In the last episode...

As Jin cleaned up their glasses, Anan’s mind raced with thoughts about the sex they were possibly going to have. And he started to get nervous again. It wasn’t that he wasn’t ready, because he was definitely long-overdue for some anal penetration. But he didn’t really know what to expect. Aside from the mechanics of sex, having that experience with another person was extremely intimate, and it could be good, great, okay, or just plain shitty.

And now...

He must’ve been deeper into his thoughts than he realized, because he almost screamed when Jin’s hand was suddenly on his thigh. Well, it was sudden for Anan. While he was preoccupied with thoughts about them sweating and panting together, Jin was watching him. It was obvious that Anan was distracted, but Jin still thought he’d notice when the bed sank as he sat down next to him. 

“Sorry,” Jin smiled, “I didn’t mean to scare you.”

The younger man ran his fingers through his tightly curled hair, “no, it’s okay. I was out of it.” Anan wasn’t aware of how Jin’s cock stiffened at the sight of his hands combing through his hair. For whatever reason, Jin found that extremely sexy. He found almost everything Anan did extremely sexy. Just the thought of the drop of water that had fallen down his chin earlier had Jin adjusting his position on the bed. He wanted Anan. Badly. There was no doubt about that. But he didn’t want to scare him off, especially after that exhibitionist display in the sauna. 

Maybe it was too late to worry about scaring him off.

“I want you, Anan. But I want you to feel as comfortable as possible. And if you want me to go, I’ll go.”

Anan was kind of scared, he couldn’t lie to himself about that. Part of him thought that it would be easier to take Jin’s suggestion and ask him to leave. He wouldn’t have to go through any of the awkward parts that came with having sex for the first time, and he’d still have the memory of their time together in the sauna. It would definitely be easier. But, as he looked over at the handsome man that wanted him, he laughed at the thought of saying no. Regardless of how awkward or weird it might’ve ended up, Anan needed to at least take the chance with Jin. 

So, instead, he posed a question, “does the fact that I’m a virgin change that?”

Jin looked at Anan, his gaze hot and intense. If he was having any doubts, it wasn’t obvious. “No, it doesn’t.” He waited for Anan to give him a sign or a word, anything that said he wanted to do this and was sure.

Anan swallowed, then shook the last of his doubts away, “I want you, too-.” Before he could even finish his sentence, Jin’s lips were on his, desperate and hungry. 

He had to fight with his desire to keep from rushing anything. As much as he wanted to be inside Anan, he also wanted to savour every moment, and really take his time feeling and tasting every inch of his beautiful body. Anan pulled away, breathless, which gave Jin a chance to kiss his way down his neck. 

The feeling of Anan’s pounding heart made Jin smile, and he went to kiss the area that covered it. When Jin’s mouth captured that nipple, Anan gasped, then made a sound he’d never heard come out of himself. This made him feel more self-conscious, and he moved to cover his mouth. Jin, on the other hand, loved hearing how he made Anan feel, and noticed that he was trying to keep those feelings to himself. He lifted his head, “I love the way you sound.”

Anan flushed, “but…” He trailed off, though, unsure of what his protests were going to be. 

Jin put an arm around Anan, carefully laying him down on the bed. Having a man tower over him felt even better than Anan had ever imagined it would. Especially with someone like Jin. His muscles flexed as he moved to kiss Anan’s chest again, and made his thoughts vanish into thin air. When he kissed and licked him like that, he couldn’t focus on anything but the way he felt.

And it felt so good.

This time, he didn’t fight the sounds of pleasure that escaped from him as Jin worked his way down. His tongue danced along Anan’s abdomen, and he stopped when he finally reached his waistline. Jin looked down at the tattoo a few inches above the man’s right hip that read Explore. It could have multiple meanings, but Jin had a pretty good idea of what it was. He smiled up at Anan, “I didn’t notice this before.” Anan flushed, which told Jin that he was probably right. Jin made quick work of the man’s jeans, throwing them to the side once he’d finally managed to tug them off of his legs. Despite his nerves, that made Anan laugh, and Jin was glad to see him more at ease.

The laughter fell away as Jin got closer and closer to Anan’s sex, and a violent shiver went up his spine. He knew that having someone else touch him would feel different, but he never thought that it would feel like this . Every touch from Jin excited him, and he found himself wanting more. As much as he was enjoying their taking things slow, he needed more.