6-Rejection
Nick's pov
Since I decided I had to go hang out with that Taylor girl, I have to text her. Before I do, I check myself in the mirror.
I wonder, do I look gay? That Taylor girl likes me for sure but what part of me does she like? The fact that I'm a black man? Eh, everyone digs that. The fact I play basketball? Maybe that's attractive but I doubt so.
Maybe it's how tall I am? I am quite tall after all, standing at a whomping 6.2 ft. I'm no small weakling either. I have muscles and all that but I don't have a six-pack yet. Almost through. Well, I guess I am perfect on the physical side. So, this kinda makes sense why girls like me.
What about Ezra? Does he think I'm attractive? I don't know that...He's gay so he should've seen plenty of guys before. Am I even his type? What kind of guys does he like? Do I count as a hot one? I hope so and I hope he thinks so too. I doubt it anyways.
He never even looks at me. Not even once but would my body interest him?
Ugh, I should stop thinking about that. It's impossible to be with him. Just the possibility to talk to him at the supermarket is already a big deal. Anyways, I should forget about that now. I really need to text Taylor now!
Nick: Still in for hanging out?
Taylor: Yes
Nick: Where to?
Taylor: You choose
Hmm, I don't really know what kind of hanging out wouldn't seem like a date. It's not like I know what she likes. Watching a movie? I guess that'll do.
Nick: Movies?
Taylor: Ok
Nick: What kind of movies do you like?
She takes longer to respond than I thought.
Taylor: Are you ok with romantic movies?
Ugh the classic, why do all girls like romantic movies? I can't possibly tell her I hate it. I guess I'll just get over it. She must think this a date but I'll make sure it isn't.
Nick: I'm fine with it.
Taylor: Nice
I buy movie tickets for the most recent romantic movie hoping she didn't see it yet.
Nick: I'll pick you up in 10
Taylor: Oh, my address is xxxxxxxxxxxx
Nick: Ok got it
Guess I have to get this over with.
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I pick her up from the place and we are close to arriving at the movies.
"I picked the most recent movie."
"Oh..that's cool." She blushes. Does she usually blush that much?
I drive a bit more and we arrive. We get out of the car and we get inside to check out our tickets.
"Popcorn?"
"Yeah"
I buy two popcorns. I know she might be disappointed I bought two but I have no interest to lead her on even more than I already am. She doesn't deserve it. I'm not like Livia you know?
We both order drinks, then we take our drinks
and popcorn. We head for our room number, which I find out is number 5. There sure are lots of people today. Figures it's a Saturday.
"Where do you want to sit?"
"Um, you choose."
"Let's go here."
I point at the first seats I see. I like being as far as possible off the screen and at the top. That way you see better.
"Oh ok"
We sit down next to each other. We arrived a bit in advance so there are not a lot of people yet so that's good.
"Um, what...kind of...movies do you...like?"
Wow, she stutters a lot. If only she knew I already know she has feelings for me. Besides it's pretty obvious.
"Action"
"Oh..."
"Don't worry I don't mind romance movies." Lies
"Ok..."
As time passed by, more people get in and the movie starts. We talk some more but not a lot since she is pretty timid and nervous I guess.
I eat some of my popcorn and she does too. The commercials finally come on and then the movie starts.
I really hope this movie won't be too bad. I hate when I'm not the one in control of this but she's the one that wanted to hang out so I have to make her happy at least.
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Forget what I said, the movie was boring as hell. During the movie, I couldn't help but think about Ezra instead of watching it. I did notice that Taylor cried but I didn't do too much.
I didn't really want to bother her. Girls are after all sensitive. I didn't think the movie was worth crying on it but I guess she did. The commercial ads are currently rolling out so we get out of the movie room.
"So, what did you think of the movie?" I ask her.
"Ah, uh, it was touching...I'm sorry I cried..."
"It's fine. Everyone does anyways." That seems to deepen her mood.
"Sorry...again..."
"You don't have to be sorry you know?"
"I know but just..." She blushes, embarrassed.
"It's fine., I don't mind. Now, let's get out of here."
"Yeah..." We get out of the movie room and we are ready to leave the movies.
I'm about to ask her if she wants to go eat out but I realize it's almost 5 pm. It's then I suddenly remember Ezra. Does he work on Saturdays? Is he still working at this time? Sh*t I have to go see it for myself.
"Where are...we going?" She awkwardly says.
"Does bother you that I bring you home sooner?"
"Huh.." She looks puzzled and confused.
"I'm a busy man you know? I have to eat and get ready for the party." Lies
"Oh, right party...you always party on Saturdays..."
"Then, it's ok?" Just say yes!
"I understand...let's go."
We go to my car and we leave the parking lot. I try to go a tiny bit faster than usual. Scared that I'm gonna miss my chance to talk to Ezra.
We get to her house in mere minutes. I drop her off and I'm off to the supermarket. Even if I don't get to talk to Ezra, at least I'll know his schedule a little bit more.
I arrive at the supermarket right at 5 pm. I get in faster than I normally should. To my grand pleasure, I see him at the checkout. Oh, thank god, I didn't come here for no reason.
Ezra...hmm, Oh, yeah, Pierce. He's so breathtaking. Always is. He has light Chocolate hair and blue...blue eyes. Eyes I hope would look at me. By the way, he's not black like me. Black-skinned men don't attract me all that much.
He stands at a height of 5.10 ft. He isn't buff nor is he skinny through. His body is perfectly well propositioned, especially his booty. Every gay guy's dream.
What doesn't help is that he wears tight clothes that leave nothing to the imagination! Even worse he leaves a lot of skin most of the time. He doesn't go shirtless as you can't do that at school but still not what guys usually do.
With that, he also has a piercing on his navel and he paints his nails just like most girls! That's something the world doesn't like to see in a guy. He even has makeup, black eyeliner to be precise. It's unusual but it suits him.
I met him or saw him for the first time last year. I believe he was a transfer student. Immediately upon seeing how he dressed up and acted, the guys started harassing him. I kinda did the same at first but eventually, I grew accustomed to his unique choice of clothes and felt attracted to him or his body perhaps...
Anyways today he isn't wearing his usual clothes! The ones where I can see skin. His usual tight clothes where you can definitely notice his booty aren't there.
Instead, he has a supermarket uniform that hides all parts of his body, so no unnecessary skin.
He's about to close I'm sure. I pretend to buy stuff and then head to the checkout. Luckily there aren't a lot of people at the store. To be honest, there's only one patient left. Most people are having fun or eating at this hour.
Ezra doesn't look at me then he realizes I have nothing to check out.
"Sir, if you don't have anything to check out please leave." Oh, I forgot he has a British accent. It feels funny to hear him call me sir.
"Exactly."
"Exactly what?" I lean over the counter. I smile brightly.
"Sir you are bothering the other clients. If you don't have anything please leave and stop wasting time." Wow, he sure is in his job.
"There's basically no one."
"It doesn't change anything."
"You're almost done with your work right?"
"What do you want?" Oh, finally he cracked. Hearing him call me sir is fun but that's not what I want.
"I want to talk to you."
"Wrong time."
"When is it a good time for you?"
"How about never?" Ugh, he's pissing me off. If I didn't like him I wouldn't bother doing this.
"Your shift is over. It's past 5 pm."
"Who said it was?" Another cashier suddenly appears ready to take place.
"See? That's what I was saying." He glares at me.
He leaves probably in the restroom to get rid of his uniform and then he comes back ready to leave but I stop right on time.
"I said I want to talk to you."
"And I say I don't want to. What do you want Nickolas? You're wasting my time." It's so weird hearing him calling me Nickolas instead of the usual Nick I'm used to.
"I just want to talk to you."
"Bugger off." He's cussing at me with his Brit accent?
"What?"
"Such a dim are you? Logically you'd be busy partying innit?" Huh? What?
"Why are you here?" He adds. Finally, I understand some English.
"To talk to you."
"Such a poppycock. You're making a cock up here. Go back to that little gang of yours." Now that pisses me off. He tries to leave but I stop him again.
"About them, I'm sorry they treat you that way."
"Guilty? I don't think so. You are exactly the same as them." Ouch, that hurts.
"Trust me I'm not."
"Sure you're not. I don't believe you."
"Look how about I protect you from those guys and make the bullying stop?"
"You are not even up for it anyways. I don't need your protection." Ouch, that hurts.
"But.."
"I said no. You should protect that little reputation of yours." My what?
"Buh, bey!" And he leaves
What the hell just happened? Did I just...get rejected? Omg, this is a first...
F**k, I didn't think he was that stubborn. What will he make fall on my knees?
I leave the supermarket completely dejected of being rejected. Something tells me this will happen again.
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I arrive home, ready to go to my room but my brother suddenly comes out.
"Woah, what's with the face? Who hurt you like that?"
"It's nothing..?"
"Is it him?"
"Shhh!"
"Ok, ok it is."
"Are the others here?"
"Mom is out with her friends and dad I don't know. Ally is out with her boyfriend, I guess." I tense up at the mention of my boyfriend. That brat.
"Ok, that's good."
"My room or your room?"
Since when did I say yes to talking with him? Ugh, talking feelings out is annoying. Why is he doing this? He doesn't even like it either.
"Spill"
As much as I hate talking about feelings, Felix is the only one that knows I like guys. I kinda need to be comforted so...
"I got rejected." He raises his eyebrows probably curious damnit.
"What did you say to make that happen?"
"I don't know...he's so..."
"Stubborn?"
"How do you know that?"
"I'm the same as him." Oh, sh*t he admits his flaws. That's a big deal.
"Ok.."
"So what did you say to him?"
"I found out he works at the local supermarket."
"Seriously? And I suppose you stalked him?" I get flustered by this accusation.
"What?! No! I didn't do that."
"Ok? But you went to his work." He's saying it like it's a fact, god...
"Yes.."
"So, you annoyed him at work?"
"No! I just asked to talk."
"Ok, was he done with his shift?"
"Yeah, he was. He didn't want to talk to me."
"Well, I can see why." I glare at him and he smiles back.
"Felix! You're supposed to help me here!"
"I'm just being honest. I figure he was brutally honest with you too?" I look at him dumbfounded.
"How do you know that?"
"It's not like I don't know Ezra."
"Do you stalk him?"
"No, I just observe. I already strike him as that type of guy. He seems quite bold."
"Ah yeah, even you can notice it at school."
"Definitely. Can't believe you fell for him instead of the other guys out there but I understand why."
"Oh really? Why?"
"Eh can't say much. So what did he tell you?"
"He told me I'm just like the other guys, like the guys in my gang."
"Sh*t that must have hurt. I mean from the outside you do look like that."
"Am I like that?"
"Well kinda."
Again he hits me right where it hurts. Now that I think about it Felix and Ezra are kind of similar in that department.
"Nice.."
"What made him say that?"
"Ok..ok stop pressuring me. I just told him I could protect him from the harassment of the guys." Felix face palms his forehead.
"No wonder he said that to you. As you can see he doesn't want you to protect him. The message you're throwing out is that he can't protect himself."
"What's wrong with that? Girls always want that?"
"Do guys like that?" I remember a specific someone from my past.
"Ah, yeah...no...I forgot about that."
"So, are you planning to talk to him again anytime soon?"
"Um...I don't know..he's so stubborn.."
"What if I try to gather information from him and talk to him?"
"What? You'll rather die than do that."
"If it really makes you better I will. It's not like I have better to do."
"You think he'll talk to you?"
"Yeah, he will. Unlike you, I'm not the basketball team captain that's part of the most homophobic gang I have ever seen."
"Wow...I never really thought about it like that.."
"Can't believe you never thought of that." I smile and try to change the spotlight on him. I had enough of it already."
"Admit you're curious about him," I smirk.
"Nah I'm doing it for you."
"Come on you totally are curious."
"Fine, what if I am?"
"That's cool. I don't mind it."
"Ok?"
"Can you try to find out why he really goes to the basketball games? It's driving me nuts not knowing. The guys are trying to make him stop coming to the games but he's so hell-bent on going."
"I can't guarantee it'll work but I can try." He smiles.
"Deal?"
"Yeah deal."
We shake hands to make it official.
I really hope this plan of his will work to our advantage.
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It's been a few days since I agreed to Felix's idea. I'm still confused about Felix's sudden change of character despite it all he surprisingly pulled it off. I saw him talk to Ezra at school a few times and it seems like he has information on him because he dared to bribe me just to get me to listen to him.
So the first thing I asked him was about the favour I asked but without luck. We still don't know why he goes to the games. Seems like Ezra likes it that's all.
Of course, I wanted to know what Ezra really is like. Felix pointed out that Ezra likes in fact to push people away but he managed to get him to come around. Guess I wasn't the only one that got that treatment.
Though he mentioned that Ezra is quite fun once he gets out of his shell. Something about protection. Guess it makes sense with the harassment and all.
He also mentioned that's quite funny that Ezra has a British accent and the words he says. I hope one day he'll use them on me...
Regardless, what I really wanted to know is if Felix talked about me to him and also why Ezra thinks about me but no such luck he didn't. Too afraid that Ezra would ignore me right there.
What shocked me the most is that Felix was so adman about giving me advice about how it'll become possible to get Ezra to like me.
Then Felix and I joked about him being friends with Ezra. Which I don't like. My younger brother teasing me is a sight I thought I would never see in him. It was embarrassing.
Anyways, in the end, I got him to agree to try to talk about me to Ezra. I hope it will work because I don't want to get rejected ever again!
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