Asahi Strolling At The Mall Alone.

Its been months or somewhere since my mother passed. But I will still continued living into this meaningless life.

  After school is out, I decided to walked to the mall to buy a book, a new book.

As I was walking inside, you can tell people are really despise this month, this month is the most hottest, the summer breeze, the summer sun light.

  Couples, family, even friends, all of them are deciding to go to the beach. But I don't care. As I was walking in different layout of the mall, I stumble some girls wearing a maid giving off flyers.

  But I just walked passed the restaurant, and suddenly I been approached by them.

"Excuse me sir do you want to eat inside, we will give a special service, and because its special month we will have a discount." The maid working there said to me. 

Well it have a discount, might as well get inside, to eat.

  "Then I take that offered." I said

"Followed me sir, I show you your own sit." And so I followed her.

  I sit in the chair, and she gave me the menu. "Call someone if your ready to order." And so she leave.

I was looking at the menu, and I decided, to order.

  I called someone, and so a familiar face arrived to take my order. And yes, its Shiina Hoshiro one of my classmate, known for being a gyaru of our school.

  She didn't realized its me, and so, she noticed, suddenly. "A-Asahi-kun." And so she smiled like she was scheming something.

  "Oh, Shiina-san." I said.

"Aree~ Asahi-chi is into maids." And so she sound like she teasing me.

  "Me? No, I just eat here, because it have discount, and I was lazy to walk around the mall, I just find this restaurant close by from where I am walking." I said.

"Hmm, then what do you liked Asahi-chi." She said to me. 

This is the first time, I been called using different honorific.

  "One Omelet rice." I said to her.

"Haii~ Coming right up!" And so she leaves me.

And so, I opened my new book that I bought earlier, I read it. A few minutes have passed Shiina arrived with my food.

And so she put it down in my table, she sit in the other chair facing me.

"Something wrong?" I asked her.

  "Well I'm in break right now." She said to me.

And so I eat my food, as for a minute she was looking at me with her knuckles in her right cheek and her hands are resting in the table while her legs are crossed below the table, and she looks bored, I am done eating, suddenly she asked me.

"You looked bored in your life, do you have any motivation?" She asked me.

  "I have one, is to keep living as a human being." I said to her.

She gave me a confused looks. "What a boring ass answer. So you are really bored, then.." And so, she said something, that every guys want from a girl.

"Then if you are bored, and hard to find a motivation, how 'bout I become your girlfriend and make you feel something new in your daily life." She said to me, and smiling.

  "Ha? So you want me to be your boyfriend, just to waste time?" I asked her.

"No pretend." She said to me.

  "What the hell are you talking about, quit making love as a play thing, love is a serious stuff." I said to her.

  "Don't tell me, you have a girlfriend?!" She asked me, and shocked.

"No, I don't have one." I said to her.

"Then, that's great! Let's pretend one, if your bored, and I am bored let's pretend then." She said to me.

"No, I declined your offer." And so, I stand up to my chair to pay and leave.

Suddenly she stand up too, and said. "Wait for me, let's walk for a bit outside."

And so, were now walking in the street while its snowing.

Therefore I strike a conversation.

I asked her "What's the real reason why you asked me about this?" 

  She sound depressed and down at the same time, she let out a sigh. "Ha~ Well my boyfriend left me, he cheated on me, I asked you to be my boyfriend, so I can forget him." She said to me.

"I see, well I am not applying for that job anymore." I said

And so, she laughed about what I have said, and so she become serious and said this. "But I just want to be happy."

"Happy?" I asked her.

  And suddenly as she said this she looks proud, and I know she is not the women like what she said. "Having a lot of man."

"Ah, I see, but you know. We must be happy even, if were in pain, we must change the pain into happiness." I said to her.

  "So the rumors are truth about you being weird, maybe the weird means your an masochist." She said to me.

"Rumors? I didn't know I am in my peak of popularity? And I am not an masochist, why you come into that conclusion?" I asked.

  "You said, turn pain into happiness. I know only masochist enjoy the pain." She said to me.

"You misunderstood me, I didn't said, turn pain into pleasure. I am saying turn in into an optimistic point of view." I said to her

  And so she laughed at me, and so we walked and separated at the end.

And so, Me and Shiina become friends.

I arrived home, and carry my daily basis.

I will say again. We must be happy even, if were in pain, we must change the pain into happiness.

   We must think of an hell to an paradise, we must think of hatred, as love, we must think of coldness, into warmth, we must think of gloominess, as happiness, we must think of hard ways, into easy ways, we must not think failure is, a failure, but an experience to learn, we must not think life is meaningless, but an meaningless and absurd, in a fun ways, we must think of our weakness, as our strength. But not in a sexual way, in a philosophical way. Like Albert Camus said, 'One must imagine Sisyphus happy.'

  But I know this theory I have, will change in near future, maybe don't know what god will happen in the future.