3 days have gone by since my talk with Manfred.
- 3 DAYS AGO-
"What do you mean?" I asked. I turned to Manfred, but he didn't respond, he was staring at the sky again. "Manfred? Are you okay?" I approached him. "Miss Lenni," he started. "Whatever happens, you are in control of your own life, even if someone else tries to take it away. Don't give up so easily." He walked away, sat near the lotus, and closed his eyes. I forget that he's an old man. As rude as that was, that's the only thing I could come up with for why he was acting that way.
-PRESENT-
I did think and worry about what he said. I understood that he wanted me to fight for my life, no one has that chance, especially in these sorts of circumstances. I don't have the power to redo what Lenni2 did to me. I did try to get my body back. I had a plan, but I failed.
-2 DAYS AGO-
Lenni2 was asleep on my bed. I had the plan to try and push her out of my body as she did to me. I walk to her side and gently place my hand on her shoulder. I take a deep breath and lunged into the body, but I was blocked. I try again, to no avail I wasn't able to enter or push out Lenni2. Tears form around my eyes but I keep trying, the more I failed, the more tears ran down my face and the more desperate I got. At some point, Lenni2 wakes up. "You are adorable sweetheart, I told you, I am too strong for you. Go back into your garden. This is me being nice." As she said that, I feel heavy pressure on my chest. I felt adrenaline rush through me as I start to tremble. "You had your chance," Lenni2 stated. "Leave with some dignity and go quietly." Like an obedient dog, I do as she told me to, and left the room without a word. She turns over and goes back to sleep.
-PRESENT-
I'm in the garden as usual, and I am laying down in the grass. I can't communicate with Lenni2 anymore, just like she said. The transition is complete and there isn't anything I can do. My mom and Dad are none the wiser, they think Lenni2 is the perfect me. I see them talking and laughing. She took my place in my family and life. Just earlier today, I found out I was able to float. Maybe it symbolizes my willingness to let go, or it's just a spirit thing. Speaking of, I have been seeing a lot of spirits passing by, and all over my area lately. Some spirits are regular, and some I just see briefly. Lenni2 looks like she is going to live the best life, but in the meantime, what will I do? Lenni2 told me I have 30 days until I reincarnate. I wonder what the process is going to be like. I started to float off the ground while I let myself get deeper into my thoughts. Strangely enough, unlike in all those stories I have read in manga or comics, I don't see angels and demons battling each other. I wonder if they are real, or if they don't do that. Will there be a heaven or hell after this for me? Honestly, I don't care where I go. I know people worry about an eternal afterlife to hell or a blissful peace of heaven to see family members, but it wouldn't matter where I went. I have no family members waiting for me on the other side, and to my knowledge, I haven't sinned so I wouldn't go to hell. I would still be alone. Yeah, being alone doesn't sound so bad anymore. Manfred said that his spirit wasn't ready to go, so he has been here for more than 20 years, so maybe my fate would be like his.
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