I remember it all. Every detail. I've seen it all. You ask me, and I name it. Sometimes I wonder if I've seen too much, perhaps something I was not meant to see. I can't be sure. There were times where I wondered, "When will this end!" and then others where I said "I hope this never ends" and of course the moments when I thought nothing at all. Utter silence. I'm still waiting for the end of it all. For the final light to go out, and for it all to start over. Maybe soon. I can't be sure though, because I just watch and don't know. I don't know most of what I've seen. I just float, from place to place, in an endless void. The void of space, where everything and nothing exists. The darkest darkness and the brightest light. The longest and the shortest of events. I've seen it all.
If you asked me how old I was, well... I can't say. I don't quiet know. I've just always been. I'm no god, and I don't want to be one. I just observe and take notes really. I watch it all play out, the beautiful game of life. I watched it all happen, feeling so omnipresent yet being absolutely powerless to do anything. I've tried intervening before, it did nothing. I've walked and lived amongst you all. Doesn't matter the species, or look, I can match it perfectly. As I said, I just observe. Sure I ate, drank, slept, loved, hated, cried, and laughed, but other than that? I watched. I don't know my name...
My goodness, I don't know my own name! How ridiculous is that? Then again, I suppose that you can call me whatever you like, afterall, I've had so many names I don't think it matters which I use. Names are such a funny thing, they are so unique yet common. Everybody has one, and everybody thinks that their's is unique. I suppose it is though, it makes up who you are! You and your name are inseparable. I think that my time here, in reality has been quiet an interesting one. I've seen so much yet feel as if there is something missing.
I've seen just about everything happen, and I think that I should tell you the story now that your here. It all began in, well the beginning. Utter darkness, sheer nothingness, total depravity. Then, all of a sudden, everything! It was like an abrupt flash before my eyes as it all rushed passed me! I saw colours swimming and light dancing all around me. I saw pure energy rush everywhere, forming various things! It wasn't loud, it wasn't overwhelming. Okay, maybe a bit overwhelming but after the first million years it settled down. After that it was just, buzzing. A ceaseless buzzing of activity. Particles moving about, molecules jumping from place to place, and elemements being created in the cosmic forge.
This buzz did not last very long, after 400,000 years, there was darkness. This was quiet a long time without anything going on but it gave me time to think. I remember floating in darkness, with nothing but my own thoughts when I saw it. A small blip. Something blue. I looked again, there it was again! The small blip happened several times before it stablized, then another and another appeared. By this time nearly half a billion years had elapsed, quiet a large amount of time to do quiet a large amount of thinking. After a while, don't ask how long I lost count around here, there were an uncountable amount of these dots. I made my way to the closest one, it was a large ball of fire. I knew what it was, it's a strange thing with me because I just knew, it was a star. The first of many, mind you. I knew that this signified the beginning of something new, a sped up process which would create an entire universe for me to explore.
As I went from star to star, I saw formations. I touched them, they were solid and very cold. I knew they were asteroids. For fun I called them "Space rocks". As I watched, things began to happen very quickly. I saw round objects begin to take shape, the first few were solid but very hot and the other first few were not solid at all. I knew these were planets. As I observed their progress, I saw that the areas surrounding stars began to create repetative orbits where planets would run in a circle around the central star or stars. How boring, I'll bet they got really bored really quickly. I think I would. Anyway, now that the building blocks of everything were in place I had a whole universe to explore, a whole plane of existence to examine in order to satify my endless curiosity. Even though, I knew everything.
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