Read Direct View of Nostalgia :: Strict laws [Ep 16]

Why I'm still here? Why do I have to live this darkness and monotonous dream? Why can't you leave? Why do I feel so weird when I heard you? Who are you kid?... You're not going to answer... You're just going to keep yelling me the nickname of "Ale" until I woke up... Why are you even calling me out? What to you even expect me to do? Why can't you do it yourself? Why can't you just dissapear and stop yelling at me with that desesperation? I can't help you, I can't even help myself so... Why would I help you anyways?...

The dream stayed the same, just darkness, him and a kid he can't see yelling at him "Ale" without taking a breath even, this is recurrent and Alex is totally mad about it but he can't do something about it, psychiatrists and therapists don't have an answer for this it's just crazy for them and even more crazy for them is to know that Alex been having that dreams since two almost three years ago and even with some recommendations of the people he visited the voice that he hears on his dreams doesn't stop

"Maybe is because you don't have friends" Alex started working to get friends but then didn't stop "Maybe you're stressed" he stopped working and went studying in a university with people with the same currency as him "Maybe you don't like the people ambient at all or the university is being too much for you" he stopped studying and a bunch of friends he made left him alone with the time "Maybe you need to travel more" he really wasn't interested in any of that stuff but still give it a try, He barely enjoyed but being alone in those places just made him feel really miserable and sad, then he decided to try something by his own, drink alcohol until get drunk for the first time and it actually worked so he started to drink every day to fall asleep while drinking and started to combine it with sleeping pills, big mistake, he almost died but soon he had the luck to be funded by one of his neighbors that needed help with something, Alex becamed to be black listed for buying ANY PILL, also he were sended to a place to get help with his drinking problems, Alex wasn't very attent to that so he never actually learned something, also he was obligated to go with another therapist that recommended Alex to try anti depressants or something but he decided to just keep drinking but soon some of the places he entered was neglecting him the entrance, he started buying some alcohol in 24/7 store and sometimes see if one tavern or discotec was open for him and there was, the "seven bricks" tavern was open for him everytime but in one attempt to drink and don't get banned or something, he started to go only a few days of the week but because his house is far away from the tavern he tried to date people there and hang them to his house to stay secure that he wasn't going to be stolen in the way back home (he walks to home) but soon Alex started to take more seriously this stuff because he was beginning to like having people in his house and even more girls, so he tried in his was dating, unfortunately Alex was always so reserved and felt really aknward when those girls wanted to experience sex with him, Alex BELIEVES in the true love and that is better to do it with somebody you at least have like a year like a couple or like somebody really close to you, that and another problem he have that is paranoid to do anything suspicious or weird made most of the girls that been with him, fastly leave him and the others that lasted even more leave him too because there wasn't enough intimacy or closeness, Alex started to think that maybe was about money and started to travel with some of them and gave them really expensive stuff but still not enough to last

Alex is starting to feel good around Tomoe because he feels like he can understand her and act normal around her and is very honest but also clumsy, something that Alex really like, after a few hours Alex wake up to start a new day, this day he was going to try and teach her more stuff, this time LAWS so anywhere else she could live out of this country or city at least she would be in almost or every sense correct, ex woke up first so he went to the bathroom and took a shower then dressed inside of the bathroom and walk out, Alex started to make the breakfast, something easy and enjoyable, rice with eggs and warm but almost hot coffee with milk, served in a small plate so he doesn't crazy with the portions, is better to eat just enough, Tomoe in that time wake up and did a stretch while she was walking out of the room

—Good morning Tomoe

—Guh mognig...

She was a bit tired but the food made her leave the bed, Alex though about that and grinned because it was a bit funny for him, Alex turned of the stove and walked to the dinning room with the plates, Tomoe instantly followed him to eat, Alex left the plates on the table so he sat down and started to eat, Tomoe did the same but by some kind of miracle SHE DIDN'T RUINED THE PLATE something that surprised Alex, but then he remembered that the first time she came to the house she didn't ruined the plates, that means that Tomoe is cured and finally can hold her strength Alex didn't sais something about it until she started to drink the coffee

—So what do you think?

—Huh?

—The food

—Oh yeah, I enjoyed the food, thanks

—Glad you liked

—Mmm...

—One thing Tomoe

—Yeah?

—You didn't broke the plate

—What?

Tomor look down to the plate it was PERFECT not a single scratch even, Tomoe was visibly surprised because she didn't broke it so it means that she's holding her strength correctly so instead of only surprising she was now smiling truly happy and raised up her hands in happiness, the problem is that she had the coffee on her hand and pour it on her

—Nooo my drink—Now she wasn't happy at all

—It's called coffee and take—Alex gave Tomoe his coffee

—Wait, you barely drink of it

—Is there a problem?

—Well is that you're giving it to me but there ain't more coffee right?

—Well... You're right

—Then is not fair, You're barely having a cup and instead I'm going to have almost a full cup of... Coffee you said?

—Yes

—Great but is not fair

—Tomoe, I'm giving you my cup of coffee trying to be kind and because I almost laugh for your reaction

—But it was my reaction, my mistake, you shouldn't do something about it if I did this

—«She really likes being an equal...» «Would she feel bad if I say that she's rejecting my coffee because is mine?»

—So, you're gonna drink your coffee?

—Tomoe, let me tell you something

—Hmm?

—When you're saying no to stuff that somebody is giving you or offering to you, like rejecting something you're doing in this moment is normal to think that you're being rejected because maybe there is something wrong, like our appearance, voice or vibes

—Wait, so you're feeling bad?

—A bit, because I think that maybe you don't want my coffee because I took a sip of it.

—But it's not true!

—But it feels that way and... Who can make sure that you're being honest with me?

Tomoe started to think for a few seconds and a bit mad and confused she said grabbing the coffee softly

—I'll drink it

—Thanks Tomoe «It seems like is easy to manipulate her» «I think I should teach her about that»

After breakfast Alex told Tomoe to take a shower, he was going to prepare himself and another stuff to teach her about laws, so he started to read even more laws that he didn't remembered or had the idea of their existence, after all that, once Tomoe was with clothes and everything Alex called Tomoe to teach her something, Tomoe was a bit sleepy and wanted to sleep more but still she walked to the couch to sit, then Alex sits in front of her with one of the chairs of dinning room

—So... Tomoe, what do you think we're going to learn today?

—I'm going to learn?... Can't be later?

—No, now answer

—I don't know

—Give it a try

—But I don't know

—You're going to get something even if you lose

—How to be sociable

—Almost but no

—I surrender

—if you directly surrender you're not going to get something—Tomoe stared Alex really mad

—Agresivity

—No

—Holding

—A bit of that

—Surviving

—Not yet

—Then what is it?!

—First, calm down second thing is laws

—Laws?

—Yeah laws and take—Alex threw one of the candies Tomoe stole from the market to her and fastly grab it and instantly devour it

—Thanks

—No problem and like I was saying today we're learning laws

—What is a law—After that snack she seemed more interested

—A law is a rule that everybody should know and follow

—What happen if that rule is overpassed?

—There are many stuff that could happen but principally you're going to be obligated to pay a fee or you're going to jail, any questions?

—Uhm... What's a "fee" and "jail"

—A fee is something where you have to pay for whatever you did, like a crime you did or something public you broke, things like that and the jail well is when you comitted a crime SO BAD that you have to be incarcerated

—Incarcerated? Why?

—Well, I'm going to make it short but, if you kill, rape, kidnapp, drive without/supended a license, try to kill, steal something, rob somebody, consume/sell/make drugs, kill domestic animals or other kind of animals that you're not allowed you're going to be incarcerated

—So nobody dies?

—Just in special cases, like if you kill more than five people without an actual reason, just for joy or something like that you can be sentenced to death, the methods can be different for things like the age and health, so if you're sentenced a special group would make you some health exams, if you have a perfect health they out you to sleep to break your knock and brain connections to took of your organs and give them to another person that could need it, the information of who's the ones who receive those organs is clasificated

—I kinda have the idea of why but... Why is that?

—A LOT OF PEOPLE WOULD GO TO INTERVIEW THOSE PEOPLE AND TRY TO BASICALLY GET SOME INFORMATION

—Okay that's a total different reason that I would have imagined just one thing, Why interview?

—A lot of people believes that another person organs on your body could mean that part of his soul is on you, so you could get some evil ideas or even the personality

—That doesn't make sense

—Glad you think the same

—So it's that all?

—No, there is more things you have to know

—Oh... Okay

—Look if you don't want to get a sue you should follow the stuff I'm going to tell you, in a neighborhood don't you ever put loud music, walk outside your home nude-

—WHY WOULD I DO THAT?!—The idea was embarrassing for her

—Glad you get the point, now more stuff about neighborhoods, don't you ever do something or talk to the kids around if there any, only yell at them if they start ruining stuff from your home or talk with their parents

—Okay? «That's weird»

—Don't drink alcohol outside with bottles or cans

—What is that even?

—One of the best stuff in the world but is better if YOU don't get involved with that

—I guess?

—But if you do get involved with drinking I'll remember it for you, DON'T DRINK OUTSIDE HOME OR OUTSIDE FRON A TAVERN!

—Okay okay I get it don't yell

—Sorry is because I learnt this in the bad way

—Uhm... Can I know?

—NO

—Okay sorry—That scared her a bit

—And other stuff before I start making dinner

—So we are about to end the class of today?

—Yes but still pay attention because this stuff is important to you to know

—Got it

—Great so don't become an enemy to you neighbors or they are going to make your life a total shit, Don't let them know about your history, NO MATTER WHAT, lie if is necessary, Don't involve too much with your neighbors

—In other words is better if I live far from people—Tried to make fun of everything Alex was saying

—Actually yeah it would be better but I honestly recommend to you to at least get a friend or a boyfriend even, being lonely is really dangerous and sad

—How do you know?

—I live alone, it's that enough?

—Oh... So you're sad almost all the time?

—It's not like that but believe that it really makes me happy to have you around even if sometimes you break some stuff

—That's sweet, I guess... «So if I leave he would be alone huh?...»

—Don't think too much about it, you have to live your own life and sometimes I go to some places to see people so I don't feel alone all the time and also the alcoholic drinks is a really good escape from reality

—It's okay then «So he's happy to have somebody here... So he doesn't have a family or something, Right?»

—Okay so the last thing I want you to have on mind is-

—Hey, sorry if I interrumpt you but can I ask something?

—Uhm I guess it's okay

—Do you have family members? Friends or something?

—I... Actually no, not here or anywhere, I don't have

—So... You are ALWAYS alone and for that you go to different places to socializate?

—Yes

—But you haven't made some friends?

—What's your point—Alex was getting mad with every detail

—Do you want me to be your friend?—Alex surprised a bit

—I uh... Wow of course!

—Then we're friends—Tomoe grinned happily

Alex didn't knew how to react to that, to his point of view that was really cute and really wanted to hug her strongly, he tried to keep everything normal so he trying to do not smile to much he tried to end the class quick

—S-so well like I tried to say maybe a domestic animal would be good if you are alone

—Got it

—Well that's all

—Thanks Alex

—Not a problem—Suddenly Tomoe hugged Alex—U-uh T-tomoe why are you hugging me?

—The other day when you did this you said that you were being thankful

—A-ah well... So... «It's not bad if I hug her too right?»

—It's weird?

—No no, just... Don't do this with anyone else—He hugged Tomoe back

—O-okay and why are you hugging me?

—Don't mind it I'm just being thankful for you hugging me

—That's weird?

—No

After that long hug Alex prepared went to the kitchen thinking about how wholesome was that, he wasn't used to hugs but she's really comfortable and likeable ok that ambit, Tomoe only started to think that maybe should be nicer with Alex after all he spends his time being here alone and sometimes drunk by can she imagine and started to feel bad for the idea of leaving him alone once everything is calm and she could leave and started thinking about maybe find a way to keep the friendship from far if is possible, after all that nothing interesting happened and next day was going to arrive with something different