I took another few days at home to fully rest up and stack up enough energy before going back to work. Being a CEO does have its perks. I bid my two girls goodbye and get into my car and drive off to work. I pack my car in the parking lot, and head towards the elevator. As the door is about to close, I see a guy running with a briefcase bag on his shoulder. “Hold the door for me please”,He yells with a deep thick voice. The voice catches me by surprise and I instinctively press hold. I own this company and I pride myself in getting to know and socialize every once in awhile with everyone who works for me. But...this voice...this deep manly voice....never in my life have I ever thought that a man's voice would make my knees weak and get me all nervous. I loosen my tie and fix my hair ready to meet the owner of such a sexy voice. I hope I look alright, I think to myself. He rushes in and tries to calm his breath from all the running. It seems he has been running for awhile. He is bend down so I can't really see his face. After a few seconds, he finally calms down and raises his head to face me. Immediately, The first thought that hits me is Daaamn he is tall!! His eyes takes a second to adjust and look down at me. I pride myself for being tall but next to him, I feel like a kid. Quik, think of something smart to say- My one brain cell decides to go for a vacation when I need it the most obviously. So I just do what any other guy would do, gawk at him and smile . Standing next to me, is a tall muscular guy, smiling at me with the most gorgeous smile and sexiest eyes that I've ever seen in my whole 35 years on earth.

“Hey man, thanks for holding the door for me. Fuck, I can’t believe I got lost more than once even with google map to help me!!!” He laughs and I become awestruck again. I look at him, how his Adam apple tremble every time he laughs, I could listen to his laugh all the time and never get tired of it. I feel an urge to impress him and get to know him more. Does he work here? Please work with me..For the love of Gods, please let him work here. I despearately try to pray. I try to say something in response but my mind is completely blank. After a few seconds, he extends his hand to me, “hey, my name is Tony, the new IT tech guy, just got hired here last week. I figured since we both work here, might as well get to know each other. I am new in town too, so maybe we can hit up a few joints on the weekend and get to know each other if you don’t mind. I need friends, my roommate is always trying to convince me to socialize and go out there.” He patiently waits for my handshake with his smile not wavering. I shake his hand and am immediately reminded of his presence yet again. I have big hands but in his hand, my hand seems too small. He shakes it firmly yet gentle and when he lets go, I feel the warmth leave as well and am tempted to reach for his hand again. “Hey, welcome to the company, my name is Seo-Jun, and yeah I would love to show you around when you get time.” I say nervously. I am still in shock as to what is happening. I am the one who leaves everyone with weak knees and butterflies in the tummy, but now facing this guy, I feel like my knees will give in any second. I hope my face is not a red tomato by now as I try to steady my heartbeat. This is bad, I need to escape and try to compose myself. As if on cue, the elevator door opens and I beeline my way to the office hoping I seemed cool to him.

I take big breaths and try to think rationally to what just happened. Does this mean, I am gay? But when I tried to kiss men, I felt disgusted, what does this mean? I try to imagine the new guy kissing me, and I immediately get a hard on. “Are you fucking me now?” I sigh angrily. I hear a knock on my door and I retain my composure before letting them in.

“Good morning sir, I hope you had a pleasant trip to Seoul. thank you for the candies, I will distribute them to everyone during break time. This files need your signature and according to the project xyz…” I am grateful for the distraction, I spend the next few hours immersed in work and hardly take any break.

“Can you come in my office Eva” I call my secretary later on in the day. “Please update me on the new hire, can you hand me over his profile?” Eva walks in and gives me the file, I look at it and go through it. “Tony Ndereba, he is 33 years, comes from Kenya, studied IT at the university in Germany and moved here after getting this position.” She explains that he is quite capable and qualified for the role.

I read through his profile and I'm impressed by his achievements. I spend the rest of the day getting distracted by his smile, voice and looks at the 5-minute enocounter that we just had earlier. At the end of the day I'm irritated at myself and annoyed. I go home and take a long bath and try to calm myself down. Later, when petting Piper, I try to think rationally as to why I reacted the way I did. “Why am I getting flustered just by looking at another man? Whats wrong with me? I call the shots, so why did my knees go weak and got butterflies in my stomach? Does that mean I'm gay? But I hate kissing other men? Does it mean I'm a bottom? How can that be possible? An alpha like me? Naah, something is wrong with me, I need some answers...I need to call Kaylah.”

I pick up my phone and call Kaylah, its almost 9 pm now. I’ve known her since high school since our parents are friends. “Hey, want to go for drinks tonight? Let’s meet up at our usual joint. I'm paying, just bring your ass to the club” I tell her as soon as she answers the phone. “Whoa, someone seems to be in trouble, alright Bet, lets meet there in an hour, am hungry, order some food while you are at it, hehehe” I cut the call and get ready to leave and get some answers.

I get there quite fast and start my order. Knowing Kaylah, I order some ribs with fries. I order shrimps n wait for her to get here. After 20 minutes, I spot her squeezing herself among the crowd to get to me.

She barely gives me a hug before asking for food. “I'm starving....what did you get me?” She asks. I watch her settle in and fill her on the order details. After awhile, the waiter brings our food and we start eating. I am a regular at this particular restaurant so I always get the VIP treatment. I'm deep in thought when I realize I drifted off from Kayla’s talks at some point.