Note: This chapter is in Cassians pov I searched around the bedroom as fast as possible. It had to be somewhere. There needed to be something? Or was it too early? Was it really my fault? Of course it was my fault.

I dropped to my knees and looked under Leos bed, no boxes, no guns, nothing. 

Fuck, I was so stupid. Why couldn’t I have just stayed out of things?

I stood, turning around and ran up to the nearest window, my heartbeat thudding in my head, anger and self hatred preventing me from registering my actions. Pain enveloped my entire body as I put my arm through the glass, the glass had disappeared as soon as it had entered the black void, I instantly pulled back. My throat had started to hurt. Or had it been hurting before? There was a distant screaming. Or was it my own? I hit the floor, my vision blurring, I turned my head to see why I was in so much pain. Half of my arm was gone, completely vanished, I felt sick, red was slowly crawling across the carpet. There was so much blood, on the wall, my clothes. My mouth opened, another scream, or vomit? I have no idea. My face felt wet... Most likley from tears.

I heard a distant thudding, or was that my head?

There were distant voices, or was that my thoughts?

I felt my neck suddenly pull back and the world darkened.