Even so, this is not what I want to tell you in this story. All of this doesn't really matter.

So let me introduce someone real quick.

His name was Amon Oswald.

Someone that I fell in love with at the first sight after I saw him at the ball one day.

He was from the Oswald Dukedom which is located in the eastern part of the empire and was currently the ruler of it. During the war that happen before the empire united, he was known as a wind God that mercilessly kill thousand of his enemy with his strength and speed. He was one of the war heroes.

Hence, a lot of young ladies were like me. Liking him in secret and sometimes trying to seduce him. Yet,

After the war ended, he married one of the southern noble's ladies after a few rumors going around between him and her...and was blessed with a daughter. However, because of the complication after birth, his wife dies, leaving only the two of them.

I'm not sure what going on afterward, however, from the appearance that I saw a few times during the ball. He looks tired and like, something keeps bothering him.

'but, that might just be my imagination too.'

Unlike other noble ladies, I'm not someone who always appears in the noble circle same like him. 

'because I heard he also doesn't appear often at the balls.'

So I can't really say that what I saw was true. The only time that I saw him was twice a year during a new year ball and a founding kingdom ball. 

I'm not someone that enjoys the party so, going this much is acceptable and there's also that issue too. But, let's talk about it at another time. 

For now, the only reason why I go to these two parties was that this is one of the parties that we as a noble obligated to join. However, for me who am from the poorest noble household and live far from the centre, the emperor has given us mercy to send only one representative from each of such households to the ball. And my family decide to send me to at least help me show myself to society at the age of sixteen years old, 12 years ago.

'or to be exact, they were trying to help me find my husband-to-be there... haa*'

But the circle was more fierce than they thoughts it to be, as I couldn't find anyone that willing to court me each time I come by there.

'well... it's not like they(my parents) don't expect that, knowing how uncommon lady I am.'

So, even I don't place any hope in the first place to find anyone for me. Yet,

During that time, at the founding ball a few months after my first appearance at the circle, I saw him.

A not-so-young man, 24 years old with a fine body and striking appearance. He is the embodiment of the cold north but rules the east instead. His facial full of charming with green emerald eyes that stare coldly at others, reddish pink lips that attract people to 'eat' it and white skin colour with turquoise green hair. He was so attractive during his interaction with others and all.

Nevertheless that, for me, all about him really stole my attention.

And that's when I realized.

'I love him!!'

Although I only saw him from far,

But, to my pity, during our second meeting, he was already married to another lady.