"Did you hear she has moved mover a hundred times this year"

"I heard she's a lesbo."

"Look at her baggy clothes, yuck." says the voice around me. 

 Why am I back here in this hell hole, I think to myself. I feel a jerk. I see all the people zoning in on me. 

 

  I run to a door but can't open it. Then another. Then another. I try to open another door and it opens. I walk through and I'm transported to a place. It's Linsey's room. I see myself sitting on her bed with her.  

  I remember this, I think to myself. It's the time when I was invited over for a sleepover and then she kissed me. And just like the clockwork is happening. She kisses me. She puts her hands on the back of my neck and puts my head on the pillow. She then hovers over me and kisses me more. 

  

    " I need to leave," I say to myself. But when I try to open the door I can't. 

   

    Linsey takes off her shirt and unbuttons her jeans. I slide them off of her long legs. Linsey pulls me up mid-kiss and takes off my shirt and pants. There we both are making out half-naked in her bed. She lays me back again. That's when she sits on top of me and takes off her pink lacey bra. 

  " Ah shit I need to leave, I need to go" I scream but I can't the door won't open. 

  I'm grabbing her boobs. Oh, I miss that feeling, those squishy but hard boobs in my hands. What the fuck am I saying.  Linsey moans. She unbuttons my bra. 

  There we are two horny 16-year-old girls about to have sex. And there you go everything is off. All clothes. And There I am having sex with her in her pink room on her pink and white striped comforter. 

   Before I know it Linsey is spreading my legs wide open and lays down on me. She puts her head down by my coochie. And shoves her tongue in it. Fuck I miss that too. That feeling was amazing. Softy and gentle but aggressive and hungry for more. 

   At this moment I'm just standing here watching this monster do me. 

   "Ahhhhh Linsey faster" myself in this memory screams. That's when Linsey moves her mouth and tongue all the way up my body licking me. She then pressed herself against me more. And starts fingering me.  "AHHHHHHHHHYHH" I scream again. 

  That's when I woke up. Im sweating through my black Nivara shirt. Im still laying n the ground in my room but the room is now filled with boxes and a few things of mine. but its complicity and utterly dark outside the window. 

 

   I rummage through a box and grab a T swift shirt and put it on instead. I walk out of my room to the bathroom. 

  I look in the minor and see myself. A skinny white girl, with millions of freckles all over her cheeks and nose. And my sea blue eyes. I turn the sink on and put some cold water on my face. 

  

   "Fuck LInsey, fuck my life, fuck this home," I say to my reflection. 

  After the whole thing with Linsey, she started not talking to me. Then she said to her other friends from my old school that I tried to pin her down and rape her. That was the worst day of my life.  I went up to her the next day and asked about it and she said " Your nothing but a sick lesbo who raped me" she snickered. She then lowered her head to my ear and said " The sex you had with me was without permission and horrible", she then left and walked away. I ran home that day crying. That was the reason we moved this time. I was the reason. 

 

  I walk to my room and start to unpack. I grab my pillow and a blanket from the box. and make a makeshift bed.

   I lay down and open my phone. "ha 20 new snaps from people at my old school" 

  

   Whore

  Lesbo

     Bitch who rapes inisent girls.

  Those are just the worst. I open Spotify and turn my playlist on. The soft music from Taylor swift helps me sleep so I shut my eyes hoping for a different dream to appear.