Jennifer
"Then did you feel like telling him 'If you are not too long,I will wait here for you All my life'."
[No!!!!! Didn't she go too far with that.]
"Ann, I think you are thinking way too far......I didn't even see his face.......nor I am sure that.....I will meet him again."
[Why does this........hurt?]
"Guess even Jennifer needs an 'all the best' for her love life."
"I told you it's.....not love.....not even least."
"Jennie, it's good to...hear you talk like that...you are cheerful today. I hope you will live like that from now on."
[....cheerfully.....was I not cheerful till now........I would say...I was........ahhhhhhh why is my mind a mess.]
I wanted to say something back to Ann but I couldn't say anything because I wasn't sure what was happening today. I dropped Ann off at her house and I went to my apartment.
From when I started modeling and all, I had to keep my distance from Ann, so I was living alone in this big apartment all by myself. I casually laid myself on the sofa.
[Why am I ......laying down on the sofa.....normally....shouldn't I be.....taking a shower now.]
"I have been...acting weird all day."
After minutes passed, I went and took some snacks for myself, closed the curtains, dimmed the lights, played music while checking my social media.
I went through whatever there was I had to check. People were singing praises of my beauty and work but.
"Why did his....'pretty' mean.......so much to me."
I was constantly thinking of everything that happened today. Nothing made sense. Everything was a question mark. Even 'I' was a question mark now that I was acting not like 'me'.
*singh*
"What Ann said is.....true maybe. He's...been on my mind all day. But ......... it's more like....... seducing than love."
I got up, finally going to take a bath. But that's when I noticed something. I got naked and stood in front of the mirror wondering to myself 'HOW?'
"How.....can my body change like this?"
I am an athlete but I had an inverted triangle body shape. At Least till yesterday it was. Now it's an hourglass shaped figure.
[This does not make sense anymore. Maybe Somthing'r really wrong...... hearing stuff....... acting not like.....yourself ..........this. ..... YES! yesterday when I woke up in the night...... it all started from then.....]
"But what...... is happening? *sigh* Should I go to the doctor....what will I say...... they will think....I have gone crazy or something........ It's good I didn't tell anyone about what's happening......... and I never will........... not even Ann."
I decided to check myself thoroughly. My body shape changed and just like what I thought, I was filled with strength enough to not get a scratch even if I am hit by a truck or bus.
Being an athlete runner, my legs were the most developed part of my body but now.
"How in the world........do I have such a fine developed forearm? And how do I have the sides of my abdominal muscles so well developed? Like.....I can get abs in less than a week."
[Even my back...... was a little better. But in all this, what surprised me most was.It can't be seen by eye but if you touched, you could feel well developed muscles under my skin. Every part of my body was well developed. It's just the forearms, legs, side abdominals and back were only noticeable by eye's.]
While I inspected my body, my hands always wandered to the left side of my abdominal area, tracing something with my fingertips.
"It feels.......empty. Somehow it's like..... something missing here."
At this point of the day, I wasn't surprised how weird I felt or how weird this was all.
I took a quick shower and got to bed.
"From driving a car, seeinng.......a cat.......than........poof.....memory loss...... waking up at your own bed....... hearing voices and all stuffs........ than a voice...... which made me feel....... nostalgic and........ even made me cry......... than a word 'preety'........ poof.......blank mind....... a mysterious guy...... who's voice........ was enough to seduce me........than this change of character.......... acting like........... huh...how did I acted before?"
I felt that I was acting weird but what was weird. I felt the same.
[Ann, she said something cheerful?]
That night I hoped to have a peaceful night even with having a weird day and all the things on my mind.
I dreamed that night, I was in a beautiful place, it was not on earth, a place of gold and yellow where the sky and ground looked identical and we met each other. That place was warm not for being warm, but for the reason for being with someone. I didn't see nor hear anything from him, he just stood beside me and that was all. I was experiencing nostalgia, warmth and love.
Then the place I was, changed and his presence was gone too. Now I was in the forest, a tropical one with tree's big enough to be taller than a 163 floor, tallest building. Vines were falling down from trees, some trees were bigger and not-knowing what flowers and fruits were growing in them. Tree trunks were not connected but they were stuffed together. It was a little dark because of the huge tree covering but from some spaces sunlight was passing down. It rained lightly, there were water drops dripping from a high looking like it could break my neck. On the ground, grass grew up to my waist, I heard thunder and lightning flashing and the next thing you know, fire balls were falling down. I stood there not even trying to run, invade or at least block or guard myself by getting behind the large rocks. I was feeling greatly excited and happy.
The place changed again, this time it was normal, a grassland with a comfortable looking house with a tower by it's left side in my back and in front of me was what it looked like a field where a battle, way too great took place but there was a spot in front of me I was staring at, a tree with bluish-purple petal flowers were blooming with reddish-brown leaves. Without knowing why, I was trying really hard to not break, to not start crying, all the pain and suffering I was feeling was way too overwhelming and I opened my eyes crying from those dreams.
"Was I........*sniff*.. dreaming........*sniff*..... what did I see....*sniff*...... make me cry *sniff* this is hard?"
I woke up feeling sorrowful from my dream but I didn't stop crying. I wasn't thinking straight anymore, just a mess.
[Why,Why! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY!! WHYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! Why am I crying........... so hard...... why is it......... so painful ...... why does it...]
"HURT.....SO MUCH!!"
I didn't know what's gotten into me, when I woke from the dream it was just tears falling out and my chest feeling tightened but it gradually overwhelmed me. I was crying for god-knows-why, I wasn't holding back anymore or more to, I wasn't able to hold back anymore. Crawling up, squeezing the pillow, tearing it apart without me noticing, my brutal strength even tore the mattress but I didn't stop crying. In the end I passed out crying.
Noah
It was the weekend, when we usually play shooting battleground games. I woke up early and got ready at the time but it's been 5mint from what was scheduled.
[I should call him. Knowing that he was never late.]
*ring*ring*ring*
<Hello>
"Dude! You okay, you are late for the game."
<not today.>
"Why? Did something happen?"
<I couldn't get a wink*yawn*.... slept last night."
"So, were you playing all night then?"
<No, I had weird dreams and I opened eyes again and again, maybe something close to 3 times in an hour.>
[3 times in an hour.............. doesn't that mean..... he never slept?]
"Step, didn't mom give you sleeping pills, did you take that?"
.........
"Steph, did you hear me?"
......
[He's...... sleeping now....... on the call.]
*Laughing*
[I know I shouldn't laugh at this but, I can't stop laughing.]
*beep*
I decided to let him sleep. I'm not sure what's happening to him. He joked and talked about all the shit's everytime but yesterday he's busy running his brain's horse wild. He's not even interested in what's happening but, is this because of his late boom of chunibyo.
[That guy is.......crazy.]
I knew steph for years, and I knew this was not a joke or him being chunibyo it's just me hoping that things are normal. Deep inside me I knew there was more to it than I thought and I knew even stefan didn't tell everything, what's happening to him but I was just hoping that everything is just him being a chunibyo.
Jennifer
*ring*ring*ring*
"Hhh he....ahhh...he..llo"
[Aaaa........it hurts. I can't speak now. My voice also.........sounds like a horse.]
<ummm.....are you okay, ma'am. I called you to ask were you going to be late for shoot but you sound like that. Are you....okay.>
"Ummmm.... so....souuryyyyy.....aa aaa sorry... I..... down't... don't.... thugkh.... thin-"
<It's fine Ma'am. I don't think you are fine should I send a doctor to your resident's or some medicine. And we will hold on to the shooting until you get well soon ma'am .>
[So nice of him, I guess I will buy them dinner later.]
"Thag....thanks."
*beep*
"Aaa ........ aaaaaaa.... yyyy..hh...aaaa"
[Guess I can't talk today. But....why did I....... cry... so much. Last time was........... when my .........parents......]
*sigh*
[What in the heavens is wrong with me.]
Noah
It's noon, so I decided to visit steph. I went to his house, found him sleeping on his bed on his chest, shirtless.
"HOLY.....shit!!!"
[The hell......his back is so defined. Every single line could be seen, he is't bulk but this........how on earth..]
"Hey steph, wake up. Rise and shine bud. I brought some french fries and some burgers for you."
*yawn*
I placed the food on his computer table, waiting for him to get up, putting on his shirt, with closed eyes. I chewed mine share of fries.
"Pass me that."
"Here"
"Not the fries, the lenses.......... on the table."
[............. lenses?]
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