Exhibit B,C,D,E,AND F:
Our 13th , 14th, 15, 16th, and 17th years I observed this,
Happy to be a witness and not a participant.
Clover and Fiat. The worst.
Fiat doesn't give Clover enough attention, they break up.
A new male friend materializes by Clover's side, Fiat loses his shit.
Throws several tantrums, complains endlessly to me, and provokes civil unrest among the gang against whatever gang this new male has, and chaos ensues.
We all fight, to protect that lunatic.
All of us get our wounds patched up at the local clinic while Clover fawns over Fait and they end up back together.
There are many other exhibits of this awful behavior, that I have cataloged but I'm not cruel enough to escort you down that memory lane.
-Present-
I return to my seat and eat my cereal. "You're sulking."
"I'M NOT"
"You are, what is it?"
Fiat finishes off his milk and looks down at me. "You're gonna tell me eventually, so can we bypass this part and get to you spilling?"
I roll my eyes. He smiles, that annoyingly dazzling grin of his.
"You're so cute, when you pout." He says before pinching my cheek. I swat away his hand.
"Your pouting face is almost as adorable as your smile."
Told you he was charming. This is exactly why all our teachers fall for his shenanigans. All the teachers, men and women. Fiat flirts with everyone.
He sits on the edge of the table, and his fingers are suddenly in my hair as he scratches my scalp.
Strange right? Let me explain. When we were kids I was afraid of 2 things, the dark, and sleepovers at strange homes. Fiat very frequently invited Jay, Steel, and me over for sleepovers as kids. For the longest time, I was able to finagle out of going but when we were about ten I had just about used every excuse when Fiat finally went over my head. Fiat had his mother call my mother. She accepted and forced me to go.
Pretty quickly I came up with a plan. I was going to wait till the lights were out and sneak off to the bathroom and sleep in the tub with the lights on. Everything went according to plan and I breathed a sigh of relief as I lounged in the spacious tub. I played games on my phone prepared to ride out the night. That was until I heard the door open and Fiat walks into the bathroom.
What are you doing?"
I look from him to my phone nervously. "Playing games on my phone. I'm not tired."
"Liar, you were falling asleep during the movie."
My mouth goes dry. I didn't think he had noticed.
"You know you're gonna tell me so just tell me." He climbs into the tub and sits across from me. "And forget about whatever weird excuse you're trying to come up with, the truth please."
Man, how did he know? I resign and slump my shoulders. I look down at the dinosaurs on my pajama pants. I mumble. "I don't like to sleep out 'cause I'm afraid of the dark."
"Huh?"
I say it louder. "I'm afraid of the dark," I say flatly.
Fiats face scrunches. "That's all?"
He rolls his eyes and stands up. He pulls me up by my wrist and brings me back into his dark bedroom. He walks over to his bookshelf and flips a switch on a white cord connected to a glass globe with star shapes cut out of it. Warm light illuminates his room and small star shapes cover the ceiling and walls. Jay and Steel are sound asleep in their sleeping bags on the floor.
Fiat takes my hand and pulls me onto his bed. He lays a pillow on his lap and pushes my head down on it. "My mother does this when I have nightmares." He whispers and then starts to scratch my scalp.
I don't know when I fell asleep. I just know I woke up the next morning and I was asleep on his arm, under his blanket.
-Present-
I smack his hand away. "Stop."
"Then tell me what's bugging you."
"Finals are bugging me. All of you said that you wanted us to take a trip after finals. We have this break before we start our first semester. We are in different faculties, we won't be able to take a trip if some of us fail exams and have to take retakes."
I pull my hoody up over my head and lower my head to eat my cereal. Fiat pushes my hoody back.
"You're wrong. We may be in different faculties, but we're not breaking up. We will always be best friends."
"If you say so," I whisper sardonically into my cereal.
When I'm done eating my cereal, Fiat picks up my bowl and drinks my milk. He always does this. I don't mind I just throw the milk away anyways, that's not to say it isn't weird. It is.
Clover enters the kitchen and wraps her arms around Fiat's neck and kisses him.
Ugh, then again maybe it's good that we will be separated. The sight of this I could do without for the remainder of my life. I roll my eyes and walk my bowl over to the sink.
I can hear their lips smacking together behind me and a chill runs down my spine. The thought occurs to me how often Fiat eats off my spoon and steals my drinks and meals. So many indirect kisses. My heart drops at the thought, no matter how many indirect kisses we have. Fiat will never kiss you.
That's another reason why this trip is so important to me. I have to tell Fiat how I feel. I read an article online recently about Unrequited love that said if you confess your unrequited love no matter the outcome it's better than holding it inside. The article said if you confess and those feelings are returned it's a win, but if your love rejects you it's a win too. Why? The article went on to explain that if you never say it and they never know the love might never end. But if you tell them and they reject you that is the very first step in getting over your love. Over time your heart will heal, and eventually, you'll be open to new love. I wasn't convinced at first but after reading it two or three more times, it started to make sense to me. The logic seems sound enough.
I walk out of the kitchen and head to the dining room to pack up my books and study materials. I rush out of the house and head home before anyone asks me anything.
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