This is space out like it’s been 2 months I’ll have like an episode where I explain the au that I have probably the third Monday of the month. But this is 6 months pasted and which he is starting therapy and just not liking it. But it’s a like weeks 3 to 8 weeks of this happen where he throws fit’s so yeah. Enjoy this part 2 U^U I worked really hard on this.

Part 2 of “I don’t need it”! chest pain? monday

DR. S: okay…... let’s start with today’s question. Am I angry? Since my questions are.

Loki: yeah you are stupid. * smirk* No

DR. S: *angry sigh* Loki, do you want to get smacked.

Loki: *sarcasm* yeah, but you can’t so that because a lot of humans are weak—

Strange broke I was messing around I didn’t know they were watching the glass. but they were. He grabbed my hair. Yanked it backwards. I was holding my hands on my head it hurt so bad. I keep hitting him but then he smacked me in the face. He kept doing that but I never cried.

Loki: I’ll listen now…. I’ll listen. I promise…… I will…

DR. S: you disgust me.

Loki: *laugh* good now can I leave?

DR. S: leave you want to leave? * laugh* what’s my answer?

Loki: I deserve to leave!

DR. S: NO, LOKI THE ONLY THING YOU DERSVE IS SITING IN THAT SEAT AS QUEITLY AS YOU CAN AND ANSWER 4 QUESTIONS BUT YOU MAKE IT LONGER WITH YOUR BABBLING.

Loki: I deserve a lot of things. You’re just a mortal you’ll never understand. * get in Strange’s face*

DR. S: Loki * grabs his face* to me you are a useless mortal

Loki: At least I’m not stupid! I WANT TO LEAVE. I WANT TO LEAVE. I WANT TO LEAVE.

HULK: SHUT UP, PUNY DUMMY OR I WILL MAKE YOU.

Loki: shut up cabbage patch! * smirks*

HULK: ARGGGGGHHHHH! * LUNAGES TOWARDS LOKI* I WILL HURT LOKI!

Loki: *scared* mum…. You don’t want to hurt me I’m sorry I didn’t mean any of…….

The hulk didn’t beat Loki but was standing behind him while strange talked and he answered question. After strange was done. He forced Loki to eat. Just sat there.

Loki: I lost my appetite I’m not that hungry. Stupid * smirk*

BruceB: Loki eat now. Everyone is sick of your whinnying shut up and eat.

Loki: DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

Nat: * grabs Loki’s arm* when someone tells you to shut up and eat something go do it or I’ll hit you. Are we clear?

Loki: * quiet* fine….

I wasn’t hungry. But I forced myself to vomit it up didn’t work but I went to sleep I couldn’t I don’t want to go to a therapy session. I went to sleep. Woke up cause of a nightmare Thor was here today. But I curled up in a ball and cried. After I did that I felt empty, I was okay with that wanted to go outside. That’s okay I went to the forest room I stayed in there. I never really sleep though which was okay with me.

The next day

I probably should go eat, that’s what normal people would say. I said “I should go eat”. Why am I think I should just annoy more people in my life? My mother always said that I pushed people out, and I have a hard time trusting them. I mean she’s not wrong but she also dead. Sometimes I wish I were dead in hurt place but I would want to go out in that way. I wanna go out in a very dramatic way. The scourer (DR. strange) he said that I tend to never be relaxed. Which he’s not wrong about I can never trust the avengers not even…... my own brother he’s apart of it but I would never tell that to his face I would be too ashamed. I hate my mind and love it I always get lonely but I don’t want to be friends with the hero’s. As long as me and Thor are goo I don’t think their will be any problems in the future.

Anyway, enough about the really depressing stuff. My brother thinks it’s best if I talk to people and get out more some of the avengers agree and some don’t. but I agree with the ones who don’t but somehow Strange and Thor convince the rest of their team. I now have to go places and I hate that while begin fully watched.

Thor: isn’t this exciting Loki? You get to see outside.

Loki:(Sarcastic) Yes, better than begin home.

Thor: (slaps Loki’s back in excitement) That’s the spirt brother! Now where do you want to go?

Loki (mumbles) Home, that’s where I want to go.

Thor: (yells)what was that brother? I can hear you with all the noise’s

Loki: (yells, annoyed) Thor, where are we even at? Don’t tell me you got us lost.

Thor and I get into an area where there are space and less noise in the big shopping place. Which has a lot of stores. I don’t know where we are but it seems fun.

Thor: you really don’t know what this is?

Loki: Yes! Can you explain to me what this is? Is it a big store?

Thor: Loki, it a mall. (laughs a little) you never heard of this before in your life?

Loki: (annoyed) Shut up, brother, I’m was never allowed or go outside even if I wanted to. (adverted eyes down).

Thor: (embarrassed) oh…. Didn’t know sorry brother. But what really important is that you’re here.

Loki:  what are we doing Thor? let’s go do it. As long as I have fun to.

1 hour later….

Loki: THOR! You spilled the sticky stuff all on my only… jacket (frustrated)

Thor: (Ashamed we can get you another, if you want Loki.

Loki:( embarrassed) You don’t have to do that, if you don’t want to I can always wash it when we get back at the tower.

Thor: lets go get one right now. Also bring the stuff with you.

Loki: sweet, umm okay (blushing slightly)

I felt the heat in my chest, a heat I never experienced before. But I was not going to tell Thor this. It was my little secret. I really want to feel loved, and cared for. WHAT, what am I thinking I think I need to really the book on love spells I want to see if it works. I’ll try it on the weak one (tony Stark).

4 weeks later

I tried it, no one found out. Yet…. but I only used a spell that would lead them to their crush but it was slow and they are together ever for 2 weeks ago. I HATE couples they are so clingy. Probably why I’m unsuccessful in dating other people. I do lie but I don’t love them I used them which I don’t really care I have dated women beautiful Women but men are different. I’ve tired makeup since Natasha showed me she’s warmed up to me a little. I probably done the same though. Ugh why do I feel      the need to touch myself. I never do that I think it’s disgusting and you shouldn’t do that. It makes you have crushes. * AUTHOR BTW this isn’t always true you can still do things and even if you don’t have any crush or other attachments, giving you info one real life things* In my case I never do that. I don’t really like have attachment other than Thor and mother. That’s the only people.

2 days later

DR. S: Loki, did you do a spell?

Loki: (confused, nervous) No?! why am I don’t do spells on people only me.

DR. S:( Looking into Loki’s eyes) okay…. Anyway, tell your brother to come here. Tony needs him to power up something important.

Loki: (smirks) And what if I don’t?

DR. S: I’ll be very pissed off.

Loki: fine by me (walk away)

DR. S: (sighs, Mumbles) looks like I have to go get him.

I went to go get my brother, he was obviously asleep. With his…… girlfriend they also have been dated but long than starks and stranger’s relationship has transpired. I honestly think he’s happy, but for some reason why don’t I feel happy for him? I’m selfish that’s why I can stop thinking about Thor lately, I only go to one therapy session which finally took 7 months for them to think it was a great idea. Although I really hate do therapy I probably need it but I just don’t want it. It makes me feel venerable. I have to start helping the avengers in their hero work or go back to school…. Which ii think a 23-year-old with a bunch of teenagers is a great idea especial when the 23-year-old has killed a lot of people in 2 days. I mean I don’t care about most people’s feelings away. It doesn’t bother me if someone tells me this. I honestly feel at peace. Shoot! This week I have to do 2 therapy session because I yelled at strange(grimaces) Ughhhh, why do I have to be the one that has therapy.

At 4:30 pm

DR. S: There you are Loki, (serious tone) you were supposed to get here an hour ago.

Loki:( nervous laugh) yeah sorry

Dr. S: okay what I need you to do is fill out this piece of paper, please

Loki: why? I don’t feel like it.

Dr. S (frustrated) It don’t matter if you don’t feel like it your doing it (shoves clipboard in his lap, and walks away)

Loki: what is it?

Dr. S: questions that you need to answer. (pissed off)

Loki: (mumbles) okay, I’ll read don’t have to get angry, Ughhhh mortals

10 minutes later

Loki: (comfy)What is this? It’s so invasive.

Dr. S: Loki did you answer the questions?

Loki: yes, I did

Dr. S: Are you done know then?

Loki: yes, here

Dr. S: (sighs) okay…… Loki I don’t know is not an answer. You do know.

Loki: what are you even talking about?

Dr. S: look here

Loki: (laughs) because I don’t know. How stupid can you get?

Dr. S: (serious mood) Loki, you do you just don’t want to answer it. But when I give you question to answer that mean answer all of it give I I don’t know again and you re-do the paper. Do you understand.

Loki: (sarcastic) yes, your divine majesty. (rolls eyes)

Dr. S: (serious sighs) were done you can leave now. I’m getting sick of your attitude.

Loki: Attitude what attitude, are you stupid I’m not giving you attitude.

Dr. S: Loki, leave Now!

Loki: okay stupid.

I don’t understand what was that for but okay. I need to eat something, hoping no ones in the kitchen. Crap, there’s a lot of people I’m just going to wait it out. Time to walk into my precious……. room?

Loki: what…… (confused) hey what going on in my room?

Tony: Were making improvements. (eyeroll)

Loki: what improvements? (curious)

Tony: (chuckles) One’s that aren’t your bossiness.

I wanted to punch the smirk on his face but I was force to eat. I want to sit at the end but it was already taken so I decided that I would take the other end I sat there. But the banner grunted I didn’t care I didn’t feel like moving. All of the sudden I felt hands on me I tired moving it but it didn’t work I was moved. By the hulk. Everyone laugh I didn’t think it was funny I want to sit there so I would be see leaving. I just kept eating after that so I can leave from there. Later I tired to leave but stopped by the hulk I needed to put my plate inn the sink since I was done, His hands were big. I sat back down I was hungry anymore. There was a lot of food on my plate it looked like I barley ate anything. It got everyone’s attention that I was stopped by the hulk. The hulk grunted mean I need to sit back down.

Tony: hey how about you sit and eat.

Loki: I did and I’m full

Natasha: your going to throw that plate away, you still have a lot of food on its Loki.

Loki: I did eat it. Move your large hand (trying to move it)

Dr. S: Loki sit down and eat.

Loki: I SAID I’m Full, Move your hand! (frustrated)

Clint: (walking in the room) what’s all the racket about?

Steve: Loki not sitting down and making a scene.

Loki finally sits down, he waits for everyone to leave and just throws his food away. He just wasn’t hungry; his tummy was hurting because he forced to eat the rest of his food.

Theirs a whole lump in my throat. I just wanted to let it out by crying and the feeling of begin helpless and alone made me sick. I wasn’t trying to k a scene I just wanted to throw the food away because I was full and I couldn’t eat any more food….

Hope you enjoyed have a blessed day see you until Friday I figured out what schedule works for me I’ll be posting on Monday’s and Fridays. It also gives me time to do work and also post stories better. Thank for read with love…

_ Zee --_--