14-First couple fight
Nick's pov
It's been a few days and we're almost done with a full week of school since I started dating Ezra. It's a lot harder than I thought but I don't really regret it despite the guys being their usual jerks towards Ezra. If yesterday wasn't a proof of the jerks they are I don't know what it is no more.
Regardless, I'm actually happier than ever. At least when the guys annoy me, I have Ezra to go to after school.
Other than that, dating in secret is hard. So far, I've done a good job at hiding it from the guys but I don't know if I'll be able to hide it for long.
They still think I'm dating Taylor even more now that I'm closer to her because most of the week she was the only girl among us. She really is shy and fragile. I knew I had to protect her from those guys teasing.
Besides that, it's one thing not being able to tell anyone but acting like I don't even like Ezra as if he's a stranger too, is way too much. I can take the fact I can't tell no one but I can't talk to him at all? That's crazy.
Regardless, I already accepted that I can't do anything about it even if I wish I could.
So that makes it that my only option is to see Ezra after school every day, without anyone knowing.
I park my car in the garage and head inside the house. I get in and I come across a guy I don't know. Who is he? Felix's friend? No impossible. Allyson's friend? No, he looks way younger.
I get into the living room. I notice Allyson and Felix there too.
"Hey," They all notice me but Allyson in particular smiles brightly at me.
"Nickolas! We were just waiting for you!"
"What? Who's this guy?"
Upon hearing that he glares at me. Damn, that guy doesn't really seem friendly. How does Allyson know him...?
"Remember when you said to bring my boyfriend over and I promised you I would when he wouldn't be busy?" Oh no does this mean...
"I'm Jonathan, Allyson's boyfriend." The guy says nonchalantly.
What? Huh? He seems so younger than Allyson. Freshman at best and he doesn't seem really thrilled to say that too.
He has light brown hair not in a typical haircut, just fluffy and all over the place. I think he also has green eyes. I can't see clearly behind his glasses. He's quite tall for what I think he's a freshman, I believe 5.10 ft but he still looks young so...
Anyways I'm mad at Allyson right now. Don't have time to fuss over the looks of her so-called boyfriend.
"So that's your boyfriend?!"
"Yeah and? What do you think of him?"
"He's a freshman! You can't go around dating freshmen! I know you like having fun but you can't go that far!"
"Don't worry, I'm smarter than her. It compensates everything." What? How the hell?
"Jonathan! Why are you saying that?!"
"What it's true? You're quite immature for someone older by two years."
The hell? Are they even dating or is this a whole joke? It doesn't seem like they are dating. Actually, Allyson awkwardly laughs.
"Sorry about that..he can be like that sometimes." She glares at that boy Jonathan so quickly, I can barely notice it.
"So can I leave now?"
"Why? I thought you wanted to be here!"
"Don't get me wrong. I was only interested in meeting your brother but that's already done so."
I'm in shock. He seems cold but he's a lot more like me than I thought. He's as threatening as me!
He looks at Felix and...Am I missing something?
"Oh come on! Don't be like that!"
That Jonathan guy looks brightly at Felix again and smiles! Smile! He hasn't done that yet! But why does it seem full of malice..?
"Fine, I'll stay." He winks at Felix and Felix is frozen on the spot confused about all this probably.
"Really?! You're really staying?!"
The moment I don't see Ezra, I have to deal with this? Gosh, I already hate the boyfriend of Ally...
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I thought everything was fine with Ezra and me but I guess the week had to end on a bad note or something.
We're not even in the second week of our relationship and I already have problems, new ones.
Relationships come with their loads of stuff but I didn't think we would have a problem this fast. Let's say the honeymoon phase is long gone.
It's not even about the secrecy of our relationship that bugs me no it's something dumb. Ever since this morning, I couldn't help but notice everyone that stares at Ezra and I don't like it.
I don't like girls and guys looking at him like he's a treat. He's mine but yeah even though he is I can't show it off. What doesn't help is that Ezra doesn't seem to mind at all. The attention doesn't bother him.
I hate that other people, rare are they approach Ezra. Every student that just says a word at Ezra bugs me. I know it's exaggerated but I can't help it. It makes me mad whenever I see it. I guess it's fair that I'm jealous but it's only starting to drive me mad.
I have no one to talk to about it and I'm not gonna talk about this with Ezra, he won't even listen to me.
Argh it's only been half a day and it bothers me so much. I don't know what to do about it.
Keeping my jealousy hidden from the gang is hard. Livia is back too. At least she isn't as annoying as before her trip.
That's besides it, I'm afraid I can't tolerate the fact I can't even talk to Ezra at school. I might do something I regret and I know it. It's only a matter of time before I do something I regret.
Just thinking about Ezra makes me want to call him. Yeah, I'll call him.
As I take my phone and type Ezra's phone number, I remember that I have to keep my calm. He can't know about my frustrations. It'll be hard to keep it for myself but I have to.
Nick: Morning
Ezra: Morning
Nick: Hey, I was thinking that since you like trying new stuff, I was wondering...if you would ever consider getting a tattoo?
Oh, crap...I was so close to spilling my frustrations. Thank goodness, I said something else even if it's random. I guess I have a word vomit case now.
Ezra: Um random? I mean yeah I guess I have considered this before but yeah I haven't gotten tats yet. I want to wait till I go to University.
Nick: Why wait? Is it because your parents don't want you to get a tattoo?
Ezra: No, it's not that. I just think it's better to do it after high school. I'm still 17 you know?
Nick: Hmm, I'm surprised you actually want to wait out for it. You're always up for a challenge usually.
Ezra: Guess I'm not always up to a challenge.
Nick: Sure...
Ezra: I have to get prepared to go to school so...
Nick: Yeah do that. Bye
Ezra: Bye
What a relief. I got away with it. That was one weird conversation I didn't think I had that in me to make it happen. At least I didn't let out my frustration.
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And I was right on what I said earlier. I was about to stop a guy from talking to Ezra but out of nowhere, my brother Felix stopped me from doing so. Why the hell is he doing this? He never interacts with me at school.
"What were you trying to do?"
"Why are you here?"
"Stopping you from ruining your chances of getting with Ezra."
"Seriously? How'd you know that?"
"You're jealous like crazy. Normally, I can't easily tell your mood but it was written all over your face."
"Really?"
"Yes really. So what were you going to do back there?"
"I...I hate it when other people talk to him."
"Ok, jealous, I get that. What else?"
"What do you mean what else?"
"Whatever, remember you told me Ezra doesn't like being protected?"
"Yeah and?"
"You were about to destroy that. Ezra probably doesn't want you to act like a hero and block him from talking with who he wants. By the way, I'd say if you were to do that you're for sure losing points."
"Look you don't know anything," I say kinda harshly.
"Woah, why are you being defensive all of a sudden?"
I think it through and I decide to tell my biggest secret right now.
I come closer to Felix and whisper in his ear. He's confused about the action, of course, he is.
"I'm dating Ezra."
"No way!"
"Shh"
"Sorry, sorry, how long?"
"Eh, it's been a few days."
"Wow..and you didn't care to tell me. You two are really secretive, not really like you two to do that."
"You know why." I glare at him.
"Yeah, I know. Oh gosh, I can't believe this."
"Me neither"
"You own me I swear."
"Why?"
"I helped you get him to remember?" I roll my eyes at that.
"Oh yeah.." What could he possibly want in return?
"What do you want?"
"Let me sleep on it tonight and I'll tell you?"
I don't get the chance to answer back as suddenly someone comes right in front of us. Oh, damnit it's...
"Hey, I've been looking for you everywhere. Who's this dude here?"
"That's Felix, my brother." Felix looks at said guy skeptically.
"That's your brother? A nerd? Really? I thought your brother would be better than that." And of course, this person is no other than Aaron. Felix glares at Aaron.
"Anyways, we have to get ready for the game soon." I almost forgot that geez.
"Yeah, I'll see you later Felix." I wave at him and I'm off with Aaron.
Gosh, I hope I'll be able to control my jealousy during the game because I know damn well Ezra is coming.
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Of course, we won! I know damn well I can't lose in front of Ezra. I noticed him during the game again. He isn't cheering for me loudly but I'm sure he wants to. He was looking at me all game long. I guess that attention felt kind of good.
Now the part that I like less. The changing room...The guys are already running to the changing room but I'm certainly am not doing that. I thought they would get in immediately but apparently, that's not in their plans.
"Hey did you see that your girl Taylor was cheering for you with her friends?"
Oh f**k, I didn't notice that. I was so busy looking at Ezra...
"What's the deal with you two?" Leo says.
"Yeah, you two have been awfully close," Dom says in return.
"You're for sure f**king her!" It's always Aaron that says huh? That's what makes my anger soar.
"I'm not f**king her stop saying nonsense."
"You still not dating her? Impossible you two are dating for sure. You look like a guy that keeps having a good f**k, dammit why can't I get to be f**ked good like you?" I resist the urge to punch Aaron.
"Woah, Nick! Why are you so mad so suddenly? Does that mean it's true?" Leo mocks.
"Yeah, you're f**king her for sure!"
"Stop getting excited about it."
"Excited about what?" Dom says.
"Come on tell us! Don't be shy!"
"You're a thing with Taylor or not?"
They continue pushing me to say something. Sh*t, what should I do? They just don't beleive me. Should I lie and say I'm dating Taylor even though it's not true? If I do that she wouldn't know a single thing and it wouldn't be fair. Or should I just say I broke up with her? I guess I choose the latter.
"We broke up ok? Stop asking me about it."
"What?! You guys dated but now you two are exes?!"
"But you two don't look like you just got through a breakup." Myung points out. Even he doesn't believe me?
"I swear we are just friends now. That's why we're still close."
"How long did you two been a thing?!" Leo asks.
"A few weeks." I invent.
"What?! And you never told us?! How did you manage to hide that?!"
"We broke up a week ago over spring break. Things weren't working out so we decided to remain as friends."
"How is that still possible?!"
"You sure you're telling the truth, Breckner?" Seriously does Dominic have to use my last name?
"Yeah, I am."
"Damn, why didn't you tell us about it?"
"I didn't want to bother you guys, since back then Aaron just got through a breakup."
"Oh yeah, that makes sense," Leo says. Dominic is still looking at me coldly. He isn't buying my lie, is he?
"But...why did you look happy those last few days?" Argh, did Leo seriously have to catch that?
"Yeah, why?"
"It's nothing important really."
"Hmm, sure."
They get in the shower and as usual, they go fast for fear that the coach will lock down the changing room. Can't believe they still believe that.
As soon as they get off, they dress up and they are out. Then I take my shower and make it fast. In less than 5 minutes I'm out of there.
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I walk around the school a few times to kill time. Then the guys finally leave. Normally, I would've texted Ezra by now I didn't.
I'm too mad right now for that. Remembering all those guys and girls ogling and too close to him makes my blood boil! Why am I remembering this right now right after the game? I just want to confront him...
I walk till I can find Ezra. I notice him already waiting outside with a smile on his face. He won't have that smirk for long.
I approach him and then I'm in front of him.
"Hey"
"Don't you hey me."
"Woah, someone is a bit narky. Didn't you win?"
"Yeah, I'm in a bad mood because of you!" His smirk drops.
"What? What did I do?"
"Argh, you don't know?"
"No, why?"
"Your clothes. Stop wearing those kinds of clothes! It's provocative! I hate all the eyes that look at you!"
"Who are you to say that? I'm allowed to wear the clothes I want. I'll do want I want with my body and wear what I want. You are no one to tell me that."
"I don't care! Get rid of those clothes!"
"What?! Bloody hell what's your problem?!"
"My problem are you talking with people!"
"Now people too?! You can't control me!"
"Get in the car."
"Fine"
If I thought our disagreement would end here it surely doesn't once we get in my car. It only gets picked up from where we left off.
"I don't know what's your problem right now! But you don't get to decide anything for me!"
"You leave me no choice! You keep twirling around with your sexy clothes as if you're a girl and stealing everyone's attention! You think that's normal?!"
I still haven't started the car yet because I'm too furious to start it.
"And you keep showing off with Taylor! You think that's fair?!"
"Oh, you don't get to bring Taylor into this! Nothing is going on with her! We are only friends! Why does everyone keep thinking that?!"
"Oh yeah then if you want to block me from talking to other people, stop talking to her."
"Come on Ezra! There's nothing between Taylor and us!"
"Then why did you kiss her at the party last month?!"
"To get back at you!"
"As if that would have worked." He says in an annoyed tone.
"Oh, yeah? Well, guess what she knows I'm gay thanks to that night!"
"Oh, so now you're not ashamed of being gay?"
"I never was once ashamed of being gay!"
"I don't care, her being you're little daft friend doesn't give you the right to be that close to her! Taylor still likes you!"
"She is moving on from me!"
"I don't f**king care! If you're going to be a jealous bastard over who I talk to then I guess I can be too."
He crosses his arms. Oh, so he's being a diva now?
"You don't get to control that!"
"Then, if you don't want that, stop pretending I don't exist!"
"Oh, so this whole secret thing really does bother you after all?!"
"Yeah and what'd you gonna do about it? You're suddenly gonna go public, 'cause I think the f**k not.
"Then get out!"
"No! I won't!"
"So all this time you've been faking it right? You can't even be honest. You hate every single thing about me, do you? You don't even like me do you?"
It seems like that ends the argument. He doesn't answer and instead opts for silence. I really hope what I said ain't true. His silence actually says a lot and it worries me.
I start up the car and end up driving to a silent car. Gosh, things are tense between us. I really hope he'll forgive me for that...
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