It was late in the night of early autumn, but Chen Jinxuan was unbothered by the cold water that ran down from his head to his toes. Borrowing the coldness from the shower that seeped into his bones, Chen Jinxuan regained his composure.

I almost blurted it out… He thought as he turned the shower off. He grabbed a towel and wiped the droplets off his face. Only then did he realise that he had no spare clothes in Fang Yaowei’s newly bought apartment. The thought of walking out of the bathroom butt naked made his mood worse than it already was.

“Xuan-ge? I bought a set of pajamas already for you…”

Chen Jinxuan looked at the door where Fang Yaowei’s voice came from. The voice sounded timid, but the fact that Fang Yaowei had prepared in advance a set of pajamas rendered Chen Jinxuan’s mercy into dust.

If he hadn’t fallen asleep in the car, Fang Yaowei would not have brought him here and suffered from his temper. Come to think of it, a large portion of the blame should fall on Chen Zhuoheng. Why must he care for other trivial factors? After all, it was not easy to commit to someone for as long as six years.

“Xuan-ge, I’ll put it here—”

“No need.” Chen Jinxuan unlocked the door and slid the door open.

Startled by the opening door, Fang Yaowei raised his head in reflex. In the next moment, Chen Jinxuan’s half damp body entered his sight and Fang Yaowei found it difficult to blink.

“Xuan-ge…?” Fang Yaowei swallowed the lump in his throat, putting his whole focus into looking at Chen Jinxuan’s face instead of his naked body and instead of his naked bum. He did his best to adjust his expression and said, “Xuan-ge, I was wrong. I am sorry. I know only your younger sister is allowed to call you that and I know it bothers you when I call you that while we… Uhm, I am sorry.”

Only Chen Ling was allowed to call him ‘Jin-ge’, but it was not as if Fang Yaowei had not called him the same when they first met. He remembered he referred to Chen Jinxuan as ‘Jin-ge’ throughout their first two years enrolling in the company. Chen Jinxuan never made a fuss about it, not until they started dating each other. Fang Yaowei had made the same mistakes many times before, but Chen Jinxuan never reacted so strongly against it.

Naturally, Fang Yaowei had figured that the only one who could call Chen Jinxuan ‘Xuan-ge’ was him—a hypocorism Fang Yaowei proposed which was agreed tacitly by Chen Jinxuan. So, to call him ‘Jin-ge’ while they were getting intimate was rather distracting and disconcerting for Chen Jinxuan. Ultimately, it was Fang Yaowei’s blunder.

Seeing how hard Fang Yaowei tried to fix his eyes on Chen Jinxuan’s face, the irritation in Chen Jinxuan’s heart diminished and in exchange, he felt amused instead. He had always found it entertaining to watch Fang Yaowei restraining himself even though he never set any boundaries on his younger lover. There were times when Fang Yaowei showed apparent fear or nervousness, but Chen Jinxuan had never wondered why. He always found it adorable since it showed just how much respect Fang Yaowei gave him.

Chen Jinxuan walked out of the bathroom butt naked after all. He was never the one to be embarrassed in front of his six-year companion. He refused to go out bare previously because he found it awkward after lashing out at Fang Yaowei and to emphasise that, he did it because of Chen Ling, his twenty-one-year-old sister. Now that he had tossed away the thoughts, there was nothing he could be ashamed of.

In contrast, Fang Yaowei never seemed to get used to him. It was as if he had just confessed to Chen Jinxuan yesterday and they had just officially started dating today. There were times when he felt warm and comfortable next to Chen Jinxuan, and there were times when Chen Jinxuan showed a new side which enticed him, making him nervous.

Fang Yaowei staggered as he chased after Chen Jinxuan into the master bedroom.

“You bought me pyjamas but not underwear?”

“For now… wear mine?” Fang Yaowei smiled sheepishly as he scratched the back of his head nervously.

Since this is the first and will be the last time…Chen Jinxuan opened the cupboard and stared at Fang Yaowei’s collection of clothes for a moment. Since he ruined the good moment, he thought he should compensate. He had never worn any of Fang Yaowei’s clothes because he thought casual outfits did not match his stern demeanour. In the end, he chose an oversized plain white shirt to wear.

While Chen Jinxuan pondered what to wear, Fang Yaowei stood still with the pyjamas neatly folded on his hands. He bit his lower lip as he shifted his gaze from Chen Jinxuan’s long legs, bums, peeking manhood in between his thighs, small waist, toned torso… all the way to Chen Jinxuan’s charming face and damp hair.

Again, he felt his trousers tightened.

When he saw Chen Jinxuan putting on his shirt, he felt his whole being petrified.

Xuan-ge is… wearing my shirt? Without anything underneath? Anyone could see that it was a green light, but Fang Yaowei could not figure out this simple equation. This seemed simpler and yet more difficult than any financial problems he had faced in the department. He stood still like a statue with his stare fixed on Chen Jinxuan.

Chen Jinxuan could feel his hungry stare, but he decided to pay no heed because in the end, Fang Yaowei would deliver himself to him. 

Right, he will come after me anyway. Chen Jinxuan peeled away the blanket and slid under, onto the bed. He lay down on his side, watching the dazed Fang Yaowei. Seeing that Fang Yaowei was not moving, Chen Jinxuan stretched his hand to the buttons on the wall next to the bed and turned the lights off.

“Xuan-ge! H-hold on!” Fang Yaowei snapped out of his thoughts and rushed over to the bed. He set aside the pyjamas and knelt next to the bed. Amidst the dark room, he did his best to see the outline of Chen Jinxuan’s shadow, then he gently put a hand on Chen Jinxuan’s cheek.

Chen Jinxuan stared at Fang Yaowei and placed a hand on top of Fang Yaowei’s hand. “Come up.”

Fang Yaowei got on his feet and got on the bed as if he had drunk a bowl of soul-beguiling soup.

It did not take long until Fang Yaowei started giving pecks on Chen Jinxuan’s face from his forehead, his cheeks, his nose, his lips, and his chin. Chen Jinxuan’s eyes were fixed on Fang Yaowei as his breathing became heavier. He tugged the blanket, beckoning Fang Yaowei to get under. He did not expect that Fang Yaowei would literally go under and give him a good tease with his mouth.

As if he had been injected with a kind of drug, Chen Jinxuan moaned as he coordinated his hips with the movement of Fang Yaowei’s mouth. When a foreign object teased his entrance and slipped inside, Chen Jinxuan could not help but arch his back in reflex. He felt as if his entire body was set on fire.

After a few more licks and sucks, Chen Jinxuan let out a groan as he filled Fang Yaowei’s mouth with his bodily liquid. With it, Fang Yaowei proceeded to move lower and to lubricate Chen Jinxuan’s entrance.

Chen Jinxuan’s moaning and groaning rang sporadically, boiling Fang Yaowei’s blood. While Fang Yaowei loosened the entrance with fingers from one hand, his other hand was not idle. He stroked his own until it was erect and ready before he set the tip right at the entrance.

“Hold on…” Chen Jinxuan said.

Fang Yaowei leaned forward and let their lips meet. The kiss was filled with innocence, but not inexperience. He looked at Chen Jinxuan expectantly.

Chen Jinxuan propped himself up and turned his back against Fang Yaowei. This action stunned Fang Yaowei. Throughout their six years of companionship, Chen Jinxuan never let him do it from behind. He insisted that he must look at Fang Yaowei to make love. Although Fang Yaowei could not satiate his thirst for conquest, he never disregarded Chen Jinxuan’s decision. Out of respect and out of his affection, Fang Yaowei compromised.

To be given such a chance, Fang Yaowei was delighted beyond words. He traced Chen Jinxuan’s shoulders, shoulder blades, back, and waist with his fingers. He had always dreamed of this view, and he thought he would never see this spectacle. Quickly, he removed his shirt that hid his muscular torso and pressed his chest down on Chen Jinxuan’s back as he nibbled Chen Jinxuan’s nape.

Chen Jinxuan was not used to this position. From his head to his toes, he was filled with awkwardness. He knew, however, that the younger man was pleased—ecstatic even. Chen Jinxuan gritted his teeth as he mentally prepared himself for what was imminent.

Right when he thought so, he felt a pair of hot hands on his waist, and it was followed by an intrusion of a foreign object by his rear gate. It was hot and sizable. Fang Yaowei entered slowly because Chen Jinxuan was obviously tense. He did not want to force his way in, but he soon lost his rationality to the inflating desire to conquer his man.

“Xuan-ge, I’m sorry.” Fang Yaowei whispered into Chen Jinxuan’s ear before he thrust aggressively and fervently, making Chen Jinxuan’s moaning echo within his territory.

“A-ah, ah, Yaowei… Ah, Yao… Yaowei!” Chen Jinxuan called out amidst the overlapping pain and covetousness. His mind was clouded as his senses heightened. He bit his lower lip, suppressing the calls to no avail.

“Xuan-ge… I love you. Xuan-ge… I really love you.” Fang Yaowei could not help but smile as he drove in and out of Chen Jinxuan’s body. The higher their temperature was, the wilder he felt he had become. He felt liberated. He felt as if the beast within him had been released. Fang Yaowei never thought he would be this fortunate. He never thought he would be this exultant.

Little did he know that his name, cried out by Chen Jinxuan, was not just out of love but also out of intense resentment. Little did he know that the sniffles made by Chen Jinxuan were not just out of physical pain but also out of anger.