Those days, as we were getting closer and spending 24/7 beside each other, we were reaching a dangerous point...

Having a soft spot for him since that day, I was becoming more submissive as he became more dominant...
I felt as though I was an obedient pet for him and doing everything he wanted...

Wearing everything he liked...
Giving him the power to make decisions for me...
Whenever I listened to him, he would've praised me...
Whenever I didn't do the things he asked, he scolded me...
I even got into a fight with Taemin a few times because of Haru's interruptions...
My parents were upset with me because I hadn't put in enough time to be with them...
I don't know how, but eventually,  we got tangled in a strange situation...

~

Have you ever had that experience when you are attached to someone and getting too much close to them will cause a split?!...

Like the times that you should know when you are supposed to put your feet on the break to avoid an accident while driving...

Life is about being aware of how you should keep balance in your relationships...
It's important to have an awareness of when to take a step back and when to step forward.

It's a delicate balance of understanding that if you push too hard, it could create a distance you can't close.
If you don't push hard enough, you might miss out on something important.

I felt like I was under too much pressure from Haru, which suffocated me, but I tried to cope with him and his environment as much as I could in order to please him...
However, it wasn't enough for him...

~

One night, Haru had an argument with his parents over money issues.

I was waiting for him at his place, and as he entered the house, he went straight to pick up some alcohol and started drinking nonstop.

I walked to him, grabbed his hand, and said, "Hey?!... What are you doing?!... We have to work tomorrow!"
Haru pushed my hand off and groaned, "I'm in a shitty mood... leave me alone!..."
He poured a drink and slid it in front of me. "Drink or just go to bed..."

I took the drink and sipped it, despite I didn't like the bitterness of the taste, then I asked, "Tell me, what's wrong?..."

He took another shot and answered, "My parents stole 500K from me..."

"Whaaaaat?!... How?!..." I shouted as I was shocked.

-"There was a time that my own bank account had some issues, so I transferred my money into my mom's account for a while, and now they refuse to give it back... transferred it into some investment programs..."

I was speechless as my jaw dropped...

He continued, "You know what's funny?!... They've never cared about me, nor done a simple favour to me, always tried to get advantage of me or interfere in my life, and now they've claimed that the money belongs to them as my parents because they raised me for about 20 fucking years!... "
Haru chuckled anxiously and rubbed his face." Myung... You know about my past... They didn't even bother themselves to give me pocket money when I was a kid at the age that I couldn't even work part-time... and you were the one who helped me at that time... "
He looked at me with sorrow, " Now they say, they're my parents!... Haha~... because of money~..."

I could feel how heartbroken Haru was, and my heart was in pain watching him like that.
As I was lost for words, I just hugged him tightly and stroked his hair with my hand gently. He broke into tears and held me close. I finally said, "I'm sorry that I can't do anything to help you except hold you in my arms." He pulled away and looked into my eyes, his own still glimmering with tears. He said, "You've done more than enough." I smiled, knowing that this moment was enough to give him some comfort.

Tears welled down my cheeks as he pulled back and stared at me affectionately. "Why are you crying too?... You've helped me a lot~... " he stated while whipping my tears...

We drank and talked about the things he has been through until 4 or 5 AM.
We were completely drunk when we got to bed...

  ~

Tomorrow morning, I didn't hear our phone's alarm at all...

When I opened my eyes and took a glance at my phone, it was 12 PM, and I've got so many missed calls from work...

I got panicked and jumped out of bed, but I stumbled and fell...
Haru woke up to the sound of me hitting the floor... and said, "What happened?!..."

I said nervously, "We're late... it's 12!!!..."

He replied after a groan, "Relax... I'll call and say we will be there after lunch hour..."...
Then he got out of bed and continued, "Go and take a shower, then get ready... we made a whole mess in the living room and kitchen last night... I'll clean it and then take a shower..."

I answered, "Wanna give you a hand?..."

"Nah, it's okay..." he said and got out of the bedroom...

When I got out of the shower, my head pounded like crazy. I still haven't been sober...
So I just lay down on the bed with my robe on.

Haru had done the cleaning already, and he was still quite exhausted and gloomy...
Before taking a shower, he asked me to bring his phone to the bedroom, and if someone called, picked it up...

Although I said okay, I couldn't lift myself up... I could feel my head throbbing...
When I got up, I was hardly able to put my clothes on, then suddenly I heard Haru's ringtone...
I rushed to pick up the phone as I was wearing my pants, but I fell down. I was dizzy so badly...

As his ringtone stopped, my own phone started to ring... So I picked it up, and it was Lee Sora asking me why he wouldn't answer. I explained to her and hung up... then I continued to wear my clothes while I was sitting down on the floor... and that was when Haru came out of the shower...

He said, "Any call?..."

+"Your phone rang, and when I was about to go pick it up, it stopped... "

-"Where did you put my phone?...didn't you check it?!... you know my password..."

+"It was Lee Sora, 'cause she called me right away and I told her that you're under the shower... "...

-"Give me my phone..."

+"Ah... wait a second... I still didn't bring it..."

When he was standing above me, he violently grabbed my chin, shouting, "For fuck's sake, Myung!!!... I told you to keep my phone beside yourself!!!... I asked you one thing and you didn't complete it!..."

I jolted as he raised his voice and answered nervously, "I was about to bring it, but my own phone rang~... and I knew she was the one who called you... and then~..."

-"What if someone else called?! Huh?!... What if we missed an important call?!... As a secretary, you should be aware!!!... It was a simple request!"

+"Why are you yelling at me?!... If you had another call, I'd have noticed it!!!... I'm not deaf... "

He sat down on the chair and said, " Go bring it now... I swear to god if you missed any call!..."

I was annoyed by him making a fuss out of nothing and replied while I got up to bring him his phone, "Fine!... But what would you do if there wasn't any call?!..."

Then I handed it over to him...

It was apparent that he hadn't received any other notifications because he suddenly got quiet and frowned.
After staring at him for a few minutes while standing in front of him, he didn't say anything and kept himself busy with the phone.

I was mad at him for treating me shitty out of the blue, but I decided not to talk since I knew he was acting this way because of what happened to him yesterday. I sighed and lay down on the bed. I turned my back on him and started playing with my phone until he got ready...

Then he made a few calls and talked for a while. After he finished his call, I heard him come close to me, and I tensed up. He put an arm around me and hugged me from behind.
I didn't give him any reaction since I was about to blow up. I kept my mouth shut to not make it worse, and he also remained silent. I could only feel his breathing near my neck.

He then let go and walked away, not saying a word...
I got up and left the house earlier without saying anything or making eye contact, and I waited in the parking lot for him when I realized he was ready to leave...

We got in the car and headed to the office...
While on our way, both of us were silent, not saying a word at all. Being with him in the car was suffocating... I could feel he stared daggers at me from time to time...

 ~

After we arrived at his office, lunch was already on the table at his office, prepared by one of his assistants. Haru finally opened his mouth and said, "Let's eat..."...

Since I felt nauseated, caused by my headache and alcohol, I refused to eat and said, "I'm fine... you can eat..."...

As I said this, he threw all the food on the floor, and I was at a loss for words for his reaction.
I know he was just venting his anger at me, so I just kept quiet.
Without saying anything, I called the janitor to clean up the office.

He got up and sat behind his desk, then said, "We had a meeting today with Lee Sora, prepare the documents that are needed... "

I said okay and left his room.

I was so busy preparing for the meeting that I didn't have time to check my cellphone's notifications... because it kept buzzing, but I assumed that it was probably Taemin who was texting.

Thankfully, I was ready when Lee Sora arrived at his office, but...