2-Drunk mistake
Nick's pov
Turns out a lot happened last night. If I thought Livia didn't have the guts to f**k with someone else, I was wrong. I hate being proven wrong but what's worse is that she hooked up with another guy but not anyone, Leo. Yeah, goddamn Leo, that's supposed to be my friend.
Now everyone at school thinks she cheated on me and they keep telling me how sorry they feel.
Geez, it's been quite a while since so much drama happened like that. The last time such drama happened, Aaron was fighting with some random guy.
I mean do I care about what she did? Not really, if people could stop thinking my heart got broken then yes I care about that. My heart is far from being broken, instead, I feel a tiny bit more relieved that I don't have a girl around me that wants me.
I don't mind girls but those that want me...I don't know what to do with that. Kissing a girl is pretty simple but yesterday she wanted to go farther ain't no way I would try to get myself hard by watching some gay porn or better yet think about a certain guy...yeah, I shouldn't.
But sometimes it's hard to not think that way about that certain guy when that guy is...Ezra.
It's unbelievable that he's the one that draws my attention out of all the guys but how can't I?
It's certainly not one of the guys on my team that will grab my attention. They are too...hmm...how can I say this? Too manly? Too muscular? Too athletic? Eh, I don't know
why. It's only Ezra that grabs my interest.
Anyways, as much as Ezra is tempting I can't go on and think about him that way. With my whole gang homophobic there's no way I'll ever get a chance to be with him or even be near him.
Besides I'm pretty sure he doesn't care about me, which kinda hurts. I want him to notice me! Every time my friends and I annoy him, he just ignores us.
I don't know how he does it but I wish I had courage like him. He dares to come to school wearing crop tops and everything. He even came to school once with a shirt that said "I'm gay b*tch!" I can't even say how things ended that day.
Anyways. even back in the day when I first found out I was gay, no one, if no one dared to dress up like that, I guess that's L.A for you? I really don't know if that's a Los Angeles thing to do but it's cooler than I first thought.
Sure deep down I wish he would keep his sexuality to himself sense isn't it personal? As much as I would love to float around to show who I love, when your gay, that just will never be possible.
I never once thought about how you can be gay and have everyone support you. Even if most people are nowadays open to gay people, I still don't believe at least in my school it would be all rainbows.
Just take my friends for example. As much as I would love to believe they aren't really homophobic deep down nothing proves they aren't.
If I had to choose who strikes as less against gays, it has to be Myung. It's surprising, to say the least. You would think that someone born in Korea and then got adopted would be more homophobic. Guess his adoptive parents didn't raise him that way.
All I know is that he mostly thinks Ezra is weird so that's not nearly as bad as the others calling him disgusting. Maybe it doesn't really bother him that Ezra is gay, maybe it's just how expressive he is that bothers him.
Through, the worst of them all is gotta be Aaron. Everywhere he goes he says such homophobic sh*t. He just won't stop. The poor guy is so afraid that a guy dreams about sucking his dick. I think he's being ridiculous. So what if a guy thinks about you like that?
You can't decide who likes you, the same thing goes for girls. I think he's ridiculous but I think I know why he thinks that way.
This summer he moved from another state, and that state is Mississippi, the one, I grew up in. L.A. is 10 times more open than back home. I kid you not.
They are so religious back home and they still have those old values that need to be changed. It's ridiculous. I have to go through that every single day. I'm lucky I don't need to go to church anymore here. Let's say they are conservatives, here it's liberty.
No matter what I think, things won't change soon, will they?
"Hey, I heard about what happened yesterday. I'm sorry for you. I always knew Livia was only playing you."
"She was playing me?"
"Yeah, you can't understand. You are too in love to know." Who made those kinds of sh*t rumours? I guess I'll play along then.
"I just couldn't help myself you know? She was so attractive, I couldn't get my eyes off of her. I still can't believe she would do such a thing."
"Me neither. Did she try to apologize to you?"
"Nah, she didn't but you're kinda right. I was too in love to see how she really was."
"So what you gonna do?"
"I don't know, break up with her?"
"Yeah do that. It seems like she is madly in love with Leo." Lies
"Really? I never noticed that."
"So, what'd you gonna do if she sticks around because of Leo?"
"Ah, she only hooked up with him. Everyone always does that. Besides she won't dare to be near me." Lies
"She definitely won't."
"Ok, it was fun talking to you but I gotta go prepare for the game." Lies
"Oh yeah, the game! You guys better win! I count on you."
"Sure thing."
I leave and head to my friends at the cafeteria. The truth is we only have to start preparing for the game in two hours. It was only a lie to get away from that girl.
"Hey, guys!"
"Tired of hearing everyone feel so sorry for you?"
"Definitely, it's annoying."
"Yeah, I get that."
"Nick, again for the millionth time I'm sorry I hooked up with your chick. She came into me and she..."
"It's fine I was gonna break up with her anyways."
"Why?! You like her!"
"Because she was only using him."
"Syd? Why are you saying that?"
"It's true. She seems like such a pick me." So, I wasn't the only one that noticed.
"Does the fact you hooked up with her will mean she'll still hang out with us?"
"Why not? It's my golden ticket to have her for myself again."
"Argh, Leo, stop talking about her. When we told you about finding a permanent girl, we weren't saying you had to steal Nick's girl."
"Correction Nick's ex," Dom says.
"I know, it's cruel of me but I can't help it! Since you'll break up with her, can I have her?"
"Sure I don't mind. It's not like she means anything to me anymore."
"Wow, you sure move on fast."
"Told you I was gonna break up with her before."
"Then what are you waiting for?! Go break up with her."
"Why should I? The whole school knows."
"But she doesn't. Make things official."
"We already broke up ok?"
"What?"
"When?!"
"Before you hooked up with her."
"Wait really? Why didn't you tell us that?"
"Because I didn't care to."
"Aw, your so cold Nick."
"Sure I am."
"So do you wish to stay single or~?" Leo asks teasingly.
"Yeah, for now, yeah."
"You guys don't need to push him to have a girlfriend."
"Wow, you're on his side Maryka?" The guys accuse.
"Yeah, I am."
"She kinda is right. Now that Leo has a girl, that only leaves Myung to worry about."
"Why are you fixating on me?"
"Because I think we should focus on finding you a girlfriend first."
"Seriously? It was way better when all eyes were on Leo."
"Well, not anymore."
"But what about the fact that I can't date because my parents don't want me to?"
"As much as I get why they don't want you to get a girlfriend, you can't let them control your life like that," Aaron states.
"Yeah, I say screw what your parents think and get yourself a girl!" Leo yells out.
"Yeah!"
"But I can't disappoint my parents. Playing basketball is already enough."
"It's not when you don't have a girl in your life. I tell you it's the best feeling in the world! We all had a girl while you still didn't."
"Enough with that Aaron. Leave him be."
"Yeah, yeah."
"Look at how much he listens to Sydney. That's why you have to get yourself a girlfriend."
"Ok, ok I'll think about it. Are there even girls that wish to be with me?"
"Of course there is! If only you knew the number of girls dying to be with you!"
"Don't they all want to be with basketball players?"
"No dumbass! They think you're hot." Leo states.
"I think girls think he's cute though," Maryka states.
"Who are you to say he's cute? Do you think he's cute?" Dominic says annoyed.
"It's not because I'm in a relationship I can't find other guys cute and still not be attracted to them."
"You sure you're only attracted to me?"
Obviously, Maryka is uncomfortable being put on the spot like that.
"Stop bothering her dude. You'll fix that in private."
"Sure I will." Maryka seems pleased that I got her out of that spot. That's good.
"Other than girls, did you guys know we had an assignment due today?"
"What?! Why are you saying that now Syd?! How come we didn't know that?! We're screwed!" Leo yells out panicked.
"Don't worry that much we always miss the last period because we have to get ready for the game," Dominic says in return.
"Oh yeah, your right."
"I guess you guys will be busy making an assignment because I won't need to do it! I already finished it!" Aaron says all proud of himself.
"Thanks to your nerdy girlfriend."
"Sure, sure."
"We talk about assignments and we already talk about girlfriends, don't we have other good things to talk about?"
"I don't know, find one."
I bet they would shut their trap if I started talking about the fact I like to suck...
"Hey look who decided to show up!"
"Who?"
We all turn around and sure enough it's no other than Ezra. I guess they found something else to talk about.
"Ugh, I thought he would be more shaken up than that about yesterday."
"Seems like you're still shaken up from yesterday."
"Nah awe, I'm never getting riled up by a dick sucker."
"Sure you don't. You're so scared that he thinks about sucking your dick." Sydney looks not amused about the conversation.
I mean talking about a guy wanting to suck his dick? She's his girlfriend, of course, she wouldn't like that.
"Stop talking about dick-sucking. It's a waste of time to talk about such a disgraceful being. I don't get why you guys obsess over the guy, that his name is Ezra by the way."
The guys sound all shocked that Sydney dared to say such a thing. Normally, she keeps things to herself. It's pretty surprising...
"Yeah...he kinda is wasting our time."
"That's true...why are we even bothering looking at him?" Oh, they are all on her side now?
"You say his name is Ezra. How come I only heard that now?"
"Maybe because you guys focus so much on how you hate the guy that you forget fundamental things like his name." Maryka too?
Oh geez, the guys look so dumb compared to the girls. Dominic isn't usually dumb, he knows his thing but his girlfriend puts him in his place.
"Maryka...why do you say that?" Dominic asks.
"Let's stop talking about Ezra that's all Maryka and I ask for."
"Yeah, I can't stand to hear about a homo.''
The number of times I have to restrain myself from yelling at them for saying all those homophobic comments is just too much. I need to get out of here.
"Where are you going, Nick?"
"Can't I go to the restroom?"
"Yeah, yeah sorry go on." This stuff is getting too intense for me. I'm out.
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Even if things were kinda rough with my friends earlier, we won the game! As usual, they are throwing us an after-party. This time around I don't know who's throwing it but clearly, there are a lot of people I never saw before in this party.
After all those homophobic comments my friends said and winning the game I feel like getting wasted. It's been a long day. Thankfully we won't play till this upcoming Friday which is in two days. I'm definitely getting wasted tonight.
We all get in the locker room. This time around I try to ignore them. All of them get in the shower except one, Myung. Guess I'm not lucky today, am I?
"Hey, Nick what's up with you? What's making you look like you could kill someone?" Oh, it's that bad?
"Nothing important."
"You sure? Seems pretty serious to me."
"Nah, quit it."
"Is it about Livia?"
"Livia? As if I care about her."
"She did still hook up with Leo your buddy. That's kinda low of him."
"What about me?!" Leo yells out from the shower.
"None of your business Gonzales!" I yell out.
"You suck Nick!" I ignore him. Instead, I try to smile for Myung.
"She can hook up with who she wants. We broke up. Didn't understand that?"
"I did...but I'm still worried."
"Worry about yourself."
"What?"
"Remember earlier?"
"Um, not really?"
"The guys want you to find yourself a girl."
"No...I lied earlier. I'm not doing that. I'm not going against my parents. It's my final year and I have to make them proud."
"Damn...ok. Do what you want. Just stop worrying about something that doesn't hold importance."
"Ok..."
He goes to take his shower and later on, I take mine.
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I just got into the party which turns out to be at Livia's, dear lord...I walk around and the first thing I do is grab the first beer I got. I down it in one go.
"Geez, why are you so eager to drink that much bro?"
"Myung?" I say confused.
"Yeah, what? Got something against me?"
"No...it's just that today it's been a long day with all the drama and all, so I want to get wasted."
"You sure it's a good idea?"
"Yeah, what could go wrong?"
"So many things."
"Eh, who cares." He frowns but he lets it go.
Finally! I swear if it was Aaron that talked to me, I don't know what I would've done. I'm pissed off right now.
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Huh? Is my mind playing tricks on me? Is that Ezra...? Without thinking I head in the direction of where I thought I saw Ezra. Argh...he looks so...hot right now...his ass...his everything.
"Ezra?" He turns around and looks at me confused.
"What do you want, plank?"
"Ezra...don't misunderstand."
"Misunderstand what exactly?"
"I'm not here to..."
"To what?" I can't even tell if he's annoyed at me or not. The only thing I want to do is...
"Woah! Move out you dozy! Are you out of your goddamn mind?!"
"You smell so good..." I come closer to him. I don't care if people look at us right now. He's so dazzling.
I don't know what's happening but it looks like he took me somewhere else.
"Thank god I brought you here! Are you going bonkers?! Snap out of it!"
He tries to move me away but I hold him closer.
"Nickolas...I don't know who you're thinking you're with but you're absolutely crackers right now! I'm not that person bloody hell!"
"Ezra..." He's so tempting...Then, suddenly, I'm being yanked on the floor.
"Woah, why did you do that?" I ask confused completely wasted.
"You completely lost it. I know that people go wild when they are pissed but surely they don't start being all around a guy like that right?"
"Huh? What are you talking about?"
"Still not back from your senses? F**k, how much did you drink?" Ezra cussing? So...mesmerizing.
"Snap out of it! I asked how many bevvies did you have?!" Huh?
"Uh, 2 beers?" I say confused.
"Yeah, make it 10."
"No, I'm not drunk."
"Sure you aren't. If you weren't bonkers right now you wouldn't be here trying to kiss me."
"Kiss you...argh, it makes me want to kiss you again..."
"I get that Livia pied you off but you won't get revenge by kissing a dude. Only trouble will come out of it."
"I don't care!"
Then, everything starts being all blurry. The only thing I remember before seeing black is Ezra looking straight at me.
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