It was two months ago since last time we talked, Jonna would sometimes glance over to me but he would always have that concerned look.

I walked past the changing room I saw plastic sheets cover the areas that used to be a wall with the sign “under renovation” . My parents told me they had to tear down the wall to get me out of the changing room and even had to use a crane to carry me out. The doctors told my parents that it must had been some sort of  allergic reaction to make my belly bloat so much. They said I was lucky that my belly didn’t bursts and my belly sack was still fully intact. 

They wanted to take a lot of tests to see how it was possible. I should have died from it. 

I’m glad my parents let me decline it. If they kept doing tests they would have found out I was pregnant… I wasn’t ready to tell my parents yet most of all my big brother… My belly went back to normal after a few weeks but it started to grow again but more steadily like a normal pregnant belly. For my whole life I struggle to eat food and having to live on naso…gas… tric tube… well I just called it food tube for the simplicity well I had to live on that for the majority of my life. The pregnancy actually helped me by craving for food. I would sometime struggle to keep it down but I had to feed the baby so I’ve been eating a lot more greasier food as it seem to stay down longer.  Good thing my brother works at burger king, bringing home bags of unsold burgers. I lied to him telling him I knew a family who wanted them as he hated how people wasted food, but the truth is I would secretly eat it all in the garage. I would soon had to tell my family soon, it wouldn’t be long till I couldn’t hide the belly anymore. I’ve been using my brothers big jumper to hide it but it started to show a lot more… but first I had to tell Jonna… I just didn’t know how to… 

I sat in the school cafeteria surprisingly some of the girls sat at my table talking about a big house party.

“Are you going Sofie?” A girl asked then glanced over to Jonnas table while rubbing her pregnant belly.

Sofie sighed “I don’t know…”

“But you said you wanted to join the pregnancy pact and Jonna is definitely showing up at the party. He always does.” 

The third girl flicked corns at her face across the table. 

“Alison, if she doesn’t want to join the pact then let it be.”

Sofia quickly interrupted her 

“No Maya… I want to just… what if I can’t get pregnant.”

“You don’t know until you try it. He will be super gentle as it’s your first time. He was gentle with me when I was pregnant with my first baby. Alison said with a pleased voice while rubbing her belly even more as she kept gazing over at Jonna 

“You are lucky Alison… “ Maya said with a bitter voice 

“your parents are cool with you being pregnant same with your boyfriend, he doesn’t even seem to care if it’s his or not… at the start of my pregnancy my parents kept trying to make me get it aborted and now when it’s too late they go on about giving it up for adoption. They would definitely kill me if I got pregnant again.” 

Maya looked down on her belly disappointed. 

It never crossed my mind… what if my family wanted me to give it up for adoption I thought to myself after listening to their conversation. 

My best friend Raul rushes to me slamming down the food tray on the table.

“Dude! The food here are so damn gross!”

The girls glares at him. 

“Oh, hey preggos”

“Are you lost?” Alison asked

“No but you girls seem to be, all the other preggos are sitting over there, this is the nerd table.” 

The girls shakes their heads. “Come girls, you heard the guy, this is the loser table” Alison says with a smirk 

“Wow very mature, and there I thought motherhood would help you grow a brain, I guess not.”

Alison glares back at him. 

“I swear this creep has a spell over women, have you noticed lately that now the majority of the girls are pregnant in the school, I swear it’s a spreading like a disease…”

“Raul, why do you even care? You don’t even like any of the girls.” 

“Well this guy is preying on minors, the youngest one who got pregnant as far I know is 14! You hear me? 14!! I bet it’s the math teacher…” 

“Why the math teacher?”

Well all those bimbos seem to get straight A’s don’t you find that suspicious? 

“Well girls are smart too, are you living in the Stone Age?” 

I couldn’t stop laughing at his silly theories, last week he was sure it was the bus driver and the week before that it was the janitor.

“Yeah whatever!” He suspiciously looks around. 

“I overheard my sister the other day mentioning that more girls are planning to get pregnant at Sonny’s party. I'll go and expose him.”

“What? Why?!”

“We need to put a stop to this.” 

“What to stop? It’s not exactly the girls are being forced to do it, they chose to get pregnant and it’s their body.” 

Raul looks disappointed at me… the look I hated the most… 

“you should understand it the most, so many irresponsible mothers realizing they can’t raise a child so they just abandon them… you were left in a fucking dumpster but luckily someone found you and took you in but most are not that lucky. don’t you get it?” 

“Umm I have to go, see you in class.” 

I suddenly started to feel ill again my vision somehow seem to double everything. 

“Sorry I didn’t mean to bring it up.” 

I slowly got of the bench and walked away pretending everything was fine but the food in my stomach slowly moved up to my throat not sure if it’s the topic or my pregnancy that made it act all wack. I better find a bathroom. 

I managed to get into one of the toilet stalls. My head when straight to the toilet, vomit just burst out. It’s probably my belly acting up again. I just hope I won’t go back to the food tubes… if I can’t keep the food down I would starve my baby… my body started to shake just from the thoughts of losing Jonna’s baby and the fear of going back to the food tubes. 

I can’t do this on my own anymore…