Yes, this was it, this was right!

Was it though? The little voice in my subconscious would echo back. It seemed even my thoughts had their total opposites. Afterall, if I was here to witness, to whom would I report? Who was my great equalizer? A deity? Another of myself? Or just... to myself? I can't be sure really because I don't know myself. I don't know my name, age, height, weight, or how I look. All I know is that I must observe and witness. That's it. My cosmic purpose is to love this universe and all of it's creation. I must be here to say, "I saw you!" to everything and everyone!

After a while of pondering this question over and over. Rolling it over, poking it before cutting it open with my mental knife for further questions. I found few which were answerable. I would need to wait. So I did. I waited... and waited... and waited some more. Before long I had waited so long that I saw changes. The sun from Ellaine's system was gone! In its place was a small, white orb. A white dwarf star. It looked like even the giants of this reality had fallen. I went back to Ellaines planet. It was gone, swallowed by the stars expansion. I went to the various settlements which had been scattered through the system. They were empty. Silent. The atmosphere was painful. I searched everywhere but there was nothing. Nobody walked the hallways, nobody sat at the benches, and nobody arrived or left. That feeling of lonliness I had felt during the total darkness between the start and now? It was back. Gripping my insides and twisting them into knots. I felt empty.

But wait! My purpose! I must remember it! It is part of me! Admittedly my only part but still I had to remember it. I had to love this universe and it's marvelous creations. Of course I would! So I went about looking at everything which Ellaines people had built, I read their books and despite already knowing what they had achieved I was blown away like a supernova at what they had done. Their cosmic footprint was small in reality but as big as the universe to me. This foot print was my Ellaine, her people had done this, they had lived and loved just as I should! Everything was so good, everything was perfect to me! Something can't be perfect in reality without it being a flaw, perfect is something which must be believed. It can't happen otherwise. 

I loved what Ellaines people had done. I marvel at what they did. Even though they were but a blip on the cosmic time scale, they were increadble. Astonishing. Awe inspiring. Breath taking. There are so many ways to put it, but what they did as individuals and as a people is just those words and more. I hope Ellaine can see this, to see what her people did and what she was part of. Perhaps she saw it, I can't say. 

As I said earlier, all good things must end, and so I watched as everything Ellaines people did turned to nothing. Physically at least. However it lives on, in the foot print left on my heart and mind. So now as I watch the universe end, I wonder if it will start over. If perhaps it's simply a process of reality. A process of things. A process of people. I know it is. Everything was just right and so, it happened. Ellaine happened. Stars are going out now all around me now, black holes eating everything in their way. It's an explosion of colour in some places and an empty void of nothingness in others. Some areas end with passion and energy while others pass on slowly and peacefully. I wonder what will happen to me after all is done. Will I go? Maybe. Perhaps not. It's a lonely process really, observing. It seems you can just watch as everything passes right in front of you while nothing seems to stay. The stars, they explode. The people, they go. The planets, they errode. The love for the universe? It stays, it is indestructable. 

Look, over there. That's the last star. It's dying. Soon it will go out and the curtain will close of the show of life. Perhaps soon, or later. Who can know. I can't. There it goes, it's gone. Wow it's dark, just like the beginning. Who knows what will happen now. I know I don't... do you?

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