12-Finally mine
Nick's pov
It's spring break and things haven't changed a whole lot to my grand displeasure. The team doesn't have any games, so it's been pretty boring since it started.
I haven't heard from the guys since. I'm glad about it actually. I was growing annoyed with them, I needed some time away from them. They are about to drive me crazy.
There's one person that I'm not happy with and that person hasn't contacted me since ten, and that's Ezra. I'm afraid, this means he was serious. Things really are over between us, if there was even something, to begin with.
I don't want it to be the case. I don't believe it. I know that Ezra can be something but as much as it hurts, I doubt all of this was fake. He can't fool me that much.
I could feel it whenever we were together, there was something but I couldn't tell what it was. He might not like me but I don't like the idea of that.
Does he really need to completely shut me down like that? I don't really get him. I only tried to protect him. I don't get how he lets those guys do this to him.
If I could I would stop hanging out with them but it isn't as simple. I need to keep a relationship with those guys because they are ok my team. Those guys are nasty when they hate someone. I'd hate for them to hate me.
I'm their captain and to stick to good chemistry with the guys, I have to hang out with them even if I'm not fond of them.
If he stopped talking to me because I'm still friends with those guys...I can't help with that. I didn't think he could stoop that low. If he knows me enough, he should know I'm not like them. What I'm showing off is only a facade.
The other day he proved to me that he really doesn't believe that. He doesn't believe me...I can't believe he still does. What will it take for him to stop doubting me? Damn things have never been this complicated before.
He still hasn't noticed me for who I am. I still can't believe that. I have a hard time figuring out whether he's genuine with me or not. Ezra is such a mystery.
Ugh..thinking about this is making me miss him but also having a headache. Guess that's not even what won in the end. It's the explicit part of him that won. I'm about to do some naughty things but I get a text on my phone.
Ugh, what is it again? Why now?
Ezra: Hey...
No way Ezra texted me! I thought it was over between us! He didn't block me too!
Nick: Hey
He types an answer for what feels like forever just for it to be short.
Ezra: You busy?
Am I busy? Oh gosh..does he want to see me..? Will he apologize? This makes me completely forget me hard on.
Nick: No I'm not why?
Ezra: Down to hang?
It's always funny the way he texts. It's as if he doesn't like to be honest with his answers. Too embarrassed probably.
Nick: Sure, right now or later?
Ezra: How about now?
Oh, he badly wants to see me. It's crazy how what happened last time seems to be forgotten.
Nick: Sure
I get out of my room excitedly and run out to my car. Felix looks back at me raising an eyebrow but says nothing. I get in my car and start it. I leave the parking lot not even a minute later.
I drive for about 5 minutes till I get to his house. This time around I know his address by heart. I can't help it. I pull up at his house's parking entrance.
I notice an awkward Ezra getting out of his house. Well, that's rare...He comes in my direction and opens the passenger door. He then sits and put on his seat belt. I put on a smile despite everything.
"Hey," I say awkwardly.
"Hey.."
I start the car and leave the parking lot.
"Where do you want to go? Got an idea in mind?" I try to play it cool. He seems lost in his thoughts before he realizes I talked to him.
"Oh, uh I don't know. It's still the afternoon."
Ezra surely isn't acting like himself. That's strange...here I thought he would have at least apologized to his usual energetic self.
"I've got no idea too. It's kinda warm today but we're too far away from the beach."
I laugh at the idea, seems like that startles a laugh out of him too. I guess I'm finally making him go back to his usual self.
"Um..do you mind shopping?"
Oh gosh, malls? Does he like shopping? What doesn't explain it is why does he look so hesitant? I thought he was starting to be more like his usual self. Guess I was wrong.
"Sure. You want to buy stuff?"
"Yeah.." He looks out the window instead.
"About the other day.." He immediately turns at me and looks at me with a look I can't tell what it means.
"I hope you don't mind a little bit of shopping." He smiles.
Oh? He's ignoring my statement on purpose but he's finally like his usual self? I don't know if I should be mad or not.
"No, it's fine. Do as you like."
"Yeah..."
He stares back out the window. Dang it! I thought we were making progress! Shopping it is then!
I drive a few minutes before we arrive at our destination. Instantly as we get in, Ezra goes to a shop. It's a...LGBTQ+ family shop. We have those in L.A. His smile becomes bright upon seeing the stuff they have. I guess he prefers those things over me...
I get in with him and check out some stuff. None of them are really appealing. Is this really what being gay should look like? Rainbows and everything? I don't need to showcase it to the whole world like that. Ezra isn't of the same mindset as me. He very much likes it.
Back home a store with LGBTQ+ stuff would basically be illegal but looking at how much stuff there is...it's crazy...
In the meantime, Ezra pays for his stuff. Then he heads to me.
"Take these."
"What?" He smirks. The teenage girl looks at us, probably wondering if we are a couple damnit.
"Why? Aren't they yours?"
"Oh, come on don't be a lazy sod and hold these."
Gosh, I'll never understand that British slang. Regardless, without a doubt, I take his bags. The teenage girl looks very amused at the scene.
"Let's get out of here."
"Sure" He smiles.
Ugh, what is this? Is this his way of revenge or something? I should be the one doing revenge here, not the other way around.
We get out of the store and he heads for a clothing store this time. He's gonna buy some clothes right?
He goes into the section for crop tops. Oh, dear lord. I come with him this time.
"You like crop tops that much?"
"Yeah, I do. It's fashionable. I have to be smartly dressed." Hmm, sure it is.
"Mm sure"
He checks a few crop tops until he chooses a few. He then goes to the section on accessories. He takes some glasses, I can tell and then some chokers. Then he goes to the checkout. He turns to me with a huge smile spread on his face.
"I don't have any more quids on me, so would you do me a favour and pay for me?" He says with his naughty look too. Gosh..am I really gonna do this?
I end up paying for his stuff. Damn, I'll be broke after this.
We go to a few other stores and he buys a few more stuff. Of course, I pay for them too. By now, I have full of bags to hold. They are so heavy!
"Ezra..can we take a break?" He looks at me noticing how much I'm struggling.
"Fine, I'm peckish anyways. Let's go to the fast food restaurants in here."
"Ok.."
We walk some more with me suffering from the weight of the bags to a fast food restaurant. At least, Ezra is finally giving mercy on me because he's ordering for me and letting me stay seated.
Damn is he normally like that or is he only taunting me?
He comes back with our order. This time around, I think about what is left unsaid. I can't let him escape those discussions.
"Ezra.."
"Hm?"
"Is it really true that you don't care about me?"
"I'll admit I did a bit of a cock up last time but that was a one-time thing."
"You mean...?" I blush embarrassed.
"Yeah...I thought it over and you're fun company to be around so...yeah..."
"Do you...hate the guys?"
"Your so-called friends? Not really? I don't care about them. They are just plain prats."
"But how? They are so mean to you!"
"I couldn't care less about those types of guys. They are worthless and plain wankers." Ouch, somehow I feel targeted even if I didn't understand the last part.
"And me...?" He becomes silent at that, then he answers something.
"I guess you're not nearly as a wanker as them.."
"What is that supposed to mean?!"
"Look, I'm telling you last time was a one-time thing. You were pissed off and it was your birthday."
"You did only that because it was my birthday? That's f**ked up Ezra!"
"Oh honey, it's not. Besides, I don't date."
"What why?"
"I just don't date. That's all." I look at him clearly unsatisfied with his answer.
"Let's head back now. We are basically done eating anyways."
"Yeah.."
What the hell why is he basically ignoring everything regarding the connection between us?
He's ready to leave but I remember I have all his bags to take. Ugh...I'm never shopping again...not even if it's for Ezra...
We get in my car and we leave the mall.
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I'm still very confused. Ezra has been talking to me completely normally since last time but I can't help but think about his words.
Are there really any chances for me? Should I try finding out whether or not he likes me and he's lying? I don't know what it is with him. His excuses seem to be making less sense as time goes by.
I'm starting to not believe him! I want to know if he likes me!
Ugh, Ezra is such a mystery it's crazy! You would think a guy out in the open like wouldn't be so secretive! Well, he surely is hard to get.
Wait what if he's playing hard to get? No way! That's possible! With how he treated me last time, he for sure is playing hard to get but I don't know if that's true...
I don't even know if he likes me. I won't dare kiss him again, even if that's what I want to do. Be straightforward that's all. Ezra truly is a different brand through.
I notice Allyson getting some snacks while I'm in the living room. I was watching tv but I got bored of it.
"Ally!"
"What?"
"Do you think my crush may be playing hard to get?"
"Gosh, you're really asking such a question?"
She takes her snacks and comes by the living room. She sits down next to me.
"What is it again? You never talk about your love troubles, but now you do I regret ever asking."
"Hey!"
"What? You would say the same if I started talking about my boyfriend." I glare at the mention of her boyfriend.
"Still not gonna accept your younger sis has a boyfriend?"
"Yeah, I'll never." She laughs.
"So who is that crush of yours? Is it Taylor?"
"What? How do you know her?! You never saw her before!"
"Did you literally forget that I'm in the same school as you? Besides you're so close to Taylor. You two look like a couple, lol. Are you through?"
"No, we're not, we're just friends."
"Ah, I see she's still your crush then. Not dating status yet." She smirks.
"Seriously she's not.."
"Shh, I'll help you get with her." No matter what I do she won't let me say anything.
"My crush is playing hard to get. I try to get closer to them but they only push me away. Do they like me?" She looks at me completely confused.
"Sounds like you don't have hope with her."
"What?"
Then as he always does those days, Felix leaves his room and comes into the living room.
"Don't crash his hopes. Nickolas won't give up on them. Nickolas never gives up." Allyson glares at Felix.
Those two are at it again damnit. It's tough having younger twin siblings almost the same age as me.
"But it's clear she doesn't like him! Who would do that to my brother?!"
"His soulmate?" Felix starts laughing and we both look at him unamused.
"Stop joking. This is a serious matter! Nickolas has a crush!"
"Thanks for reminding him." Felix rolls his eyes but then smiles.
Oh, he loves being sarcastic. It makes me think about Ezra.
"When a girl pushes you away, they hate you. Simple as that."
"No! She's not right! I'm sure she likes you back." Felix says in return.
"Oh?" I smirk knowing damn he knows who my crush is.
"How can you say that? You have no relationship experience."
"So that automatically means my ideas are wrong? I use my intuition."
"Ugh you with your intuition, it's annoying." Felix pretends to be annoyed.
"Yeah, yeah"
"Anyways, this means Taylor is hard to get?"
"No! I just said we're just friends!" Allyson sides eye me.
"You sure?"
"I'm positive. Anyways, things won't change if I continue talking to you guys." They both glare at me.
"You two really love this seeing me dealing with that dilemma huh? Even you Felix?" He smiles lightly.
"Yeah.."
"So why are you so interested in my love life if you don't ever talk about yours?" Instantly Allyson blushes.
"Yeah, that's what I thought."
"Didn't you promise you'd bring home your boyfriend so we can meet him?" Thank goodness Felix is on board with me.
"Yeah, yeah I will. He's just busy but I'll get him to come when he won't be." We both look at her skeptical but we shrug it off.
"Ok if you say so."
Then Felix goes back to his room which pretty much makes her leave too. I really do love my siblings but sometimes I need to get away from them.
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Yesterday it was Easter, so I couldn't do much about my situation with Ezra. I had an Easter dinner with my family but that's it.
I'm at a loss for what to do since our break ends tomorrow so...
As much as I think I can't help but overhear the doorbell ring. I run for god knows why.
I open the door and I'm met with a boy who crashes my lips with a passionate kiss as if his life depended on it, which makes my eyes snap wide open. A guy? What? Wait...it's Ezra!
I push him away and take a breather confused about what's going on.
"What are you doing here?"
"I...I regret saying that the other day..."
"What? How? I don't get it..you don't like me..."
"I..." He's ready to kiss me again but I stop him.
"Not here. My parents are here. Let's go in my room."
"Ok..." He says quietly.
He looks..so vulnerable right now...that's so unlike him...
We get up the stairs and get into my room. Then he starts kissing me again. What the f**k is going on? Why is he suddenly kissing me? I thought last time was a one-time thing.
We kiss for a while since I don't dare to push him away but after a few minutes, I do.
"What the f**k? I don't get it...is this a dream?" He smirks at that.
"No, you sod, this is reality."
"I thought this day would never happen."
"You like it right?"
"Of course I do.."
"I give it some thought and I came to realize that...you don't only like my body and my bum..." Oh, he dares to mention his body of all times?
"So, what does this mean?"
"I give it some thought...and..." Scared of what he'll say, I say the unthinkable.
"Do you want to be my boyfriend?" He looks back at me taken aback but he smiles regardless.
"Yeah, I'd love that." I instantly smile upon hearing that and spoil him with kisses.
"Do you love kisses that much?" He smiles brightly.
"I do"
I grab his waist and immediately kiss him. I can't help it I'm too happy. He accepts my kiss. Just a simple kiss leads us to do the unthinkable which makes me the happiest man on earth yet again.
Oh gosh, I can't believe this! I'm dating Ezra! Finally, my efforts weren't fruitless!
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