A day before yesterday, I was anticipating the main task for the next day, which is yesterday, wherein I assigned myself to generally clean where I'm staying to address the elephant in the room all this time. One of the reasons why I'm not so productive during school days is a not-so-tidy study/homework desk. And so, because I know it will really take time and I'm so enamored with my school break work already, like I already got the momentum, flow, and all, I have a list of task/s per day that I've prepared beforehand, right at the beginning of this challenge; at Day One. The day finally came, praise God for another day, and my assigned task was general cleaning. I was saddened all of a sudden because again, I just wanna work all day long and set aside cleaning. But I had a eureka moment after that which is if I just go with what I feel at the moment, if I just follow my subjective outlook always, then I will never be able to reach my objective long-term goals and accomplish my dreams in the long run. And so I cleaned yesterday. But deep down I'm yearning for a different activity, right? So it was a disaster.

Instead of cleaning right away so that I can finish earlier and get back to work as soon as I can, I succumbed to procrastination because of disliking the task at hand, which technically will obviously benefit me like what am I even doing, scrolling to soc. med. for hours?! So again, because of procrastinating, I did clean up my workspace but I finished at night. Now, today, as I pondered what happened yesterday, I promised myself that I will clean up and finish earlier because my morning task assigned today is to clean another room, which is bigger than my workspace, but I tell you, I thank God for making it on time this time! This just showed and got to prove to myself that, "ok, I love working now, great! But cleaning up is amazing too." Look, I got a tidier space and I must say I feel more energized to get back to my work!

I also realized that I was trying to justify myself (to myself too lol), "Hey, I'm not procrastinating anymore; I'm getting my work done in time so I must keep this as it is... but cleaning is my assigned task for today so if I put this on another day, I'm gonna delay another day's task that will roll over all the days and disrupt the schedule; which means I'm about to procrastinate again if I don't clean today." Self-examination is vital to progress and it becomes clearer if done after praying to ask wisdom from God for discernment. Also, a balance between subjective and objective critical thinking is needed; we can't be over-subjective or just objective all the time either; equilibrium is key. That's it for today, love you guys & gals! Take care :)