*The new edited and reformed version*
The bully needs some love final part
Length: 3 episodes
Ethan's pov
After nearly having a heart attack and freaking out some more, I finally push him away.
"Are you crazy?!" He looks at me clearly not expecting that.
"Well, I guess I am."
"Why did you kiss me?! Boys don't kiss each other! Especially not those who don't like each other!"
"Who says boys aren't allowed to do that?"
"No one but.."
"So you think it's wrong.."
"Of course it is! You..you suddenly kiss me without any reason or warning! I...I have a girlfriend too!"
"Break up with her." He says sharply.
"What?"
"Break up with her. You don't like her." He says harshly. What?!
"Who are you to say that, huh?!"
"Someone who...likes you..." My eyes go wide in shock. I nearly choke at what I just heard. What?!!?
"What do you mean someone who likes you?!"
"Are you dumb are what?!" He says frustrated.
"It's not that! It doesn't make any sense..."
"Yes, it does. I like you."
"I guess you do like me as a friend I suppose." I try to say to convince myself. Suddenly, he looks at me deadpan serious.
"No...Ethan...I've realized lately that...I like you...as in I want to kiss you again." I look at him shocked but with burning cheeks.
"Malix...I...I...You're gay?!" He looks at me plainly as if I were dumb.
"Yes, I am. I'm surprised you only caught on now." He says harshly.
"Impossible!"
"You sure it's impossible when I literally kissed you?"
"Stop mentioning that!"
"So you're ashamed..." He says disappointed.
"No, but...!"
"But...wait, you're not ashamed?" He asks confused.
"Argh, this is all so confusing!! You came to finish the project not for that!"
"It's true but I want to finish what I started." He smirks.
"Argh stop it!" I punch him on his hard chest and he only laughs in return.
"Seriously though did you ever knowledge the fact I was gay?"
"No...I never thought.."
"I guess you know now." He smiles.
"What is that supposed to mean..?"
"Well, you have a reason to tease me now right?" He says unsureness at its point.
"No...Why would I tease you for that?" I say confused.
"Because you've always made fun of every aspect of me." I guess he's right on that...
"Oh..."
"So, are we gonna do the project instead?" He tries to change the subject.
"Yeah..." I awkwardly say.
And we finally work on it despite the...um...I don't know if I was imagining it but sexual tension and awkwardness too.
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After working on it hard enough, we finally finished the project and we'll present it next week, on Monday preferably. It's time for him to go but suddenly I don't want him to go.
"Don't go..."
"What was that?" He smiles.
"I want you to stay," I say growing bolder.
"Oh? On a Friday? Is that an invitation?" My cheeks go warm again.
"Oh, don't think like that. I'm not gay unlike you."
"Don't worry I won't touch your little straight heart." He smirks.
"Ugh...Just...take it as a celebration for the end of our project."
"A celebration? You're contradicting yourself, Ethan." He smirks.
"Stop twisting my words!"
"Sure, so what kind of celebration are we doing?"
"First of all let me get some food. We need those and for the rest, we'll see..."
"Oh? Well, I can't wait for that then." He smiles and I just get red as a tomato.
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Somehow I don't feel guilty...guilty for what I've done nor regret...
Last night definitely wasn't what I was thinking nor was I planning. I'm still embarrassed and still in disbelief it happened.
If a thought a kiss was a big deal then last night was nothing!
I don't know what happened but I grew bolder and bolder...and we...we went it at it.
We...hooked up twice...twice! I had sex with a guy! I got into my...and I got it into his...Crap, what is that supposed to mean?! Did I like it?! Am I gay?! Why did I do it with Malix of all people!? I have a girlfriend too! Ugh, this is such a mess.
Fortunately, he's still tangled up with me in my bed still sound asleep and then there's me busy having my thoughts run 1000 kilometres per second.
I'm going crazy! I can't believe I let last night happen. He turned me gay! Argh, what should I do?! I'm screwed!
"Stop thinking so much..."
"Eh?"
"You slapped me on my arm."
"I did that?"
"Yeah...Don't worry about everything..."
"But I have to! You turned me gay!"
"Ugh, why are we having this conversation early in the morning? Anyways first it foremost, I didn't turn you gay, you did all that by yourself."
"Really...huh, what?!"
"I don't know what you want but I guess you're thinking about your girlfriend right?" He says disappointed.
"Yeah...I cheated on her..."
"Think about...why you did that last night. Did it feel right? Did it feel...wrong? What about when you do it with her?"
"Last night felt...right...I don't know why...I...I don't regret it." He smiles.
"Well, it felt right for me too." He still smiles tiredly and then he gives me a quick peck on my nose.
"Hey!" He chuckles.
"I couldn't help it. You're too cute. So later on, think about your girlfriend but right now can we cherish the moment?"
"No...Does this mean I'm gay...?"
"Not necessarily but all you know is that you liked having it with a guy." He smiles as I'm sure he recalls last night.
"But I'm still dating Peyton...what does it all mean."
"I can't really help you on that Ethan, you brought that upon yourself. I won't say cheating is right but if you say last night felt right with me..." He blushes. Omg! He blushed!
"I still can't believe I did it with a guy..."
"I'm surprised it was you too."
"Really..?"
"I mean we always hated each other and I wasn't your biggest fan but now I'm in your bed naked with you..." My cheeks become quickly in flames.
"Stop...reminding me that we..." I say a blushy mess.
"Yes, I get it. You're still confused and I get it."
"If...if...I don't break up with...Peyton....what happens to us?"
"We'll forget this ever happened." I don't like the thought of that...
"Then...If...if...I break up with Peyton...What about you?"
"What about me? It's up to you. Do you want to go back to how you treated me all those years or...you want this again?" I can tell which one he wants me to pick.
He suddenly flexes his biceps and his chest under the covers. I still see them through. I blush.
"I...I guess I don't...actually mind it...I never thought...I'd like..." I put one of my hands on the top of his chest and skeeze his skin.
"This build chest. Always thought I liked less built people with breasts."
"Well, I guess you don't now." He smiles.
"Anyways...I'm really confused right now...Less so than yesterday but still confused."
"I guess I'm a bit puzzled too."
"Really?"
"I didn't actually plan last night because I thought it would've been impossible but now that it happened..."
"Yeah..." I say awkwardly.
"I won't lie and say I didn't like it. I definitely enjoyed last night." He says surprising me.
"Yeah...me too." He gets surprised by that and honestly, I am too.
"Awe, you admit it now?" He smiles brightly.
"Oh, stop teasing me! I'll lose control over you again!"
"Well...I wouldn't mind that." He smirks.
"Malix!"
I throw hit after hit on his solid chest. He doesn't resist and laughs. Ugh, why is he having fun over this and why does he have to be stronger than me?
He smiles.
Then a thought comes to mind. My family! They can't see that.
"My family! They can't see us like that!"
"They won't mind I slept here huh?"
"Not because you're a boy but don't tell them about that!"
"I won't I promise."
"Thank you" I kiss and he smiles.
So, this is going to be common huh? So this is how it feels to be with a guy...A built guy at that and the same one I liked riling up.
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It's been a few days and I thought it over.
It's been really confusing trying to figure out but that night really clarified everything. It felt right. I didn't feel as guilty as I thought I'd be. Yes, maybe a bit for Peyton. Through it's unfortunate for her. She didn't deserve that.
Everything is getting less fuzzy and confusing. Malix let me think it over during the weekend and yesterday we did the presentation.
In a way, it feels like we no longer have a reason to stick together as we've done this past month but I still want next to me, for myself...
I can't really know whether I'm gay or not as that is a complicated thing and it takes longer to figure out.
I just know that I think I got a few things figured out. One of which, I'm about to clear out now.
I said to Peyton I wanted to talk to her. She has her doubts for sure but I hope it'll go well.
We go outside during break time.
"So, what do you have to tell me? It sounded pretty serious." She says concerned.
"Peyton...I have to break up with you..." Her face drops.
"What why? I thought everything was fine between us?"
"I think I like guys."
"That...doesn't mean you necessarily like them? It could mean you still like girls too."
"No, Peyton...I already like a guy."
"What?! And you're only telling me that now?!"
"I'm sorry...I just...finally got it all figured out."
"Wow...so all this time you were gay..."
"In my defence, I didn't know!"
"So who is it?"
"You promise you won't tell anyone?"
"I promise I won't. I'm not that cruel to tell it to everyone."
"Ok...it's...Malix."
"Malix?!" I panic.
"Shh...keep it low."
"Sorry, Malix? Wow...I never would've thought...I thought you didn't like him?"
"I thought so too..."
"Damn, everything is complicated with you."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Now it explains why you were so touchy all of a sudden and then the next you weren't. It was so confusing and then you couldn't get it up."
"I guess it is complicated..."
"It's pretty sh*tty of you. You didn't need to do all that you know?"
"Yeah...I know...It wasn't cool...I was confused and I didn't want to accept that...I'm gay."
"And now you accept it?"
"Yeah..."
"Ok, so what's the deal? Who knows?"
"Um, only you and Malix."
"Oh, so he knows? You cheated on me?"
"Peyton.."
"What I'm not mad per se. Sure it hurts but I want to know the truth at least. I guess the heart wants what it wants."
"True...Yeah, I did it this weekend."
"Wow...so it's pretty recent. At least you came clean to me. Do...you intend to tell the others?"
"Eventually, I still need to figure it out with him."
"Yeah..."
"Thanks, Peyton."
"It's fine. I...wish you good luck. I knew you didn't actually hate him!" She smiles while chuckling.
"Peyton..." I say in warning but still smiling.
"Yeah, yeah got it. I hope we'll stay friends."
"Yes, I hope so too."
And she leaves.
What a huge thing off my chest. It feels liberating but it still sucks I had to hurt Peyton like that. I'm lucky she accepted it and accepted me.
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Even though it feels like time has stopped because of my feelings, life continues and so does school.
After the whole ordeal with Malix, I entirely forgot my friend Rapahel. How? I don't know. I guess he wasn't on my mind really.
I managed to not talk to him this morning and find the excuse of spending time with Peyton which was a breakup, to avoid him.
I have to face him. He doesn't know about everything that has happened. He has been left in the dark.
I don't know how to react after everything. Do I pretend nothing happened?
Oh screw it, it's lunchtime I guess we'll see.
Despite having broken up with her just two hours ago, Peyton joins us. I guess we are still friends after all.
"Hey, Ethan it's been a long time since I last heard of you. Anything happened?" Too much happened.
"Nothing that important." I lie and Peyton gives me a knowing look.
We sit down at our usual table.
"Hmm, sure. I'm sure you spend all your time with Peyton." He smirks and I get anxious. I look at Peyton for help.
"Actually...we broke up..." I say worried and awkward.
"What?! You two broke up?! I thought everything was going fine?!" He says confused.
"That's what I thought too." Luckily, Peyton says that sarcastically.
"What happened? And wait how come you two are both together?" Raph says confused.
"Oh, come on, we don't hate each other. It wasn't a messy breakup, unlike your past breakups." Rach's mood instantly gets low. That was a hard blow...
"You didn't have to mention that. It has nothing to do with your breakup." He says harshly.
"Sorry, sorry. I forgot how much it affects you."
"Anyways...why did you two break up?" Peyton looks at me but I try to signal to not tell the truth.
"Well, it didn't work out."
"Didn't work out? You two were head over heels with each other." Yeah, I wasn't.
"Sometimes it happens Raph. It just doesn't work out."
"So, you two are friends now?"
"Yeah, we are..." I say uncomfortable.
"It's difficult to believe but if you two say so..."
They continue talking and I'm silent.
I don't even know if I'll ever be able to come clean to Raphael and tell him the truth. All I know is that saying I'm gay once is a lot and I'm not ready to say it again.
Before I can, I need to come clean with Malix.
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I bring up Malix in my room. The last time we were there is when it happened.
Today, I don't necessarily plan to make that happen again, I'm here...to come clean...To make it clear.
"So, I'm guessing there's a reason why you brought me here?"
"You must've heard the news I broke up with Peyton."
"Ok...and...?"
"I told her about us."
"You did?" He doesn't seem to believe me.
"Yeah, I did. She took it better than I thought. No one else knows."
"Wow...I didn't think you'd have the courage to do that..."
"Surprised?"
"Very" He smiles.
"So...I thought over and...I don't this to end."
"That as in...?" He asks curious and worried.
"Everything that has happened the past few weeks. I don't want to go back from before not after we did more than humanly possible." He smiles.
"Well, I'm glad to hear that."
"What about...you?"
"I guess I was afraid you'd want to go back or forget this happened."
"I wouldn't do that..."
"You totally would."
"Malix..." Even though it's really awkward I take his hands in mine.
"Yes?"
Ugh, why is looking at me with those angelic eyes when his huge physique contradicts that look? Why does a body full of mass doesn't work with an angelic look? That, I don't know.
"I think...no, I've fallen in love with you." He stares at me with those green eyes...
"Then, I love...you too." I try to say confidently.
I close off the space between us and kiss him. Then, I stop before it goes too far.
"I'm still trying to figure everything out but I know that I want this as much as I think you do."
"I do want this."
"Great..."
"So, you still want to test the waters before jumping to a decision?"
"Yeah, I would like that." I smile.
"I guess the bully really needed some love huh?"
"Who are you to call me a bully?!"
"Well in a sense you were. I haven't fully forgiven you but just so you know I've forgiven you so much already that it won't stop me from wanting you." I blush.
"I guess you do have the right to be mad at me but for now let's test the waters."
"Yeah," He smiles.
In the end, we did it again and this time around it really confirmed I'm doing the right choice. I'm doing the right choice to get into this with Malix and I'm making a good choice by coming out to everyone.
In a sense, Malix was right. It doesn't excuse what I did but maybe I just wanted his attention all along because I am just a bully that needs some love.
The next story will be Manga lover.
Length: 3 episodes
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