On the way home I play And I by Ciara. I park in my drive way and play the song over and over again. I even search up the lyrics and drill them into my head.

Lil Sis: How was it

Me: I messed up

Lil Sis: WHAT

Me: Send this to her, I wanna make it up

I send the link to Luv U Better by LL Cool J and I sink into my seat. "Damn it. I'm such an ass."

I step out of my car abd turn in for the day. Laying on my king sized bed, I scroll through my pictures of Sierra.

"Damn!" I throw my phone. I put my head in my hands and cry. This woman was... is... my everything. She used to smile when she saw me. I think to a few hours ago when we was in the mall together. She's still beautiful and when she laughed and smiled...I wanted to hold her in my arms and never let go. I wanted so badly to pepper her with kisses and treat her like a queen. 

Then my brian played the scene when I told her I was leaving. Her face fell and my heart shattered. I'm such an asshole.

"Fuck!" I throw a pillow. I hold a picture of Sierra to my chest, "Please. Don't leave for good."