1-Hidden deepest secret
Nick's pov
"Good game guys!"
"Yeah, you too!"
"We won against those f**kers!"
"We definitely showed them who's the best."
"And it's us!" We all cheer one another and we head into the changing room.
"Hah, I'm in dying need of a shower."
"Yeah, you stink loser."
"Loser? As if you're any better Dom."
"We all stink already. Now let's all get in the shower!"
"Yeah, yeah you just can't wait to see that girlfriend of yours."
"What about you? Can't wait to see your girlfriend?"
"You know that I'm always eager to see Sydney."
"You sure that's the same for her?"
"Oh shut up Dom!"
"Sure I will."
"Yeah, you better shut up Dom. We all know deep down in that heart of yours you're dying to see Maryka and you don't want to admit it."
"Argh, what's up with you guys? Who isn't eager to see their girlfriend?"
"Ahah! You admit it!"
"Shut up Aaron or should I say Aarry~?" Aarry? First time I'm hearing that one.
"How the hell did you know that name?"
"Isn't that what Syd calls you?" He looks back at me scowling.
"Proof proven."
"What about you Dom? Does Maryka give you a pet name?"
"Maryka? No way. She says those names are too boring.''
"Damn, you really did find your equal."
"Sure. Now why are we talking about our girlfriends?" They started it.
"I don't know because Aaron always wants to know what is none of his business."
"Ay yo! Don't roast me like that Leo!"
"What? Can't deny it?"
"Argh, you guys are so annoying."
"And this is why you love us." Aaron doesn't know how to respond to that. Figures.
"Cat got your tongue?"
"No!" If they don't shut up soon, I'll have to make an end to this little chat. Well, better if I end it now.
"Enough chit-chat! We only have 10 minutes before the coach locks the changing room."
"Yes, captain."
This is why I love being captain. They all listen to me. They all fear me, lol.
They all start showering. As much as I get the thing with the showers there's something that doesn't make any sense. We don't have any privacy regarding showering, we all shower together.
I wait for them to finish showering before getting in myself. Thankfully, they are fast. My friends may be sh*t but they have yet to question why I don't take it at the same time as them. I bet they think I'm jerking off in the shower, really not the case through.
The truth is, it's that the coach doesn't even lock the changing room. I lie to them only to make them all leave. I don't want them there when I'm showering. I still can't believe they believe in my lie but they really do fear me.
Something that might seem strange is that for some reason the other guys of the teams all decided at the start of the year to take another changing room of their own. I guess that's because they don't want to hang with us or be near us. Anyways, they are lucky they are allowed to.
Only my gang and I take the real changing room for our basketball team.
Our school is huge and it's mostly known in the sports department. We are the best basically. We have basketball, soccer, football, volleyball and many more for men and women at our school! So it's no surprise we have three changing rooms for boys and the same things for girls.
Anyways, I make it fast to make sure it isn't too suspicious either. I don't mind being sweaty but it's always refreshing when I shower. I leave the changing room and join the guys.
"Jerking off again?" What a dumb question.
"Dude, do you really think I jerk off after every game?"
"Well...it could be possible." I'm starting to think Leo would love to do that.
"Argh, you piss me off Leo."
"Really? What's taking you so long?'' Oh crap, they put me on the spot. I'm in trouble here. I have to invent a believable lie.
"It's nothing really. Can't let you guys see my body."
"Why won't you let us see? Are you shy?"
"Nah, it's because he doesn't want us to see his perfect body behind that jersey."
"Yeah, I agree! Is your body that perfect?!" 100 percent true but not for that reason.
"If you put it that way, yes."
"Is your dick bigger than mine? I always wonder if you have a bigger picker than mine." Is Aaron that dumb? Who even asks that kind of question?
"Dude! Are you out of your mind?! Why do you want to know the length of my dick?"
"It was just a question...no need to be defensive."
"Don't look at me with that look Aaron."
"What look? I don't have a look."
"Sure you do." Not the only one that thinks that it seems like.
"Like what Yung?"
"Guys! Stop talking! Look who showed up at the game!" We all turn around and notice a guy. Oh sh*t, it's the guy that's gay and all. Did he really come to the game?
"I wonder why he was at the game."
"Nah, he was there to check out guys."
"You think? Gosh, he's such a twink."
"What if he wanted to suck our dicks?" Who would dream about sucking your dick other than your girlfriend?
"Oh f**k, don't say that Aaron! Don't tell me you like him!"
"The f**k no?! I'm just scared he thinks about sucking our dicks."
"That would be disgusting. Look at how he's dressed." What does sucking off dick have to do with how someone is dressed up?
"Wearing crop tops again? Gosh, why does he have to be so weird?"
"I don't know man. Why don't you ask him?"
"I'm not going near him. No way am I doing that."
"You're not brave enough?" Hmm, are they really challenging themselves for that guy?
"No, it's not that! What if he thinks I like him!?'' We all laugh at the idea of that.
"No way he will. Since you're being a baby, I'll go."
"No way you'll do that Aaron."
"I don't mind teaching that guy a little lesson."
"Yeah, go teach him a lesson! He needs to know how to be more like a man!" They all agree except me. I remain silent.
"Nick? Say something? Don't tell me you're on his side now?"
"What? No, go do it if you want."
"That will be so fun!"
We all watch Aaron head to the guy. The other guys might not remember his name but his name is Ezra. I won't forget that.
We all watch curiously about what Aaron is saying to him. From where I'm looking at it, it looks like he's flipping him off. Geez, how can someone have the courage to do that to Aaron? I bet he's furious right now.
Oh yeah, he definitely is! He's trying to hit Ezra but.. Ezra blocked him! What?! How is that possible? Geez, he really isn't as fragile as he seems.
"How dares he block Aaron like that!?"
"I don't know man!"
"I thought he was a sissy!" Seriously where do they come up with such insults?
"Well, he still is! That doesn't prove anything."
"Stop talking, watch the rest." Leo and Myung both shut up.
"Oh, sh*t he really is winning against him! What did Aaron say to him to make him that furious?"
"I guess we'll know right now." Aaron comes back completely defeated.
"Did you guys see what he did to me?!"
"Yeah, what's his problem?!"
"Usually he just ignores us. What did you tell him to make him that mad?" I really want to know too.
"I don't know, at first, I just told him that if he continues coming to our games, we'll start to think he wants to suck our dicks."
"You said what?! Aaron! You can't say that to him! You're giving him the idea to do it for real!" As if he'd want to suck your dicks.
"Geez, I just told the truth, I guess he didn't take it well.''
"You're pointless Aaron. That won't make him stop to come to our games. Now he'll want to come even more."
"Yeah, Dom's right. Did you notice how he is? He isn't the type to just accept to not go where he wants to go."
"Woah, how did you notice that Nick?" Oh crap, why did I say that?
"I noticed that unless you guys dumb ass!"
"Hey! How dare you call us dumbasses?! I'm really starting to think you have a thing for him!"
"What? You officially have gone nuts Leo. Isn't it normal to want to know every weakness of someone we hate?" I bet they can't compete on that.
"Yeah, he's kinda right on that. Guys we should try to find what drives him mad, that way he won't want to come to our games anymore.''
"Good idea Dom!"
And just like that, they forgot what they excused me of. They really are dumber than we think, even Dominic is dumb. I really do fool all of them.
The one that wants to suck dicks is not Ezra, it's the other way around. I suck dicks. Yeah, it's pretty damn shocking, I know. Ok...I admit I haven't done it yet but if I could I totally would. Everyone around me is pressuring me so hard to be with girls that I don't have the guts for anyone to find out I like dicks.
It's not new though. It's been years since I found out I like guys. Even if I like guys I can't let anyone know or else they'll kick me out of the basketball team. They can't afford that nor can I.
People think because we are in 2023, people think we are more open but that's a lie, even more concerning where I live. What can make me feel better is that here it isn't as severe as back home.
As much as I think it's dumb my friends bully Ezra, I can't stop them, or else they'll know that I like guys. I can't have that.
What makes it worse is that deep down I'm hurt every time they do. I don't wish to hurt him. I don't hate him, unlike my friends. Sure he really is particular with his way of dressing up and his ''I don't care vibe.'' through, that's exactly what draws me in even more.
I want to know who's the guy behind that, or maybe more than that...Yeah, I can't think like that in front of the guys.
Deep down I'm actually happy to know he was at the game today even if I know it wasn't for me. Sometimes I wonder if he even notices me. He knows who I am because the whole school knows but he doesn't know who I really am.
He just knows me as the basketball team captain. He never talked to me nor did I, which makes me want to talk to him even more but I can't...
"Yo! You spaced off dude! We were talking about the party tonight!"
"Hm? Who's hosting it?"
"Your girlfriend duh!" Since when do I have a girlfriend?
"Yeah! It's gonna be so lit tonight!" Eh, can't miss a party.
"Sure, I'll come."
"We all know you won't refuse such an opportunity to celebrate our win!"
"Win baby!"
"Then what are we waiting for?"
"Yeah, let's go!" We finally leave the school building.
"Yo! Can I get a lift, Nick?" Argh, not again.
"Sure"
"What about me?" Him too?
"Bro, get your own car."
"Your lucky that you've got a car. I wished I had one since I have my driving licence but my parents don't want me to get one. Something about getting into a car accident." I can't argue against that.
"Then fine, get in Leo."
"Dude, did you forget about me?" Seriously? Are those two bastards not enough?
"Seriously not you too, Yung. Doesn't Dom have his own car?"
"He already left." Argh, why does he always do this?
"That bastard!"
"He really doesn't care about us."
"Yeah, he really doesn't."
"Stop talking and get in! He probably went to his girl." Most likely than not.
"Definitely!" They get in the car and we leave the school parking lot.
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I just arrived at the after-party for our win. Everyone is already the same as predicted. They're all busy congratulating us for our win and busy already drinking.
"Hey, congrats on your win!"
"Thanks"
"You really were the best out there. I say you were the number one star of the game."
"You think so?"
I'm surrounded by random guys and girls. As much as I love socializing, I would rather like to celebrate my win!
"Ok, we'll leave you. We all know you must be dying to celebrate your win." Finally, you got the hint.
"Yeah, thanks again."
"Always the best."
They go further in the crowd. I go where most of my friends are at. Hmm, seems like they are busy talking about earlier.
"Dude, what were you impatient for?"
"He didn't tell you guys?" Oh sh*t, Maryka dared to talk instead of Dom, must be important.
"We went on a date."
"Oh really? How boring. Why do all couples do that? Being tied to someone must be so tiring." Aw poor Leo, I almost feel bad for him.
"You'll know if you stopped fooling around all the time."
"Argh, roasting me already?"
"Yeah, I am." I barge into the conversation.
"Hey, guys."
"Nick! Did you notice how much they are roasting me?" Pretty obvious.
"Yeah, I saw that but Dom's got a point there. Even Aaron over here..."
"Yeah? What about me?"
"Look at you, You've got yourself a girlfriend and you completely listen to her. Sometimes I wonder how a nerd fell for you." Sydney glares at me.
"Yeah, I totally get why you prefer fooling around but having a girl waiting for you all the time, is the best feeling in the world!"
"Really?"
"Yeah, am I right baby?"
"Yeah, you should consider getting yourself a permanent girl. There's a long list of those."
"Oh? Who might that be?"
"Not telling you, you'll figure it out on your own." Way to roast Leo even more.
"You're boring Syd."
"Sure I am."
While they are busy insulting one another I notice Livia coming towards me. Sh*t, what does she want from me?
"Hey, guys! By the way congrats on your win!"
"Thanks! You really are the best Liv!"
"Aw, you guys are all sweet but I think Nick should be the one to say that to me right?" She looks directly at me. Why does she gotta be like that?
"Yeah, thanks."
I know damn well she just wants me for herself. As much as sometimes she hangs out with us, she really only cares about me. She's such a pick-me.
"I'm guessing you came to snatch Nick from us?"
"That's right!"
"See Leo, you should get yourself a girl that loves you like that."
"Shut up Dom!"
"Talk to you guys later!"
"Have fun!" I glare at Aaron.
She pushes me to go to a room that I suppose is hers.
"Why are we here?''
"Oh, you know, I wanted some privacy between us."
''Bullsh*t and you know it. You love displaying to everyone how much you're lucky to have me. I'm guessing you want us to take things further."
"Argh, why do you always see through me?! Do you even want this?"
"Do you want an honest answer?"
"Ah...um" Got her.
She wants me to like her but deep down she wants to know whether I really do like her or not.
"Well, I don't care what you think, I don't like you."
"How can you be so sure?"
"Just the fact that you're acting like this right now, says it all. I would rather f**k another girl than you."
"Are you really serious right now?!"
"Oh yeah, I was just joking, no I'm being serious right now."
"What will you do if I tell the whole school you dared to tell me you hate me?''
"Hate you? Exaggerating much thank you. I doubt you'd want to ruin your image."
"Why do you gotta be so unfair?!" She lashes at me.
"I'm just being frank with you. Something I should've done a long time ago too.."
"Say that louder." She says harshly.
"I don't care really. You can continue making people think we are a thing but I won't let you take things further with me."
"Fine...if you put it that way, I have no choice right?"
"Yup"
"Fine get out of here, I'll get myself a better guy than you." I want to laugh at that but I block myself from doing so.
"You sure about that?"
"Yeah, watch me do that."
"Sure as if I will."
"You sure you won't regret what you said?" How low of her to think that.
"Nah, I won't."
"Great then get out now!"
"And I'll gladly do that."
I get out of her room and go back to my friends. At least I had the guts to shut her down because if I hadn't...I don't know what I would've done...I would much rather be on top of a very particular guy and definitely not on top of a girl like her.
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