(Sasha pov)

I've been in my bed for days now, trying desperately not to feel like how I feel currently.

My mind is constantly in overdrive...

I understand that I'd feel like this, I'm used to it but this just feels so much worse, this time there's a reason for me wanting to cry, instead of just getting an overwhelming feeling like you got hit by rocks falling on you out of nowhere, THIS TIME there's a reason!

How I wish I could go back to those days of random bursts of overwhelming feelings knocking you out of nowhere for NO REASON.

I feel so empty, my heart completely torn and shredded into a dozen pieces.

I manage the courage to get out of bed today because today is the day we get my bed and move it into the room across from Anastasia.

I make sure to leave a bit earlier than everyone else.

I want to be able to see the house that used to hold all my precious memories.

I open the front door and look around, everything looks exactly the same, everything still untouched as it was on the day of the horrible news I got.

I go into my bedroom first, looking at my comfort space and after a few minutes, I finally muster the courage and walk into their bedroom.

My heart instantly bleeds open like a wound that can't be fixed. My chest feels tight to the core as I survey the pieces left behind of them... my parents... only an empty bed that once used to lie sleeping parents of which younger me would go to them in the middle of the night because I had a nightmare, how I wish I could go to them now and wake up from this nightmare to be comforted in their arms.

I withhold any tears not wanting to cry again and just wanting to get my life back to normal.

I go back into my room, not being able to bear the wave of emotions I've been hit with and I start to lay out all my clothes from my closet on my bed along with all my picture frames to pack away once Anastasia gets here with the bags.

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