The Only Thing I Couldn’t Understand Was… How Were They Working It Out T, Lyd, and Ebony? Some Crazy Love Triangle ShitWel…l Whatever Works. The Way We Have Been Having Sex I Needed to Buy a Pregnancy Test. I Couldn’t Deal with A Baby Right Now. “I Gotta Take a Pregnancy Test Jayson.” “I Can’t Deal with A Baby,” “Right Now!” I Told Him. “Oh, So You Don’t Want to Be Barefoot and Pregnant” He Joked with Me. “I Really Don’t.” “Not Right Now At Least.” “Plus, We Will Be God Parents to T Baby.” I Had to Get Up and Go to Work I Had a Small Little Job Lyd Got Me Hired at The Place Called The Factory

All they had to Do Was greet and charge Whoever Ever Came in There. It Was Simple to Make the Men Happy. Women Came in Sometimes but Rarely. “welcome to the factory what’s your Fantasy?” The Secret Type Came in Business Men  Those types would surprise you; they always Asked for The Special… We Had a Strip Club inside the Building, but that’s Not What They Came For. I Got Up from Under Jayson. Damn, I Hated Leaving Him. I Loved Making My Own Money.  Yes, I Still Have a Heavy Chunk of Change in My Bank Account, but I Want to Save It. I Texted Lyd to Tell Her I Was on My Way.

She worked in The Backroom Where Fetishes Went Down, She Had Costumes for Days. I Hated Going Back Their Shit Was Crazy: Ropes Whips Diapers Hooks and Chains Knives Belts Lots of Groaning and Yelling Goes on Down Those Halls. I Stayed Away I Was Just a Cute Face to Smile at When People Came In. “Hello!”  “Welcome to The Factory” Was All I Had to Say, Check Them in and Find Out What They Were Looking for And Escort Them to The Section. I Had Men Come in Wearing Hoods and Trying Not to Be Seen Its Just Sex. I Mean its All Women but In the Back of The Factory Is the Gay Club Men Only. If you're here in the front, You Are All Good.

I’ve Seen Some Shit Working Here I Heard Some Shit To Sounding Like Torture. I Sat at The Counter, and Lyd Came Up to Me Smiling Asking for A (Goody Bag) Which Was Composed of Ropes a Whip Handcuffs and A Penis Cage a Paddle and A Gag- It’s the Bag Used for People Who Are Submissive and Like to Be Dominated. I Kept All the Inventory behind My Counter Things Weren’t Awkward Between Lyd & I  at All We Were All Good Friends. After an Hour, She Came Up to Me Asking for the (Mamma's Boy), Which Is Some Kink Shit a Big Ass Bottle Diapers, and A Nursing Suit.

I Watched Men Go in, and Boys Come Out. I Only Worked Here 5 Hours A Day It Pays Well Because People Want Their Secrets Kept. Men That Are Truly Satisfied Tip Me In the 20s Or Higher. We Have Other People Who Work Here Also a  Lady Named Angie She Sweet Young vanilla Girl with Hazel Eyes She’s Short with Freckles. She is Calm with A Soft Voice, and Quiet She Mostly Deals with Men Who Like to Be Impaled and Stretched and Enjoy Crazy Amounts of Pain

We Just Hired a New Woman She Is Very Powerful She Carries Herself Like a Queen, and Everybody Else Is a Peasant I Swear She Feels Herself Too Much, but I Mean What Can I Say? Lourdes Is Her Name Men Come in Like Rain for Her. Ebony Also Worked Here from Time to Time. She Stays on Level One. Where Small Fantasies Happen. I Asked Lyd About the Family She Smiled, and Said They Were Doing Great She Said They Rape T Every Night I Could Only Imagine.

Lyd Came Up to Me Asking For (The Whopper) I Frowned in Disgust She Laughed as She Carried the Big Rubber Dick and Gimp Suit Towards the Back. “Don’t Forget the Gag,” I Yelled Out to Her. She Came Back and Whispered, “He Wanted Me to Use My Panties…” I Shook My Head at Her This Is the Perfect Place for Her. “Not Gay My Ass!” I Shook the Thought Out of My Mind a man wanting that up his ass. We Had One Hour Left, and Ebony Walked Through the Door Asking for Lyd. I Pointed Down the Hall She Knows She Couldn’t Be in There Without a Suit I Called Her Back. Also, pointed at The Rules on The Wall She Let out a Sigh and Stripped and Put on The Outfit. 

An hour later, it was time for me to go home. I had to pee, so I quickly ran to the bathroom. I squatted as urine squirted out of me. It was a public restroom, so I couldn’t trust the seats with my bare ass. I heard the door open, We are closed! I yelled. Footsteps walked up to my stall and stopped. I can see you, I yelled, wiping myself. The feet remained in front of my booth; my heart started to race. I quickly pulled out my phone and started talking. “oh yeah, I’m in the bathroom,” I pretended to be on the phone, hoping the person would leave. 

And they did. I pulled up my pants to run for safety, and I was knocked down by something and became dizzy. I quickly rolled over to scoot away, but in front of me stood a tall person with all black on. They came up to me with black gloves and started choking me. All the memories of everyone who hurt me flashed into my head, and my PTSD kicked in. I screamed really loud, and they pulled out a knife and put it up to my stomach; through all my fear, I noticed my best friend's bracelet on the stranger's arm. 

“Lydia, this was so wrong of you,” I cried. She didn’t even know the damage that she caused. I expected her to let go, but she didn’t was she upset about jay? “is this because of jay?” “are you being serious you're hurting me” I yelled.  She dropped the knife and walked out of the bathroom. I lay on the dirty floor, hyperventilating.

 After I got up, I Was Tired. I Raced Home! I couldn’t tell jay what happened. I Needed a Shower After That Nasty Place. I Stopped and Picked Up Fast Food I needed to leave this fairy tale world yes, I had him first, but they were together and what happened was fucked up. When I Got Home It Was Dark Inside. The Door Was Open! I crept in slowly, not making a sound. I slipped into the kitchen and grabbed a knife, the biggest one I could find. Living up north taught me a couple of things never take a chance and never trust the damn police. I made my way down the hall, slowly inching against the wall. I heard a thump!  Maybe it was Jayson, but I wasn’t about to take that chance. I eased into my bedroom and peeked in. I didn’t see anything, so I made my way toward my other bedroom, the one meant for guests, the one I used for my closet.

I pushed the door open and didn’t see anybody. I Must Be Going Crazy! I Heard Somebody Behind Me. I Swung the Knife but Missed.  The knife Was Knocked Out of My Hand. I Tried to Fight Back, but I Couldn’t. I Felt a Sharp Pain in My Spine as I Hit the Floor. I Couldn’t Move I Could Breathe I Just Laid There. In What Soon Became a Pool of My Own Blood. As I Laid There Bleeding. I Watched in Horror as The Dark Figure Dragged Jayson’s Dead Body Out of My Closet. Dragging Blood All Over the Floor. I Tried to Scream, but No Words Came Out. I Tried to Cry, but I Didn’t Have Enough Force…

My phone ringing Woke Me Up Quickly from the Nightmare, I Had Fallen Asleep in The Car on The Way Home. I Tried to Slow My Heartbeat Down. I Threw Up Everywhere. I Was Sick to My Stomach I Smelt the Blood on Jayson’s Baby Lying Next to Me I Could Smell My Own Blood It Felt to Real. I Picked Up the Phone and Called Jayson back “Hello?” He Answered.  “Hey, Baby What Are You Doing?” I Asked Him to Try to Sound Calm.  “Waiting on You You’re Late,” He Said. “I Know the Traffic Over Here Was Bad Today; see you soon.” I Told Him Then Hung Up the Phone. I Took a Deep Breath and Calmed Myself.  Then Started the Car and Left. I Didn’t Feel Right. I Made It Back Home and Made Sure to Lock the Doors. I Got on the Computer and Ordered an Alarm System. I Wanted It Installed As Soon As Possible. This Wasn’t the First Time Somebody Tried to Kill Me. Nor the Second the First Time Was Up North After My Parents Were Murdered. 

The Memory Remained Fresh