After two weeks of not being able to find the answers to my question, I took the decision to go to Switzerland, there I thought I would find among the books, even if it was a rumor about my case and that of my partner, but there was nothing.
I had been away for almost a month, away from everyone and from her, when I returned I couldn't go home right away, my whole being longed to see her even for a minute, to feel her close to me.
Not being able to get close enough or the fear I have of losing her I had to settle for seeing her from afar, hidden in the forest vegetation. I can feel her calling me... her desire to have me close to her. But how can that be possible? Have I really lost my mind? Maybe my desire to find her has driven me crazy. But what I feel is real, I know it is.
I'll never have enough of her, but I had to go back, go back to my reality and pretend as much as I can, no one should know about her, even if it hurts me, I've always thought that honesty is what keeps us together and makes us strong.
-So you'll just pretend that nothing happened?
-Mother... don't worry anymore.
-How can you ask that of me? -You're my son... from one second to the next you just went crazy and ran away, not only to your sister's place, but you left the country.
-Don't worry, I'm fine, I just had to fix a couple of things," I hug her.
-And you come back stranger than before, more... happy.
-Is that a bad thing?
-No, I just haven't seen you like this, there's something different about you that I can't figure out, I just have some suspicions.
-Don't worry.
I know what her suspicion is and she's right, at least a part of it, nothing escapes her, but I won't confirm and I won't deny anything, and she won't ask, because she knows I must have my reasons, good or bad, she just has to trust me, and that's something I've earned over the years.
My days have changed, I have my usual job, but I escape a couple of hours a day to see her and be by her side. My mother tries to follow me sometimes, but I always lose her and Steven, they just need to stop worrying and understand that I'm an adult, with my own private life.
All the more reason why I only escape to be with her, everyone's attitude is annoying, before I worried them for not being happy all the time, but now that I am they are even more worried and I understand it, it's a sudden change, but they should try to understand it, accept it or just want to be happy for me, no matter my motives or reasons.