Back then there WAS AN INNOCENT KID, ME, LOKI. I hate that younger me so much, so young, so naive . My father never really cared me. It took the cake but the fact that I even love my brother the way that I did at a very young age. I……..I………… HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING SOMEONE THAT WON'T EVEN LIKE ME….

Young loki walking into his mother room, 

LOKI: mother….. Mother, I have a question about magic and sorcery. What are the differences?

FRIGGA: honey their the same thing * chuckles*

LOKI: it not funny * pouts* I think they're different though.

FRIGGA: I love you, Loki, my beautiful son, please stay just the way you promised me that.

LOKI: promise mother.

IN asgard jail cell

Crap, I had another flashback and can't wait for the trial. People hate me for killing mortals, which I don't see the problem with. I can't believe I'm in a jail cell. Father will give me mercy I'm definitely sure. Mother told me not to be rude but. I know I'm not going to die…..

Throne room

ODIN: Loki, Do you know what you did was wrong! You have killed 2 million people in 2 days

LOKI: *being sarcastically * oh yes, i do your divine majesty 

Father's voice boomed across the room, I was nervous and I stated that I really am sorry. I didn't like the fact that I was lying and the people of Asgard knew I was lying. I knew I was lying. My mother couldn’t even look me in the face. 

ODIN: I SENTENCE YOU TO DEATH!!

Loki: ( shocked) Father, you must be joking. Please father, I beg you please.

I saw my mother talking to Odin and he seemed angry. This was an open court too and everyone in Asgard was angry and mad. The first time in my life I was scared to die. I panicked and I was on the ground scared for my life. My mother somehow convinced odin because he said this.

ODIN: We will have another court decision. You will come in 1 hour , and the guards will take him away. I can't look at that face anymore.

I don't understand why Thor is always liked and not me. I hate Odin. It's going to take so long in the jail cell. Crap why is that guard holding a whip. He came towards me. Mother, please help me. My body went numb.

LOKI: What are you doing? Why are you opening the cell please stop….. STOP…….STOP no i….I….

The guard pulled out the whip and started beating me with it so hard my blood was on it. The hour was up and I went to the throne room. 

ODIN: Loki, did you learn your lesson? Be lucky your mother loves you so much that you will be serving jail time. The avengers are going to bring after a couple long years to earth and put you in a jail cell there. 

Loki: ……okay……

ODIN: good you learn your lesson boy, guard whip him more. 

LOKI: * runs up to the throne* father please no, no more it hurts i can't do it anymore please no more.

As the guard whipped me even harder than before. I screamed and I cried out so many times I lost my voice. My jail cell was my room guard who made sure that I got whipped everyday . I felt so horrible. Those years were the worst………. I remember when I was younger I got in trouble alot with Odin..

Loki: father i’m sorry i didn't mean to knock it down

ODIN: COME HERE NOW

I remembered his temper was back. He beat me with his belt. I was  in so much pain I cried all night. I got another just to say to Thor how stupid he was. It was only a joke but Thor was his favorite. He didn't need words; his actions were enough. 

LOKI: mother why don't you just love me and not thor.

FRIGGA: Honey, we love everyone equally, do you understand loki.

LOKI:* mumbles* but my father alway loved Thor more than me.  He’s getting extra love. I hate him

FRIGGA: LOKI * pinches him* WE DO NOT SAY THAT YOUNG MAN DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR.

LOKi: NO, I DONT I WISH HE WAS DEAD!

THOR: brother…………….. 

LOKI: THOR…… * hatred* there i said it everyday you walk around like you…. Never get beaten. You always got everything. I just want to feel the same love as  you do….

FRIGGA: Loki , Thor came sit beside me. I love you both equally but that doesn't mean you say that you want someone to be dead right loki?

LOKI; sorry thor.

Thor: It's okay brother, I love you anyway.

I don't know why my heart was beating so fast but it did and I felt loved and I gave Thor a hug and my mother.

FRIGGA: * grabs both of their young hands *Come on boys lets get some ice cream okay and some food in our stomachs.

Guard: give him another whip with that yes. Wake up you waste of space.

I Suddenly realized that I'm useless and weak and at the same time I was getting whipped so painful but I'm also naked. WHAT  how am i I'm scared i want my mother so bad. A knock was on another guard and the other guard was done. My mother saw how much bleeding i was in and how much pain i was in and she said i had to get ready for the avengers how long has it been oh yeah 19 years. 

FRIGGA: * soft simile* come on honey i’ll freshen you up come on you need to put your weight into to. We're going to get you some food, okay baby. * trying to hold in the tears* I love you so much. I wish they never did this to you.

LOKI: mama……… CAn you plz……….

FRIGGA: * crying* what is it * sniffs* loki 

LOKI: * crying* PLEASE KILL ME. PLEASE …………Kill ………..Me …………kill…….me

FRIGGA: no no NO NOO NOOO……. I CANT I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH HONEY PLEASE DON'T SAY IT AGAIN I CAN’T . I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU. HONEY YOU PROMISED

I remember the promise I made to her years WHEN I WAS YOUNGER . I promised that I would always be myself and I wouldn't ask to get killed. I gave her a smile and told her I remember. I love my mother so much. I don't understand why I could just kill ODIN right then and their……