What just happened? Why do I feel so frail? As if... I am Baby

I could still picture myself rushing down a street toward a convenience shop. Has my body grown so frail as a result of that incident? because I have the incredible capacity for reason, I am at an advantage, Because in this world, the brain is all that matters.

He was surprised to see himself naked and being slapped on the BUTT by a nurse when he opened his eyes the following second. HUH... How could this happen?

"ugh..... I need to cry but this body won't comply" Ivan can't breathe oxygen out.

Info: The baby has to cry when he/she comes into the world otherwise the windpipe won't open and he/she would die.

This body might not survive if I don't come up with a solution soon. I hate to say it, but let's attempt to focus and exhale some oxygen first.

"Wtf is happening with my life, I got the ability to think, and here I am, in a baby's body getting slapped." Dom feels ridiculous as well as Happy but fails to show it.

His new mom, who was beautiful with blue eyes and long blonde hair, started tearing up as she saw her kid not responding. 

He had believed he would never experience emotion, but he was. This was the first time he had experienced such emotions; in his previous life, all he had known was despair, grief, and hatred.

But now he was experiencing Joy.

After sobbing and receiving his child back, his mother was ecstatic as well.

But as she lifted her child into her arms, she was completely taken aback by what she saw:

" Huh! what's this" she exclaims in her head.

A pitch-black abyss with just one light shining into eyes that were looking as though they were watching prey. Shocked, she couldn't think of anything else but a MONSTER, so in order to encourage him to follow the path of righteousness,

"I will give you the name Ivan." She tells with a slight smile.

"Isn't it been quite a while since my mother started staring into my eyes, Maybe, I have some effectiveness, well I am already happy that I got reborn, and it's not like, I cannot see, so it could be a habit of MOM?" Ivan thinks

After understanding his entire circumstances, including his identity, his mother's name, Emily Williams, and most significantly the year—2005, which was 30 years ago.

"Now that I think about it, I think I have heard her name somewhere but I can't remember it!"

He believed that he had heard her name someplace in his previous life., His memory was not as excellent as it is today, so he didn't think further since he would not be able to remember it at all.  

After the encounter, he had a photographic memory, a highly functional brain, and—most importantly—the capacity to become numb when the situation called for it.

The following day, he was met by an attractive man with black hair and blue eyes who had no expressions and was wearing a tie and a dark blue suit as if, he were heading to a party or informal meeting.

"Where's the baby?" He asks a nurse there

The nurse points towards Ivan blushing. The man in front of her was so attractive she couldn't stop blushing.

"Huh! Now, who is this person? and why the heck is he also staring at my eyes" Ivan thinks.

After a while, he goes toward Emily(Ivan's mother),

"About the social gathering of next year, Let's make it on Ivan's first birthday, what do you say about it? and We are going to celebrate after your discharge so prepare as well" he tells Emily expressionlessly

Despite his Bad tone, Ivan's mother listened and silently agreed with all he said. His mother in this life was as good as his mother in his previous one, but the concern was his father who was like, he was going to chew him.

His father’s perspective,

Upon entering the hospital, I was overjoyed to see my youngest son, who is actually my fourth son, but I don't intend to have any more, so I'll refer to him as the youngest. Since I couldn't be by her side yesterday, I dressed fairly nicely to impress my wife, but when I entered the room, she appeared to be in a very angry mood. Since I'm here today to see my son, I suppose I should speak with her after she gets discharged and tell her my circumstances.

He watches his son's beauty but is bothered by something other than his eyes.