I was enjoying a nice cup of tea in my room while reading a book when the door slammed open. I looked up and saw an enraged Heath. 

"You—!" I frowned, feeling offended that he suddenly barged into my room. What could be the reason for him getting so angry at me?

"What the hell did you tell Mary? She's been sending me creepy letters about a date?! And she said that it's thanks to you?"

Oh.

I looked away from him. "I don't know what you're talking about." Heath laughed humorlessly. "Oh, you don't huh?" He had a piece of paper in his hand which he lifted. 

'Heathy, I hope to spend a lovely afternoon with you soon. You shouldn't be so shy and ask your little brother to tell me. Just say it in person. Don't miss me too much.

Kisses and hugs, your future wife.' 

My skin crawled at the last sentence. How delusional does a girl have to be to write that? Heath tore the letter into pieces and stomped on it, as though it'd help. My lip twitched. 

"I merely wanted to tease her. I didn't know she'd take it seriously." 

"Don't you know her very well though? Shouldn't you know this would be her reaction?" Damn, he was right. I frowned.

"You kinda deserve it." Heath had a look of despair. 

"I deserve this?" I began feeling just a bit guilty. 

"Okay no, I might've gotten too far." Heath approached me and gave me a scary look. "Great, then how about you explain it to her?" 

I furiously shook my head. I liked living, thanks. Heath chuckled. "What made you think you had a choice?" And then he put his arm around my neck. My eyes grew wide.

"Hey, isn't this a bit nostalgic? You're gonna get the truth out of me again?" Heath snorted. 

"Shut up." And he began tickling me. I didn't react well and hit my knee on the table, wincing in pain. But the tickling got more intense and I burst into fits of giggles. I gave in after five seconds. Heath had a smug look on his face. 

"Good. Make that letter while I watch." 

I began writing a letter to Mary, explaining the situation about how everything was my fault for lying and causing a misunderstanding. Heath looked happy with the result. I exclaimed; "I forgot to write my name at the end." Heath didn't doubt me and handed the letter back. 

I turned the letter and wrote: 'P.S Heath said he wished he could muster up the courage to ask you out. Maybe you should make the first move?' Snickering, I returned the paper to Heath. He gave me a wary glance but soon returned to his room. 

Feeling exhausted, I left the chair and collapsed on my bed. I yawned loudly. It felt like I was forgetting something...

I fell asleep, hugging one of my pillows, with a bit of drool on my cheek. I was rudely awoken by my door slamming open. I raised my head to see who dares interrupt my sleep and saw Peri at the door frame. I opened my mouth and paused. The look in her eyes made me nervous. What had happened?

"Please come with me, your highness." She quickly rushed me out of bed, not allowing me to change, and we headed to the great hall. The moment I entered the room, there was tension. 

Everyone was already there, I was the last one because of how far my bedroom lay. My father looked at me and then turned to his attendants. "Close the door. Everyone who's needed is here."

The large doors were closed and I felt the tension become thicker. What had happened? Why did everyone have a grim expression on? Even the Queen and Crille looked worse for wear, staring down at the ground. Heath's face was blank while Wei had a hand over his face.

Was I the only one who didn't know?

"Yesterday... The royal family of Tenn was assassinated." My heart dropped. Yesterday? How was this even possible? This wasn't supposed to happen, not until I began school. So why did this happen two years earlier? My face grew pale. Did my involvement do this? Have I already ruined this story?

"Only the 1st Prince and the Crown Princess survived. The 1st Prince had been kidnapped but was thankfully unharmed. He was examined as well and there was no trace of magic, spells or curses on him." I closed my eyes. This felt like a dream. Unreal. And I wanted to wake up and go back to how my life used to be. 

The King paused in talking. "From today onwards, you'll be assigned a personal guard who'll follow you everywhere." Even with the protection of the elder trees, the king wasn't risking it. While there were guards all over the castle, none of the royal family needed it as the castle was as safe as can be.

But not anymore. Tenn was a nation that could easily compete with Urel. They were allies who'd helped one another through thick and thin. And when it came to defense and protection? Tenn won that battle with a landslide.

But somehow that same country had its rulers killed from underneath its nose. And it was unlikely that the killer would be found. The only choice we had was to tremble in fear and hope that they'd pick someone else. The King continued to speak but I was unable to listen. 

My breathing grew quicker as my heart hammered in my chest. My eyes were wide and I felt faint. I felt like someone who'd been caught with murder. Holding the bloody knife right as someone spotted me and screamed for help. Even though I hadn't killed them, even though they were fated to die, this was my fault.

I had underestimated this world. I'd been playing on easy mode this whole time, thinking the game only started once I began at school. But I was naive, foolish. The game started the moment I woke up. 

And my choices, my mistakes, and my decisions had caught up to me. 

I couldn't take it anymore. I turned and ran towards the doors. I heard the King pause and felt the gazes on me, but my head was throbbing and I felt worse by the second. I needed fresh air. Maybe it would make my thoughts clearer. But also make my suspicion and guilt unavoidable.

I had to face it. My hands shook and I leaned against a wall for support. I slumped to the ground, feeling tired. But I couldn't seem to fall asleep as my thoughts haunted me. I looked out of the nearest window, at the large moon that seemed to fill the entire sky. How did Ru feel about this? Was he going to kill me? And would I fight back?

That day had taught me something important. Unlike the heroine, my actions had consequences. And by helping Ru earlier than usual, his family died early too. I put a hand on my face. 

I wish I could return in time. I wish I'd visited Ru and tried to get to know him. I wish...

I wish this world had a reset button.