The Absurdist Young Adult.

 At the university hallway. "Did you heard, Asahi-san won a debates toward Sensei?"

  "Did you heard, Asahi-san is nailing the exam, this past week, and I heard he was a scholar."

It's been months since, I am attending here, some stuff happened like debating my scary teacher towards, religion, and ideology, and nailing all the thesis.

To be honest, I am not a genius, being genius is quite problematic, I have enough problems just trying to be a human.

  This passed weeks, my merit started growing, I didn't realized this, once my essay won the contest about literature. But I didn't care at all. I didn't know if I am well known or not.

  At the Lecture Hall.

Our prof, just finished discussing Nietzsche work about religion, and the nihilism, and our prof made us do some essay about it short or long doesn't matter.

And so I started writing.

[So, life is nothing, there's no value, no core, nothing at all, no meaning, no god, no purpose, we are just a huge mistake made by a huge explosion. So what will happen to the world, or to us people who's living here? My answer are just simple, None. Nothing will happened, the world will not crumble or explode, what really happened we become aware from our own existence or towards reality, sure life is nothing and don't have any purpose, but this will not stop me, nor someone to lived. If the abyss is in front of me, I will just looked at it with my normal gazed, and walked away, and read my favorite books, and sip a cup of tea. I will not fall to that obvious pit, I will walked away, like nothing really happened. Life is nothing, but this will not stop me from rebelling towards this nothingness and meaningless. But to rebel, to known the limit within itself.]

  I finished writing my essay, and I passed mine, I am the first one to pass.

Our prof looked at me, and said to me. "As expected, always at first."

  I ignored him, and walked back to my sit. And I put my head down to rest at the table waiting for a class dismissal.

  A few minutes have passed, the bell rings, and so, all the student suddenly leave, but for me, I was just putting all of my things inside my bag.

  As I was about to leave my sit, someone approached me and said to me.

"Yo! Asahi-san, are you free right now?" He asked me.

  I replied to them. "Not really."

And suddenly he said. "Then, want to come to our mixer later?"

  Suddenly, I realized the reason why I been invited, its because they need a replacement to continue this mixer, the guy who declined maybe have some urge to attend. So they're here in front of me.

  I said to them. "Sure why not."

And so, we headed to the place they plan.

  We all sit beside each other, waiting for the girls to arrived. I can sense from them, that all of them are nervous or scared, but for me, I just been ask for replacement, not for the mixer, so I am just a guy here, without any goal.

  And so, five girls have arrived.

Suddenly the leader of this group called them. "Were here!"

And so, the girls sit in the other side facing us. Suddenly the atmosphere, become lively they begun to chat to each other, but for me I was just drinking my juice, and they're drinking alcohol a beer.

A few minutes have passed, I got bored of this blissful atmosphere, I pulled out my pack of cigarettes and lit one, suddenly all of them looked at me.

  Well, to begin with, when I turned 19 years old before, I decided to smoke a ton, well like I care what happen to me this near days, we can die in any moment, anytime. From sleeping we can die, from walking we can die, enjoying we can die, we can't escape the death. Like myself, I live as I was about to die today, tomorrow, or whenever.

All of them weird out, that a guy with a same age as them are smoking early, and a lot.

  I said to them. "Don't mind me smoking, just enjoyed talking to each others."

Suddenly, all the girls decided to go to the restroom.

And so, the guys, suddenly said. "Yosh, its time for our plan." And so, he put a drug into the girls drink.

  And so, the girls got back.

Therefore, I suddenly talked. "All of you girls, let me go straight to the answer." I said, with a serious tone of voice.

  "W-What's that?" One of the girls replied.

"Can I have sex with all of you?" I said with a straight face.

Suddenly one of the girls stand up, and throw a beer in my face, and other poured some beer in my head. "What a terrible guys!! Let's go girls!!" And so, they all left without drinking their beer.

  All of the guys are shocked for what I have done, they said to me. "A-Asahi-san, can you wait for the right time, you suddenly reveal our intention." He said to me.

And so, they all leave me alone, outside the place I was soaked with some beer.

  I lit some cigarette.

I inhale, and exhale it. As I was leaving the place, someone grab my coat to stop me, I looked behind me.

And its a girl. "I-I saw what the other guys trying to do, and I know you try to save those girls, here some towel." She gave me a towel.

  I grabbed the towel, and wiped my heads off. "Thank you."

Suddenly I noticed her. "Wait, your wearing Keio uniform, and your working here?" I saw her earlier inside she was wearing a waitress outfit.

  She nodded to me.

I asked her. "Wait, what department you in?"

  "I am in philosophy department, name Takao Nami." She said to me.

"Wait, I recognized you at the lecture hall, your the girl who made an essay about nihilistic optimistic." I said to her.

  "You remembered me." She said to me.

I replied to her. "Well yeah, because I found your essay that you reported in front of the class, are quite interesting to dive down."

  And so, were walking in the street talking to each other, and I was smoking while walking.

  It took us some minutes to separated, and all of those minute I spend from talking with Takao-san, I discovered, she sure quite an interesting girl. What make us different are when it comes to human kind she was optimistic, and when it comes to human condition she is optimistic too. But for me, when it comes to human kind I am pessimistic, but when it comes to human condition, I am a optimistic. And that what make us different towards each other, and towards other people.

  I finally arrived back to my apartment by my bike. This apartment looked like my apartment at Chiba when I was in high school.

  I walked inside my apartment, I have my own study table, filled with books and paper, I was writing on it. I found writing a novel or journal helps me forget killing my own self. So, this papers, and notes, all of this means that the time I want to kill myself, all of this maybe in 300 papers, and 50 notebook, so each notebook are filled, and the pages of the notebooks I was writing is 192 pages, so 50 notebook time 192 pages, and plus the papers 300. So 9900, so means in one month I am thinking about killing myself 9900 times.

  I sat on my chair at my study table, while the light stand is on, and I lit a cigarette, and put it to the ashtray. I was thinking, what will I do today.

  Suddenly my mind sparked up, I grab a empty book, and so I decided to write, a book.

I few hours have passed, my book is finished, I decided to make the title. 'How To Be Happy, In The World of Meaningless, And Absurd.' I called Miyuki-sensei, his the one who liked my first essay.

  I talked to him at my phone. "Sensei, do you remembered the time you asked me, if I will write again. I want to discussed something with you."

  He replied. "Then let's meet today at the nearest café near our university."

Right now he decided to meet him, at the café nearest our school. I grab my jacket, and I put the book in my bag, and I was walking with a lit cigarettes in my left lips.

  I arrived at the café he was talking about, I finished out my cigarettes, before I head in.

  As I was inside the café, sensei waving at me, and called me. "Asahi!"

And so, I headed to him. He said to me. "What's the reason you called me?"

First I sit down, and I grab my bag, and get the book I written earlier.

  Miyuki-sensei grabbed it, and begun to read it.

As he was reading it. "Mind if I smoke?"

"Sure why not." He replied.

And so, he was busy reading it, and I am busy smoking, and drinking a cup of tea.

A few hours have passed, he finished reading it. I asked him. "So? What do you think?"

  He lit a cigarette. "Its pretty interesting essay you made, so what do you want?"

And so, I said to him. "I want you to published this, and my first essay I made for the competition."

  "The essay you wrote before, called 'The Myth of The Walking Corpse.' You want to published this, and that essay too."

  "Yes, I am sure, this is the first time I feel interesting for something, and I am serious about my written skill, and my philosophy."

  And he asked me. "What is the reason why you want to publish this?"

I replied to him, with a serious tone. "Because, I want the people who are lost, or feel alienated to find happiness into this absurd world. I want them to find their own self. Not outside, but within themselves."

He think for a sec. "Then for a exchange, I will become your own publisher and editor. I found your works at first interesting, but before I know you will ignored it. But today looks like your determined, so then I will published this and the future works you will make."

  And so, Miyuki-sensei published it in the next morning, and this passed, weeks I been called in some news broadcasting. This is just an underated show.

  Right now, I am at their studio waiting for my cue.

A woman "Are you feel lost? Do you feel hopeless? Youths today are confused about what's the reason they here in this meaningless world. Said by a young Asahi Kuromi, a 20-years old."

  And so, I walked at the stage, and I sit at the couched.

A man "So, why did you concluded that youths, are lost in their own life, if they are chasing a big dream." He asked me.

  And I replied to them. "First: Where did your dream came from? Second: Is this related to your own passion? Third: Are you truth to yourself? Those three question, if youths didn't answer it, or have a vague answer, they're lost."

  The girl asked. "You mentioned in your book called, 'How To Be Happy, In The World of Meaningless, And Absurd.' That to be happy is to live, without looking for happiness, and still living like a human being. Can you explain this?"

And so, I explained. "First in most, to acquire something we want, we must suffer from getting it. Even if we want happiness, we will come some obstacle of thorns, so real happiness is to live right now, nothing more."

  And so, the guy suddenly said this to me. "So your telling me and the youths, to stop dreaming big, and making future, with this our society will fail."

  And so, this question made me think that they're antagonizing me.

"No, what I am trying to say, stop corrupting youths, with your immoral mindset that life its all about fortune, and being truth to yourself will not harm to anyone."

  And the girl asked me. "Of course, its all about money, how we will live without it."

  Therefore I said this to them. "Stop teaching youths, to follow a path not for them, but for your own satisfaction. If you become doctor, who have a good salaries. And if you continued following your own passion, and you will get that salaries in the end, at least in the end you like what your doing, and you know what your doing, because its your own passion. Again I will said this. I am not a bad guy, I am not a good guy, I am just a normal being and truth to myself."

  And so, the two of them failed to antagonized me. "Then let's wrapped this, thank you for being here Asahi Kuromi."

I smiled at them. "It's fun being here, maybe if I create a new book I will be here again. Okay young ones, don't listen to an adult who influencing you to follow fortune. Be truth to yourself, so in the end we are happy, and we don't need to pretend and put a white lies inside our mind and chest. Its better to live short and happy, than long and pretending." I said to pissed them off.

  And so, I leave the studio, I was waiting at the sidewalk but I lit a cigarettes.

Miyuki-sensei pick me up, with his car. He stop in front of me, he rolled his window. "HAHAHAHA! I watched your interview that's hilarious!"

  And so, I went inside, and I sat at the passenger.

I asked Miyuki-sensei as a joke. "How's my looks out there?"

He said to me. "You looked like a writer who have a lot of affair with women."

  And so, a few months have passed since my first interview, my book been selling good. I heard to the news, that the suicide rates for youths, lowered when my books been place, all over the bookstore here in Japan.

  As I was chilling at my place, I still living here, I was sitting at my study table, smoking, suddenly my phone rings, I don't know whose number is this.

I picked it up. And a man voice speak. "Is this Asahi Kuromi?"

I replied back. "Yes who's this?"

And so, he said to me. "It's Yoshita Natsumi."

  And yes, it's the vice president of this country I am living at.

  I didn't shocked about what he just said. "Do you need something vice president?"

And he replied. "Hehe, your a talented youngster, I read your books, and I saw the percentage of youths taking their life lowered when you first released this book, and other works you made, I want you to attend next week, awarding. I will the one will award you." He said to me.

  Therefore I inhale my cigarettes and said this. "Nah, I am good, thanks for the offered though."

  And so, I bring down the phone.