8
Roy
Why did I say that? I was so rude and he just fucking jumped out the window! He probably thinks I don’t like him back now! Damn! Why am I so stupid! I walk out of his bedroom and look down at the trail of blood leading to the kitchen. Is all this my fault? I follow the trail and notice something.
Toby’s mother’s body was gone. It was just there! I ran back over to my house and ran into the living room to see that my parents were gone as well. Where did their body’s go?!
I walk out and go into my room, nothing different than how I left it. I sit on my bed and look out my window. I wonder where Toby went. I made him really upset, didn’t I? Man, I’m a terrible best friend…and he wanted me to be his boyfriend. I don’t understand why, and it doesn’t really matter anymore. He probably hates me now. He’s probably fishing right now, trying to get me off of his mind. I would do the same but if he is there, he deserves his time alone. I’m probably the last person he wants to see right now. I turn my gaze away from the window and look at the floor. To think about a week ago we were going to have a sleepover. If only I would’ve just talked to my parents. Then maybe….none of this would have happened. Toby wouldn’t hate me. I wouldn’t be all alone.
I lay back in my bed and stare at the ceiling. I hope Toby is ok. I stand up and walk outside and head back to Elder Rose’s place. She is the only one I can ask now. I know that Toby really doesn’t like her and to be honest I don’t either but she is my only option. I can’t live by myself. I can’t just stay in my house. I’ll just ask if she can check on him for me. That is all. Surely nothing bad could happen with such a simple request like that.
I walk up to her house and knock on the door. “Be there in a second! Come inside, and please leave your shoes in front of the door!”
I do as she says and close the door behind me. I sit down and wait. By the time she comes, the sun is setting and I start to feel tired.
“Good evening, Elder Rose. I am sorry to bother you once more.”
She looks over at me and an unsatisfied look comes across her face. “Ah, it is you again, I see. What do you want now, Roy? Or should I ask, what happened now, Roy?”
“Well you see, I was wondering if you could check on Toby for me, to make sure that he is ok? We kinda got into an argument and I am a bit worried about him. Again, sorry to trouble you.”
“Hm. Well I will do my best. However, right now I am very busy doing other things. I will talk to him if we happen to cross paths. Also, I have a piece of advice for you Roy.”
“Hm?”
“Try to put yourself in his shoes and think about what you would want, how you would feel. You don’t have to but it’s a thought. So far your wishes have been nothing but for your own good Roy. You need to see that some things that may be beneficial to you, may be hurting the ones that you care about.”
“But, Elder Rose. I’m not trying to be selfish. I-I don’t think that you understand-”
“No, need. Now please leave. I have things I need to attend to. If you are to happen to cross paths with Toby again and something else shall happen please do not come to me once again. I will not always be here. You need to learn how to care for yourself. Now, I am not saying you can not come here and talk to me. I am just saying that I am not your guardian.”
“Oh,...ok. Well have a good night, Elder Rose.”
“Same to you Roy.”
With that I left Elder Rose’s place. I don’t know why but suddenly I get the urge to go back to Toby’s place. I know that he wouldn’t go back there but then again if he was to think if I was still there or coming back, he would most likely say, ‘not very likely’. Which in a weird sense I am hoping that he isn’t at his house. I don’t know. I guess I just want to be alone too, just not outside, or in my house.
I shake my head as if it would somehow get rid of all my worried thoughts. I walk up to Toby’s bedroom window and peek inside. No sign of him. I lift myself up and climb through the window successfully without making any ruckus. I take a few deep breaths. Now what? I guess I could look around. No…that is wrong. That is an evasion of his privacy. However, I am very curious to see what else he has in here.
I scavenged through his dresser but was to find nothing but his clothes. I looked under his dresser and only found a lost sock that I have no clue how he managed to lose under there.
I get up leaving the lost sock there, not really wanting to reach my hand underneath his dresser. I walk over to his nightstand and open the small drawer on the top. Inside of the drawer I found some thread and a needle, and then a small pocket knife with a small bota bag. I close the small drawer leaving the small belongings alone. I then open the bottom one that swings open.
Inside it revealed a small glass vase with a single dying rose. Around it black and white pictures of me and Roy and then I found a small piece of parchment paper that seemed to have been in some type of ink spill, but was still readable.
“ I picked this rose a while ago but I don’t have the courage to give it to him. I have to get rid of it before it dies completely but giving it to someone else just feels wrong, and besides, I wouldn’t mean the gesture. Whenever I look at a flower it reminds me of how pretty he is. The shimmer in his eyes and just the way he can take your breath away. I have wished to give this rose to him. He once told me that rose’s were his favorite flower. I never asked why. Maybe because our Elder’s name is Rose. Then again, I don’t think that he has ever met her.
For all the days to come,
💕 Toby
“
I put the paper back how it was and look at the flower. I feel terrible. He even got me a rose. I closed its small door and looked underneath his nightstand to find a small glass bottle with something that was written on it, but I was unable to read it. I looked again and found a small bag with pieces of flint and some type of shiny rock.
What is this stuff for? Not knowing the answer I put it back the way it was and opened the small door once again. I took all the pictures of us and put them in a pile in my hands. I stood up and sat on his bed. I roll over on my side and take a deep breath. I open my hands and slowly flip through the photos.
I sit up and lay them out in front of me. I grab his journal and read over it again. He had the best intentions. I sure did give him hell didn’t I? I feel myself start to tear up and I lay on my side and curl into a ball. I sob into his pillow as I slowly go to sleep surrounded by the pictures of me and Toby and his journal beside me. Slowly a nice dream appears in my vision and I get sucked into false reality.
Comments (0)
See all