Another source of frustration for Min was the prevalence of active love lives among those around him. Until about six months ago, love was the least of his concerns, and he was content with his life as it was. While there were certain areas that could have been better, he had no desire to seek out romantic connections. However, in recent weeks, an unexpected hunger for love had taken hold of him. During this love-craving phase, he even found himself watching romantic movies—an act he would have scoffed at in the past.
Min yearned to be in a relationship, and he couldn't help but survey the people in front of him, contemplating potential candidates. However, he knew that his shyness and awkwardness would present significant obstacles in the realm of dating.
His gaze first settled on Anna, a focused and outspoken girl who impressively twirled a pen between her fingers while engrossed in her notes. Anna possessed long black locks and a tall figure, standing out from the crowd. Although they didn't spend much time together, they occasionally had brief exchanges when they crossed paths. Anna was well-liked and admired, but she possessed a down-to-earth nature that set her apart from the typical popular girls at school. Min appreciated her authenticity, despite their contrasting personalities. He believed they were opposites character-wise, leading him to consider her a potential match. However, upon further reflection, he realized that their differences might be too significant for the adage of "opposites attract" to hold true. The more he contemplated a relationship with Anna, the more he recognized that it would likely crumble due to the clash of personalities. He didn't want to force himself into romantic feelings for someone if they weren't genuine.
The truth was, Min was attracted to girls, but his attraction to them differed from his attraction to boys. He could appreciate a girl's physical beauty and even had fantasies of intimacy with them. However, when it came to romantic gestures like holding hands or cuddling, he couldn't envision himself engaging in those acts with girls.
Min speculated that his lack of romantic attraction might be rooted in a past traumatic experience. Four years ago, he found himself pursued by Katrina, a Year 3 high-schooler who expressed a desire to date him. Young and overwhelmed, Min was terrified of her. One day, near the restroom, Katrina ambushed him, forcibly grabbing his hand without permission and insisting on taking him to a "secret place." Fortunately, Min managed to summon the strength to push her away and swiftly escaped. He confided in a few friends about the incident, seeking support and understanding.
"Ron, remember that older, creepy girl I mentioned earlier? She came out of nowhere and grabbed my hand!"
"Why do you look so scared, bro?"
"I didn't like her, and she held my hand without asking me."
"If I were you, I would've gone along with her and had a little fun, you know?"
"What?"
"You were in a lucky spot, but you blew it, bro! Have some fun next time. I'd kill to be in your shoes."
Min contemplated whether this encounter had left a lasting impact, influencing his current romantic inclinations or lack thereof.
Turning his attention to boys, Min already had a few individuals in mind. One of them was Denis, characterized by his greenish-blue eyes, thick blonde hair, and attractive lips. He had an air of nobility about him and behaved accordingly. Min had often fantasized about Denis, but his aloof demeanor made approaching him seem daunting. Min believed that he didn't deserve to stand next to someone as untouchable as Denis. Also, the significant rumors of Denis's rudeness led Min to halt his thoughts about him.
As Min's thoughts wandered, he found himself captivated by the idea of dating Kai. Kai's apparent tall stature was merely an illusion, but his perfectly proportioned body, sun-kissed skin, and charming way of speaking ignited a flutter in Min's typically impassive heart. On the surface, Kai exuded a fun-loving and warm-hearted aura, exerting a positive influence wherever he went. However, Min's fantasies abruptly ceased when he discovered that Kai often used "gay" as an insult and engaged in locker room talk.
Then there was Akio—a person who willingly sought out Min's company, demonstrating a level of closeness that surpassed mere friendship but not best friendship. Although Akio possessed the personality traits of a class clown, which wasn't necessarily Min's ideal type, he still found himself daydreaming about him. Yet, like his previous crushes, Min believed that Akio was straight. Additionally, Min recognized the potential pitfalls of pursuing a romantic relationship with one of his few friends, prompting him to suppress further thoughts about it.
Min then thought about Hyun. Undoubtedly, Hyun held the title of the most popular guy in school, a status known to all. His social media presence boasted a substantial fan following, a testament to his widespread appeal. Hyun's remarkable looks were the talk of the school. Standing at an impressive height of approximately 187.6 cm, he commanded attention with his towering stature. His skin showcased a gorgeous light tan that added to his allure. With long, graceful limbs that seemed to belong on a world-class fashion runway, Hyun effortlessly embodied elegance. Delicate pink lips and a well-maintained short hairstyle drew further attention to his striking face, accentuating his captivating aura. But it wasn't just Hyun's physical attributes that attracted Min; it was his multifaceted personality. Despite his initially unapproachable appearance, Hyun stood as the epitome of sociability and outgoingness within their class.
Hyun's sudden thoughts about Min instantly dispelled any notion of a quick nap. His heart raced, and a mix of anticipation and nervousness coursed through him. Min's cheeks flushed with a deeper shade of pink, betraying his hidden heightened emotions. The mere mention of Hyun had the power to throw Min's thoughts into disarray and render him incapable of focusing on anything else.
As Min found himself immersed in these thoughts, Mr. Glenn's voice pierced the air.
"Well, time for a ten-minute break! Remember that we have one more hour to go!"
With the announcement, some students hurriedly exited the classroom, seeking temporary refuge from the clutches of the dreaded math monster. Others arrived to meet their friends, providing a welcome reprieve from the academic demands.
Intending to rest his head and steal a moment of tranquility, Min stayed in his seat. However, his plans were abruptly interrupted by the unexpected arrival of someone.
It was Hyun.
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