Ayan Pov 

“I want to mate.”

You want to what?” my mate said with a raised brow. 

“I want,” I said slowly, over-pronouncing each word. “To have sex with you.” 

“I want us to complete the bond. I think we're ready.” So I continued working hard to make my case. 

I’m not sure if it was working by the look on my mate’s face. “You're not just saying this because you want me to touch you again?” 

“I put a hand to my chest, slightly offended. “Just because I like to squeeze my newly, not so newly discovered ass muscles on your fingers doesn't mean I'm not serious.” 

I was trying to make a joke at the end. But, unfortunately, my joke wasn’t met with laughter. 

“I feel we’re ready.” I tried again. 

“There's a lot more that goes into it than your “feeling” ready bunny.” 

“But it does,” I argued back. “The first step is feeling ready. Are you saying your not?” 

I stared head-on, a challenge now in my glaze. 

“That’s not what I’m saying.” Aithne stares right back. “Do not twist my words.” 

"Then what are you saying?” I snapped. “What? That I’m not?!’

“Watch your tone.” Aithne's voice dropped. Fire blazing in her eyes.

I took a deep breath. “What are you saying?” my voice was softer this time. 

 I didn’t want to fight with my mate, but I was tired of the pushback. I wasn’t born human, and how everything was done at a slower pace. I don’t need slower. I need the opposite.  

“Thank you,” Aithne muttered. She took a deep breath and grabbed my hands. 

“Is this something you truly want? Because you have to understand once we do this, there is no going back. Once we mate. We’re mated.” 

Hope bloomed in my chest. I stared into her eyes to make sure my hope wasn’t misplaced. There was a hint of caution but certainly.

“I was sure when you jumped off a cliff to save me.” my eyes filled. “I was sure when I first saw your golden brown eyes for the first time.”

“I-”

“Let me talk, please,” I spoke before my mate could. I needed her to understand where I stood in our relationship and how I felt about her. 

Aithne closed her mouth and squeezed my hands. 

“I’m not human, Aithne. I never was, and I never will be. I trust and follow my instincts. They have never guided me wrong. I don’t need slow I just need you. From the moment I saw you, all of you, I-” I breathed and steadied myself for my following words. 

“I knew I loved you. Before you try and come up with some explanation, please don’t. I don’t need one. You are mine, and I knew I loved you despite all my fears. We are meant to be chosen by the goddess herself, which is the confirmation I need.” 

I looked down, feeling slightly overwhelmed by my confession. I felt raw and open from laying myself bare before her, but I don’t regret it. 

She needed to know I was confident in us, in our future… in her. 

I waited with betaed breath for her response. My eyes were downcast while I did, but long after I spoke, Aithne’s hand grabbed my chin, and I raised my head.

When I met her eyes, I couldn’t hold back my gasp. They gave everything away. The love was clear as day. 

“I love-” Her voice cracked so full of emotions she couldn’t help it.  “I love you too, so much. I don’t know what I do without you.” Aithne eyes lost the battle and began to shed tears. 

“When I saw you fall over the cliff, my heart stopped, and it was like I was thrown forward into time.” aithne swiped at the tears on her face, but it was useless. They were flowing too fast. 

“And I saw a world without you by my side. A lonely world as I came onto my role as Alpha, especially since there are only two of us now.” 

Aithne let go of my hands, cupped my face, and smiled waterly. “It was a world I would rather die than be in. I don’t know how you did it, but you have become my everything.” 

“So if you are sure truly sure you want this, then…  I want this too.”

I smiled hard and threw my arms around my mate. “Yes. Yes, I want this too!” 

I put back to look at aithne again. “I want us more than anything.” 

Aithne searched my eyes briefly before nodding, pulling me back into her embrace. 

We stayed like that for a while, just hugging. 

“Now we just need to decide when and where,” Aithne mumbled into the crook of my neck.  

“How about here and now,” I replied. 

Aithne pulled back and looked at me with a raised brow. “Our first time needs to be special.” 

“Our first time was in the wood after you saved me from drowning.”  

Aithne blushed and looked down. “That wasn’t supposed to happen like that.” 

I laughed a little. “Well, that’s how it did. Just like now. I don’t need special I need right now at the moment.” 

Aithne looked at me again. “What if I want special?” 

I looked at my mated, unimpressed. “Next time. Now drop your pants and fuck me.” 

Aithne swallowed. “There something you sure know first.” 

My shoulders perked a little, and I sat up. “What is it.” 

“You can still get pregnant..by me.”

I stared at my mate, dumbfounded. “What.”

Aithne wouldn’t meet my eyes and visibly gulped. “It’s some Darius talk to me about when I first turned i guess he had a feeling about my mate being submissive or whatever. But oillie is…. intersex.”

“Intersex?” 

“Yeah, Oillie is both male and female. I guess the goddess wanted to ensure I would be the dominant partner.” 

“So when the time comes, we are ready for children.” Aithne swallowed, and she was blushing from the change in her scent. “We have to shift and do it in our…..second form.”  

A bubble of emotion I pushed so deep came rushing up, and I couldn’t stop the hope I was feeling from spilling over into our link.

“Are… are you saying I would carry our children?” I shoved down the tiny part of my brain that scolded me for the croak of emotion at the begging of my words. 

My valuable mate still wouldn’t meet my eye but instead settled to look at her hand in her lap. “I understand if that’s weird, and if you dont–” 

“Stop.” 

My heart broke at Aithne’s flinch when I told her to stop, but I had to stop her from assuming the worse. 

“I always wanted to be the one to carry our children.” 

Aithne’s sharp breath and wide eyes, when her head shot up, caused me to smile.

“But I had given up on that hope when I met you because I knew I wanted you were more important.” 

“And now that is back on the table?” 

“I’m grateful. I’m grateful I can fulfill my dream of carrying my mate’s children.”

I smiled as my mate studied my features, seeming satisfied when she checked our bond and felt nothing but the truth from my words.

“And one more thing,” I said. 

“Yes?” my mate asked, wary. 

“Im ready.” 

She tilted her head.

“For our mating?” 

“For children,” I responded. “I’ve always been ready.”

Aithne eyes widened ever so slightly before she took a slow breath. “Let us settle things in the pack and our lives before bringing children into it, okay? The own pack is looking for Darius so the council and I can serve the justice he deserves for what he did.” 

“There also going to be the adjustment period of me and you settling into our roles in the pack and the pack adjusting to two alphas instead of three.” 

“Will the pack survive?” I ask, worried.

“It will be hard, but our pack is strong and determined. We can survive anything.” 

I trusted my mate and whatever the goddess had in store for us. 

“And after?” I said 

“Then, after, we can have this conversation again.”

I smiled. “...okay.” 

She smiled. “Okay.” 

“Okay.” 

We stay like that for a while. Just enjoying the silence and moment before we faced whatever the goddess had to throw at us. 

Goddess, I  hope we survive it.  I had to wish we could. 

I wasn’t gonna worry too much and focus one foot in front of the other. I wouldn’t be perturbed. We had to enjoy the moment. 

And speaking of moment……

 “So can we get to the fucking now?” I ask, only sightly impatient after my mate’s dramatic confessions and our future outlook.

She smiled, humor dancing through her eyes. “I suppose to wouldn’t allow me to take the time to set a romantic gave away? 

I shook my head, pulling my shirt over my head and reaching for my pants. “You can set it up for a second time mating.” 

But the time I was reaching for my socks, my mate’s glazes turned from humor to predatory lust, and she began pulling off her clothes and stalked towards me. “The second time then…” 

I giggled, then moaned when my mated dropped to her knees.

***

Three months had since Darius tried to kill me and had been found a public banished from the pack. Three months since the pack has been adjusting to having two alphas instead of three, and aithne is finally stepping up to her role as leader of our pack. 

And since our mating well nonstop mating. 

I finally stepped into my role as an alpha mate, learned my new role, and place alongside Herny as my mentor. However, I didn’t trust the council as they had Darius as their little puppet and couldn’t see just unstable he had gotten with his crush on aithne. 

I did, however, trust one of their assistants; she is also an excellent tutor. 

Things were finally setting in, and I had just the surprise for my mate. 

My mate did as she said, planning a romantic getaway for a second mating. It was an amazing nine days In a beautiful resort just outside of South Doka with underwater snorting, Disney theme dinners, and great filthy sex for us…. and our wolves. 

And well, lets just say there won’t be just two of us now. 

I know my mate wanted to wait until we were ready, and this wasn’t a good time, but things happened, and she knew the risk of wolves mating. 

But more importantly, I wanted this. I wanted this so bad. 

Our happy ending. 

I wasn’t about to lose it. 

“Ayan.” 

I turned to my to the voice calling my name and met my mate’s curious eyes. “How long have you been standing there?”

“Oh, umm, not long.” I hadn’t been standing outside of my mate’s office for a long in fact, I came for lunch, we had planned a lunch date early this morning while still in bed, and I was simply here to remind her of it. 

I licked my lips. “I’m here for a lunch date.” 

Aithne’s eyes darted to my lips for a second before they brightened. “I remembered. Are you ready?” 

“Yes.” I smiled.  “Let’s go. I have a surprise.” 

“A surprise?’’

I nodded and grabbed my mate’s hand. “Yes, so we can’t be late.” 

“Well then, lead the way, mate. I can’t wait.” 

Me either. 

N/A: hello, loves. I am so sorry for the long wait, but I work two jobs now and can only really write when I’m not working or not completely exhausted, but I did it, and here it is!!! 

I know there isn’t a sex scene, but I’m not confident enough in my writing to show yall my attempts, maybe later tho. 

I am excited and sad to say there are officially two chapters left before this adventure is done, and so excited for what’s next. 

Bye, byeee now until the next time. 

Kazzy out!!!